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āArknights/Limbus Company/etc is obviously very political, why are these incels playing it?ā Hereās a longer answer if youāre interested.
If you havenāt been watching gacha communities for the past decade this might be confusing to you, but these guys see the games as just apolitical stories with a majority or all-female cast being there to titillate the male viewer. They are for his consumption. Itās why in both eastern and western āgacha gameā communities you can see them talking about how these games are better for having ābeautifulā anime women versus the hideous hags of western media. Iāve seen so many people asking āhow are incels playing a game with so many strong female characters?ā They see them not as āstrong femaleā characters but rather āeyecandy made for meā. tbh when it comes down to it I wouldnāt call any of the designs in these games absolutely groundbreaking for the anime genre theyāre aiming for. Arknights even follows the standard āfully animal faced-guyā and the female equivalent āsmall featured anime animal girl with some furā. This doesnāt mean the designs are bad or youāre foolish for enjoying them of course, there are a lot of fun ones. Anyway, you can see the same sentiment in the majority of anime communities as well. Like do you think that stereotype of an anime nerd who āloves 2D women but hates 3D womenā means heās a feminist because the 2D girl is still female?
To be frank, after some of the actions taken by these companies (ex. the firing of women for posting anything vaguely feminist) can you honestly say an āapolitical game with anime babesā is not the way the games are often enjoyed? The company Yostar who publishes Arknights in Korea literally wrote a statement saying the game is apolitical and calling feminism a dividing force. If the publisher can say something so flippantly like this just to appease their incel fanbase, how can the game be making any meaningful, hardline progressive political statements? I am of course not saying this renders any positive message you get from these games moot nor am I saying itās impossible for the writers to be passionate about their work, Iām just relaying the thoughts of the incels/āgacha gamersā playing them because there seems to be confusion. What Iām writing here doesnāt mean the worst interpretation of these games are their defining interpretations. Iām trying to explain how the games that many people see as being antithetical to incel beliefs can have these same men as high-spending fans.
Gacha games are unique in the world of consumer media in their extremely close and constant relationship with the consumer. You have to not only love each characterās design (and sometimes story) but also be willing to drop serious gambling money to ābuyā them every single month. Itās like merchandizing on steroids. I think the term āwhaleā has been watered down since younger kids have started playing, but these people spend thousands per patch. Over the years Iāve heard about multiple games like this being sustained by just a couple of high spenders. In 2018 there was even a western news article about a man who had spent $70k+ on FGO. The publisher canāt rock the boat too much to displease the consumer too many times without risking EoS. Every character design and story of a gacha game is affected by this FIRST while any artistic intent comes second.
A Korean woman who had lost her job due to similar āfeminist huntingā tactics wrote an article describing the way these incel men think. I posted it here and part of it summarized: the men that play these games see themselves as buying and āowningā the female characters in gacha games, who are often dressed and presented to them in a highly sexualized manner and will obey their commands. In the same way they āownā these 2D women, they also want to own the thoughts of the real live female illustrators who work on the games. Therefore, if these women have expressed ideas that the male gamers find upsetting, they will be angry she doesnāt conform to what they want like the servile 2D girl and do everything to get her fired (this is where she mentions Limbus Company as the most recent example of this happening).
You can argue for some of these games, maybe the girls arenāt dressed super provocatively and give (you) shit instead of being a simpering doll, but in the end itās not like they can physically walk away or stop speaking to you. For the āwaifuā hunter guy itās just a different type of anime girl to collect.
