I’ll smile even if it’s hurting to wear

“Did something happen…with your old group?”

✽─ ━  Ⴝêêᛕêᚱ A slight hum came from her while she was in thought when she was asked to recount what happened to her old agnecy she worked at there. Honestly she still couldn’t let it go since she trusted that person the most to only end up being stabbed in the back by them there.  ❝I lost complete trust with my old group there due to a major incident, after that I learned the hard way to keep your friends close but your enemies closer.  Perhaps at a later point I’ll recall it entirely to you but it’s a long story.❞  

“Sounds like you’ve had some firsthand experience with that,”

✽─ ━  Ⴝêêᛕêᚱ ❝True but they can be too lax at times when it comes to finishing up their job. It is what it is though and I can’t ask for anything else for them there either.❞ sometimes she does catch her partners being too laidback that they forget to take notes during their job however most of the time she can’t complain even if she wants too. As long as her clients and team is happy that’s that matters to her. ❝You can say that. Back during my previous job my last partner ended up being my downfall in with that group, it just left a nasty aftertaste for me there.❞

“It’s good that you’re mostly still the same person as you were, right?”

Of course there were times when it does gets stressful with the amount of cases she had to put up with but her clients were always easy to trust and thanks to her recent abilites that is an added bonus to get the job done too. Hopefully the other can find a place that can be like that-although she wouldn’t mind getting him the job in her workplace but things are quite complicated though. ❝Mostly still the same. Although now these days I just give the benefit of doubt to put my full trust in others though, afterall-you have to earn someone trust before putting it in too blindly. ❞

“ i’m never gonna let you go.  ”

He proceeded to finish off the donut, dusting off his hands. “…It was a pretty good donut though.”

❖ ─ ━ ɩɴⅴеႽτɩնατοʀ ❝It’s the fact that you assumed there was some sort of motive behind me bring these in-that’s why. ❞ A small sigh and a shake of her head were to follow as she hummed in response when he finished it up there, at least he likes it-that’s all that matters to her really. ❝That’s good that you like it then. Next time I’ll make some more treats like this but um....may I ask if you have something that you prefer more or that is your favourite more or less.... ❞

“What were you like in your younger days?”

✽─ ━  Ⴝêêᛕêᚱ ❝That’s right. For me I guess I rather work with people that are more easy going but still hardworking at the same time. ❞ A small chuckle escaped her lips when he asked her that there. It’s been a while since she thought of it though. ❝My aren’t you a curious one. During my younger days I was more carefree and more trusting towards others there, though as I grow older I guess that still the same a bit there except for my appearance though that is the only thing I did change.  ❞

“  it’s just another day to pretend.  ” “  emotions are too much for me.  ” “  every single day,  i fight another war.  ” “  i lead my life within a lie.  ” “  i’m not ill,  i’m just driven.  ” “  underneath it all,  we’re all human beings.  ” “  don’t fuck with me,  hoe.  ” “  every single night,  i feel more powerful.  ” “  the less you feel,  the more you know.  ” “  i’m human,  too.  ” “  you should never be ashamed to have it all.  ” “  i’m not here for love tonight.  ” “  you’ve come a long way.  ” “  come on,  talk to me.  ”  “  your bullshit ain’t fooling me.  ” “  i didn’t even leave my house last week.  ” “  i see you watching me.  ” “  i’m doing this for myself only.  ” “  you’re so forgettable.  ” “  i know i can do better than them.  ” “  nobody’s gonna shine like you   &   me.  ” “  they think that i’m crazy.  ” “  burn bright,  don’t burn out.  ” “  i never would have guessed that we’d be friends.  ” “  what if it all went away today?  ” “  i’m just like you.  ” “  i know what you did last night.  ” “  what’s another life out of seven billion?  ” “  i got a hundred tabs open in my mind.  ”

