can i be selfish?
hiiragi toma x reader : 700+
summary : he got hurt. and that all leads to overthinking! reassure him, please!! notes : this is a pretty short one and this was back in sept '24 until college kicked my ass... sorry for half-ass quality!!
hiiragi stayed quiet as you bandaged his wounds. the red skin scrapped from his knuckles made you cringe. he found amusement in your reactions, though. trying to keep the mood lighthearted for your sake. he loves you too much to upset you. you know how much he loves this town and how much he loves you too, so he does his best to keep himself out of trouble if he could.
he stayed too quiet this time. too quiet for your comfort.
you couldn't help but steal a glance at him, just a peek wouldn't hurt. he seemed to be buried in his thoughts. his face seeming so serious that it might worry you a little. (it does worry you, actually.)
"toma?" you called out, keeping your voice down as you gently poked at his arm, startling him a little.
"oh. sorry."
what's he sorry for? if it were the fights, you couldn't blame him for that. he's doing a good thing protecting this town, wasn't he?
you quickly finish wrapping the bandage on his wound, almost a bit too tight for his comfort when you noticed his hand squirm a little in your hold, making you adjust it again. "sorry…" now it was your turn to apologise.
a smile tugged at the corners of his lips, shaking his head. "no, it's okay." he assured you, pulling you closer until you sat on his lap. his arms squeezed you tightly and you had to wriggle out a bit, making you both giggle. your fingers run through his hair and his body relaxed at the gesture. you could feel the tension in his shoulders disappear as he only hugged you tighter.
he could be quiet sometimes. but this worries you, maybe a bit. actually, a whole lot.
hiiragi's hold only tightened when he felt you pull away for a bit, taking the chance to bury his face against the crook of your neck. there, now you're trapped.
"toma..."
"i know."
his hot breath tickled your skin as he whispered, not exactly sounding like himself. he reluctantly released you, though his hands stayed around you, keeping his hands on you even if you tried to pull them off.
it was slightly amusing to see this side of him but you quickly pushed that thought away.
"everything all good...?" even you seemed hesitant to ask for a bit, sitting up to look at his handsome face more clearly, to see his brows furrowed together, his eyes glued to your face.
"...i wish i didn't fight all the time." he admitted, keeping his voice down a soft whisper as if he was scared to break the comfortable silence you two were sharing. "but then, i'm grateful. i'd be able to protect you."
a frown appeared on his face. "but if something happened to you... and i'm nowhere around to help... what then?" hiiragi's grip tightened around you, feeling your warmth against his hands was starting to feel like it wasn't enough.
he only seemed to calm down when your hands cupped his face, his eyes fluttering for a moment to savor your touch.
"toma," your voice calm and quiet, "you can trust on me to stay safe." your response didn't seem to satisfy him, though. you could only let out a sigh and chuckle.
"that's still not enough..."
he seemed like a sad dog at that moment, tugging at your heartstrings how this man could be so cute.
his hands pressed against your back, pulling you closer to him again and holding you tighter. "...it's still not enough." he whispered. he nuzzled into your neck, your body squirming away from the ticklish feeling. "it's always never enough."
you wouldn't be able to convince him at this point, letting out a sigh as you pat his head. "i don't know what's going through that head of yours..." you tease him a bit, shaking your head. "you don't have to do anything today. we can stay like this all day."
and now he seemed to perk right back up. looking at you in hopes you actually meant it. you could see the imaginary tail wagging behind him.
"even if umemiya was looking for me?" your smile widened at his silly, silly question. "of course. we'll stay like this all day."
"i'm glad."
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