The stories in these games are generally not what gets targeted as much by incels. In gacha āgamerā communities, especially the Korean incel ones, their main concerns are: how revealing are the summer swimsuits? How many women work for the company designing characters? and related, Are the male characters designed for women or for men and do they ālook gayā? If you search through this blog, you can see them directly speaking about these things in regards to their hatred of Genshin Impact and Star Rail. All of these have also been encapsulated in the original Limbus Company incel attack: they hated that the summer female character looked more āclothedā (wearing a skintight suit instead of a bikini) than the male summer character. They thought the collar necklace and open shirt on the male summer character meant he was āa slaveā for the female viewers, so obviously it was designed by a woman. When they learned a man designed and illustrated those characters, they searched to find a female illustrator who worked in the game and went after her instead. These guys WERE FANS that played the game beforehand and didnāt think anything in the story was upsetting enough to attack the company about. They were familiar enough with the works of Project Moon to name their little group after an antagonizing force in one of PMās previous (non-gacha) videogames. And Project Moon saw them as such a significant part of their gacha fanbase that they wrote an immediate apology and fired the artist. How do these actions in reality inform their fiction and the interpretation of it? Getting this out of the way, they were NOT in any danger, the āfansā were not clamoring to get in their offices or camping outside, they were let in and calmly had a meeting with some employees at the office. You can still find photos of them goofing around, the ridiculous write up they brought with them and a transcript of the conversation. This was not a āguy shows up at Mihoyoās offices with a knifeā situation. In the end it was a financial and moral loss for the studio with many new and longtime fans completely dropping the games and Limbus Company taking one of the biggest financial and D/MAU drops for a gacha Iāve ever seen. You can read more regarding the ramifications of this here, this post is already pretty long for this website anyway.
Again Iām not writing this to shame anyone who plays these games, loves their characters or enjoys their stories. I donāt really care either way, and I obviously find the genre interesting or else I wouldnāt have been monitoring it and the fans for a decade. I just want to shine a light on the thoughts of the more āincelā gamers that play some of these games since I have seen a lot of genuine confusion as to why they would play them. In the future my aim is to write a more in-depth post about these issues, their history and the way antifeminists think.
Adding to what fudgecicles said: This a sadly common phenomenon in many sci-fi and fantasy fandoms. Any story that uses metaphor to explore real-world issues is always going to run the risk of people missing the connection to those real-world issues.
Just look at the Star Wars fandom. George Lucas once famously had to explain to the Star Wars fans that yes the Empire are SPACE NAZIS, and yes he was making the bold political statement that Nazis are bad. And yes, this did and still does get pushback from the Nazi branch of Star Wars fandom.
Or what about the X-Men? Letās not forget that in April 2023, America had the surreal experience of a Florida state congressman saying that transgender people should be barred from public restrooms because transgender people āare mutants like in an X-Men movie,ā and nearly the whole country dunked on him for not understanding that the X-Men are a metaphor for civil rights. (In addition to dunking on him for being a bigot.)
But also: Everybody loves to imagine themselves as a hero fighting against oppression. Which is why fictional stories about heroes fighting against oppression are so popular. BUT. If youāre an incel who believes that feminists are oppressing you - or an antisemite who believes that Jewish people are oppressing you - or a bigot who believes that immigrants and queer people are oppressing you - then yes, you are going to graph your own interpretation onto that fictional story about the plucky heroes fighting against the big bad metaphorical evil, while easily ignoring the creator shouting āThe SPACE NAZIS are a metaphor for ACTUAL NAZIS, you idiots!!!ā All that matters is that thereās a general idea of Oppression in the story. And then most fans are scarily capable of either viewing the story as completely politically neutral (āOf course the Bad Guys are Bad, but that doesnāt mean that the story has a political message, itās just a story of good versus evilā) OR as not at all challenging to their worldview (āI agree with the message that oppression is bad, thatās why I fight against the feminist oppressors!ā)
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Medb: We also really, really hate the British.
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so i've seen a post that says that you can't say that karna gets treated better than arjuna, and that karna is haunted by arjuna in the narrative. I can't reblog the post but I respectfully disagree with it and I'm going to explain why.
the first point is fate/apocrypha. in this, karna compares siegfried to an opponent he once knew during their duel. in the post, it's argued that he projected siegfried onto arjuna and that's now his main interest throughout the series. however, karna's main interest in the series isn't just seigfried (although he did want to fight him again, which is why he fights sieg) but rather to have strong battles in general. it's also ignoring his confrontations with vlad, his decision to stay with the red faction and why (to protect the master he is no longer contracted to) and his interactions with Semiramis and Amakusa. his comparison of siegfried with arjuna, while significant, is not so massive that you can accurately say that it negates every other aspect of his characterization in the story. the most important thing it achieved is that it makes him very interested in fighting him, and when he decides he wants siegfried as a rival and the saber dies he later challenges sieg as he can channel the warrior. its disingenuous to say that arjuna is haunting karna's narrative when he doesnt appear at all beyond a single offhand remark.