“   you  don’t  have  to  hide  your  tears  from  me .   ” “   you’re  doing  great ,   okay ??   i mean it .   ” “   you  are  so  strong .   ” “   please  don’t  ever  give  up .   ” “   i  will  always  believe  in  you .   ” “   why  do  you  always  think  you  have  to  do  everything  on  your  own ??   ” “   it’s  okay ,   i’m  here .   i’ll  always  be  here .   ” “   you’ve  always  been  strong  for  me .   let  me  return  the  favor .   ” “   just  listen  to  my  heartbeat ,   okay ??   ” “   come  on ,   take  a  deep  breath .   it’s  gonna  be  alright .   ” “   please ,   just  hold  me .   ” “   you  always  meant  the  world  to  me .   i’m  sorry  i  let  you  forget  that .   ” “   i  never  stopped  loving  you .   ” “   you’ll  feel  better  if  you  talk  about  it .   i’m  here  to  listen .   ” “   you’re  so  much  more  than  the  mistakes  you’ve  made .  ” “   i  forgive  you .   ” “   you  are  so  fucking  powerful .   ” “   i’m  not  leaving  you  here .   ” “   i  trust  you  more  than  anyone  else  in  this  universe .   ” “   it’s  okay  to  be  confused .   nobody  has  all  the  answers .   ” “   i’m  so ,   so  sorry .   you  didn’t  deserve  that .   ” “   healing  is  not  linear ,   but  it’s  always  moving  forward .   ” “   you  can  admit  that  you’re  hurting .   it’s  okay  to  not  be  okay .   ” “   hold  my  hand ??   ” “   you  are  my  home .   ” “   no  matter  what  anyone  else  says ,   you  are  so  important  to  me .   ” “   don’t  worry .   i’ll  protect  you .   ” “   shh ,   it  was  just  a  nightmare .   you’re  safe .   ” “   don’t  talk  about  yourself  like  that .   ” “   just  say  the  word .   you  know  i’d  do  anything  for  you .   ” “   you  are  loved .   ” “   i  just  need  a  hug .   ” “   i’ll  destroy  anything  that  so  much  as  thinks  of  harming  you .   ” “   don’t  ever  let  anyone  make  you  feel  ashamed  of  who  you  are .   ” “   you’re  not  alone .   you’re  stuck  with  me  forever .   sorry .   ” “   well ,   hello  sleeping  beauty .   you  fell  asleep  on  me .   ” “   if  you  don’t  take  your  butt  back  to  bed ,   i  will  carry  you  there  myself .   ” “   i’m  sorry  to  wake  you  up ,   but  i  really  need  someone  to  talk  to .   ” “   i  hate  seeing  you  like  this   …   please ,  let  me  help .   ” “   you  are   &   always  will  be  precious  to  me .   ” “   i  can’t  believe  that  asshole  said  that  to  you .   it’s  not  true ,   you  know .    ” “   you  want  me  to  punch  him  in  the  face  ??   ” “   you  deserve  every  good  thing  in  the  world .   ” “   you  know  i  always  have  your  back .   ” “   you  don’t  have  to  worry  about  anything ,   as  long  as  i’m  around .   ” “   stop  apologizing ,   okay ??   i’ve  already  told  you  i’ve  forgiven  you  a  hundred  times now .   ” “   don’t  beat  yourself  up  over  this .   be  kind  to  yourself ,   it’s  not  your  fault .   ”

“  what am i supposed to do when i can’t even trust my own mind?  ”  “  i have to believe death is the end. because all that waits for me in the afterlife is a debt of sin i don’t think could ever be paid off.  ” “  what do you see when you look into my eyes?  ”   “  it doesn’t always have to be you, you know?  your shoulders aren’t the only ones that can bear the weight of the world.  ”   “  i don’t think hearts break. shattered things can only be broken once. but torn things can be mended again and again until it’s all scars and stitching.  ” “  i can’t remember what it’s like to be truly wanted.  ” “  every time you look at me i feel invisible.  ” “  loneliness is a slow and cruel poison.  ” “  i’m afraid that if i let you see every side of me, you should shrink back in fear or disgust.  ” “  for once in your life, what is it that you want.  ” “  i’ve been wrapped in my sorrow for so long, i’m afraid i’ll feel too cold without it.  ” “  i just want to see you smile again.  ” “  can’t you stop running for one second?  ” “  i’ll be here. when you’re ready to talk.  ” “  being strong doesn’t mean never asking for help or admitting you’re in pain.  ” “  don’t shut me out. please.  ” “  don’t look at me like that.  ” “  the world isn’t made up of heroes and monsters. just broken people balancing between the two.  ” “  i just wanted to do something good for once.  ” “  why can’t you tell me what’s wrong?  ” “  just trust me. please.  ” “  why can’t you let me in? what are you so afraid of?  ” “   you’re so worried about losing me/them you’re missing everything in front of you.  ”   “  i’m not leaving you.  ” “  you’re not alone. i’m here.  ” “  you see everyone so clearly except yourself.  ” “  don’t you understand? i love you. and nothing you’ve done, no matter how much of a monster you think you are, is gonna change that.  ” “  i find broken things interesting. maybe that’s why i like you so much.  ” “  i want to be whatever it is you think i am.  ” “  you see the good in everything. that’s why i like it when you look at me.  ” “  i’ll still be here when you wake.  ” “  i promise i’ll never hurt you again.  ” “  as long as i have you, the rest doesn’t matter.  ” “  what did they do to you?  ” “  i’m not sure i should leave you alone.  ” “  i won’t hate you. i know you think that’s what you deserve but it’s not.  ” “  i want to love the parts of you that you hate.  ” “  i’m scared of what you’re becoming.  ” “  i’m sorry, i’m not what you think i am.  ” “  you’ll always have a home with me.  ” “  what happened to you?  ” “  i thought i’d never see you again.  ” “  you’re such a fucking coward.  ” “  i envy anyone who has the privilege of being loved by you.  ” “  you scared me.  ” “  please, don’t ever give up on me.  ” “  i’m not giving up on you. not ever.  ” “  i know you love me. but it’s not the way i want to be loved.  ”

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“What’s with the sudden interest in bringing sweets in?” he asked through a mouthful of food before swallowing, “Did I miss a holiday? It’s not someone’s birthday, is it?”

❖ ─ ━ ɩɴⅴеႽτɩնατοʀ ❝Can’t I do something nice without any motive behind it or something? I just wanted to share some treats with you that’s all and I don’t mind baking things once in a while too. ❞ There was a small pout of annoyance when she answered there, she just thought it was a be a nice gesture to show him there since they are partners and such. Plus it was one way she could get closer to him a little.