⇢༘ LULA࿐

i need someone to appreciate the amount of work this took. i have been going at this for 9 hours straight 💀

please don't look at ryan's hand too closely though. when i went to render it at the end i completely ran out of motivation and just went "fuck it". but if you squint it looks alright, so you better squint, ok? 🫵

i also think i like it being softer? i didn't want to over-render this one because i have a terrible habit of polishing everything until it loses all its life. so i challenged myself to keep it really simple and basically blocked everything in using nothing but the hard airbrush in procreate

ughhhhh yes please smile and then kisss!!!

and THIS SONG by Sydney Rose Mitchell???? i've had it on loop for a concerning amount of time...

it's so ryanaim, every single lyric had me sitting there pointing like that leonardo dicaprio meme going "THEM. THAT'S THEM!!"

the first verse about lying about the scars immediately reminded me of this beautiful fic by @magneticghouls where they hide the bruises/wounds the entities leave on them from each other. i haven't stopped thinking about that since i read it!

Drawing time: 8h

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song reference for the time-lapse:

me, seeing a song with snake in the band name, obsession, true love, emotional codependency, destruction and immediately going “yeah that’s ryanaim”

i think the only thing i was missing was the religious guilt?? or maybe not, because:

being together is the only place they don't have to perform. they feel whole together. not to mention the word clean and how it relates to sin