the next point is that arjuna gets the costumes. this one is just wrong? karna has two costumes, although i hesitate to call the second one a proper costume. Burning Garment of Three Gods is in fact the first free story costume you receive in fgo, unlike most other costumes which you receive through limited time events, and the glasses costume is from an event where he again gets a (minor) role. while both arjuna's alts have a costume each that doesnt negate karna having costumes?
the next thing is a bit rough. 'arjuna gets the character arcs in fgo.' this one is true. its also because arjuna is the fgo original and karna had 2 previous fate entries to receive characterization in, so him receiving it was less of an required focus than it was for a brand new character who had nothing. at the same time, i do agree that karna needs to have more done with him in the game.
the next one is also very rough. in it, the op mentions that arjuna got a lostbelt that karna received poor treatment in. I do agree that how karna was treated, namely being dead for most of the chapter and only brought back for one big battle before being killed again was very poor handling. however....arjuna alter was also really poorly handled? he was offscreen for most of the lostbelt, his motivations were both incredibly unclear and required you to have played the interlude of another ssr, he was given no depth of character or internal consistency, and they didnt give you any greater understanding of who he was or why he behaved the way he did. he is generally agreed among most fate fans to be the most weakly written of the lostbelt kings, and its in part because rather than tell us anything about arjuna's life, indian history or mythology, or the mahabharata, they once again retrod the karna vs arjuna plotline. just because he's the lostbelt king doesnt mean he was done better than karna-if anything, his treatment was potentially worse because while karna's one dimensional handling set him up as a noble hero, arjuna alter's set him up as an unreasonable villain. saying that karna is used as a crutch for arjuna requires also acknowledging how arjuna is constantly and consistently used to enhance karna since the minute he was added to fgo, which is how you get titles he was never called by like 'the endowned hero' (it may be a poor translation of one of his actual names, DhanaƱjaya, which means one who conquered wealth and gold but i doubt it) and why one of the first things that's mentioned whenever arjuna shows up is that he killed karna, when thats only one of his achievements and not even the most notable one.
which brings me to my next point: karna is handled one dimensionally in fgo. but it is always as a misunderstood hero, and arjuna is primarily handled as his supporting cast, whether as a jealous villan or long suffering straightman. if you are going to show frustration at people who are glad arjuna got content independently of karna, you need to acknowledge that out of the 23 odd events and story chapters arjuna has showed up in, only around 5 have not also included karna and out of the 8 that arjuna alter has been in, only 4 have not had karna in them. karna has been in 27 events, and 9 have not included arjuna-its not a large amount, but its still the same amount that arjuna and his alter have put together without him. Arjuna in fate, especially at the time of his creation, existed as a supplementary unit to further enhance karna's story as a hero who was oppressed by others, which is how you get things like this
while both their profiles have a heavy focus on the other, karna's talks about his actual life and history to a far higher degree than arjuna's does, while arjuna's fully devolves into his resentment and dislike of karna. he was first as foremost written as 'karna's obsessive rival' to further expand karna and karna specifically, and the later focus on trying to give him more depth was because he was popular and they wanted to do more with him. there was no consideration for who he was historically or his real personality or feats, there was no consideration for what he actually was- they wrote him as a person who would, in his own words 'become the darkness' to karna's light simply for the sake of it
THAT is why fans of arjuna want more content of him independently of karna. is it true that karna has his own issues with his writing? yes! but that doesnt change the fact that for a very long time, arjuna has been twisted from his mythogical origins in fate to make him someone that he simply isnt, and thats what people want to see less of. no amount of poorly executed ssrs or events they both get shortchanged in to emphasis them hitting each other with sticks will change the base issue with arjuna's writing until fate acknowledges this.
and to be clear, i dont think its wrong to be upset that karna doesnt get a lot of in depth expansion in fgo. but that isn't the fault of arjuna, and it's really unfair to try and say that with how often arjuna has been used as a plot device to show how unfairly biased people are at karna
Agree with all of this. But also, to bounce off the idea of who gets a character arc:
I feel like when people talk about a ācharacter arcā they really mean two different things. The first is when a character has some sort of conflict (whether internal or external) that they must overcome, and they end up growing and changing as a person. The second is when a character doesnāt really *change* so much as reveal layers that were always there but kept hidden.
Arjunaās character arc in FGO is more obvious because itās an example of the first type. Arjuna comes pre-loaded with trauma and guilt and a desperate need to live up to an image of himself that doesnāt jive with reality. And then, to make a long story short, he grows and changes and gets better. I donāt think that Arjunaās character arc in FGO is written particularly WELL, but at least itās THERE, and in a rather in-your-face obvious way.
Karnaās character arc in Apocrypha - and later in FGO, if you squint - is an example of the second type. Karna isnāt a guy whoās ever really going to change who he is. But he IS a guy who keeps revealing unexpected sides to his character, whether itās the stubborn vanity beneath his seemingly pure nobility, or the capacity for warm affection beneath his cool exterior. Karnaās character arc can be summed up as āheās more complicated than he seems on the surface.ā And thatās a more subtle type of character arc than the metamorphosis that Arjuna undergoes in FGO. But itās still a character arc nonetheless.
Furthermore, Iām going to contradict everything I just said to add: Not every great character even needs an āarcā in the first place! Especially not in a franchise like Fate. Great writing for a character doesnāt always mean giving them an āarc.ā Sometimes it means just letting them get to shine exactly the way they are. Arjunaās writing in Samurai Remnant is a perfect example of this. Arjuna in SR isnāt confronting his inner darkness or growing as a person; heās just being the goddamn greatest in every scene that heās in. And that works perfectly fine, too!
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Broke: Acknowledging that a character who is an objectively terrible person is also a complex and intentionally well thought out individual with different levels of nuance you can empathize with in some ways while not in others is immediately āwoobifyingā or āpoor little meow meowifyingā them.
Woke: āThis character is a bad personā and āthis character is still a personā are two statements that can, should and do coexist and admitting that they exhibit nuance and depth and are more than just their bad actions doesnāt immediately excuse or condone their bad actions or mean that youāre ignoring or trying to soften the canonical version of the character.
Bespoke: Thatās the whole point, thatās always been the point, to be made to empathize with horrible people so you can understand that they can be anyone, that bad people can be likeable, can be interesting, can be human, are human, and itās scary to think about all the ways theyāre just like you and all the ways theyāre just like everything you hate, forcing the use of critical skills in media analysis, forcing a confrontation of the duality of man.
Whatever Level is Above Bespoke: But sometimes, yeah, sure, maybe they are a poor little meow meow, what are you gonna do, get a lawyer
...Not to get weird and dark on a useful/amuzing writing post, but...
Years and years ago, I read someone's experience of finding out that his mom's boyfriend was a serial killer. How much it sickened him to put together odd bits and pieces of their experiences together, recontextualizing them, suddenly understanding new and horrifying things.
But while that was awful, what really fucked him up later wasn't the clues he'd missed or anything-- it was that, one time, they'd been working together on some kind of home project, and he'd been on a ladder and suddenly gotten off balance-- and his mom's boyfriend had immediately reached out, yanked him back, both of them frightened and swearing and then gasping in the aftershocks of panic, and how grateful he'd been that the boyfriend had been there, how they'd both started laughing as the adrenaline washed through them and out again, hugging fiercely, how grateful he still was that the boyfriend had been there, because he owed his life to this man, this almost-father that had kept him safe and had been afraid for him, and the cognitive dissonance of that, the visceral disgust and the aching love and what it meant to be beholden to a monster for the gift of that moment--
And that's why we need to practice the little lies of fiction, where we can see that characters may not always be rendered in black and white-- it helps us learn how to live in a world that may serve us the worst people we may ever know doing us the greatest kindness of our lives.
Potentially hot take but I find the mandatory disclosure of pronouns increasingly prevalent in academic and some professional settings to be dystopic as hell, not cause āpronouns cringeā but because the mandatory reporting of your personal gender identity to a group of total strangers over and over again is fucking weird and invasive
Exactly fucking this. What happens to trans people who are not publicly out when they have to repeat pronouns that misgender them over and over again? It probably doesnāt feel fucking great.
LGBTQ people, especially Western LGBTQ people who seem to have forgotten homo/transphobia exist outside of online discourse, really fucking need to reacquaint themselves with the idea that someoneās relationship with their gender and/or sexuality is their business and absolutely no one elseās. You do not owe disclosure of those identities to anyone aside from yourself (indeed you donāt even need to form an identity around it if you donāt want to or have a different way of experiencing such things). Learn to leave people tf alone.
[Image ID: Tumblr reply from biSexyRanger reading: PlayingĀ ādo I want to be misgendered or do I want to be outedā at the start of every college semester /End ID]
Wanted to make sure these tags stayed attached. Great insight there
Thank all of you for these posts. Iāve been increasingly uncomfortable with forced public disclosure of pronouns these past few years, but I couldnāt really articulate why. These posts help a lot. I especially like the idea of public/private pronouns because there are definitely so many situations where that distinction matters.
One thing that I will add: A question on the private first-day-of-class card that I give to my students is āIs there anything that youād like me to know about contacting your family members?ā This question covers a lot of ground, but I admit that I added it mostly because I was concerned with accidentally outing a transgender student who wasnāt out to their family. Which unfortunately has happened in the past. I still feel awful about it.
I also donāt feel great about having to ask such a private question directly (albeit privately on a notecard that no one else will ever see), but Iām not sure what else to do about it? I am contractually obligated to contact family members regardless of how well or how poorly a student is doing in my class. The parent/guardian contacts must be made and there is a log that tracks if Iām doing it.
So for all yāall out there who are still minors and still in school: Please be aware that your teachers might HAVE to contact your families at some point. If you feel comfortable enough to be out with a teacher but you still arenāt out with your family members, then Iām certain that teacher would appreciate a heads-up about the family situation.
Again, this is not a perfect solution. But I think itās important for teachers, doctors, and employers to recognize that being out in one context doesnāt mean being out everywhere all the time. And we all have to do our best to respect everyoneās gender expression AND their privacy AND their safety.
I saw WW84 and boy do I have some feelings about it.
There was so much that I loved about this movie. I loved how unabashedly the film embraced the cheesy 80ās visual aesthetic, tone, and storytelling tropes. I loved all of the performances. I loved the post-credits cameo. I loved the thematic messages about the power found in accepting truth, the importance of letting go, and the fundamental goodness of humanity saving the day. I admit that I loved how the movie felt like an overt corrective to one of the dumbest moments in the DC comics. And IDGAF if itās overused, I loved when āAdagio in D Minorā started playing and I bawled my eyes out during that scene.
Unfortunately, the movie as a whole is not nearly as good as the sum of its parts should be. Mostly because the narrative gets tangled up in itself, and the story ends up badly undermining its own intended messages.
AFK Arena Fic: Luminosity (Belinda+Lucius, gen, complete)
So I wrote a fanfic about my favorite union and how I imagine the whole ādestiny brought us togetherā thing might have actually played out. I had a lot of fun researching the lore/backstories involved and trying to fill in some of the worldbuilding gaps with my own imagination. I hope you enjoy it!
Title: Luminosity
(Six chapters, Complete.)
CW: graphic depictions of violence
Chapter One: Wave Interference. In which there are nightmares. Belinda is given a quest and recruits an new ally.
Chapter Two: Reflection. In which there are ghosts. Belindaās quest is off to a very bad start.
Chapter Three: Diffraction. In which there are lions and Durri and bears, oh my. Belinda has a new plan, but is farther than ever from her goal.
Chapter Four: Refraction. In which there are demons. Belinda fails to complete her quest and fails to fulfill her promise.
Chapter Five: Resonance. In which there is Darkness, but Belinda finds the Light.
Epilogue: Ray of Light. which there are dreams, some of which might even come true. Someday.
Comments and criticisms are very much welcome. Thank you for reading!
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I share the same Disney live-action remake fatigue and yearning for a return to beautiful 2D animated movies that the rest of yāall do buuuuut
if there is one Disney movie that desperately NEEDS a remake, it is most definitely Lady and the Tramp.
I mean
Have you seen the āSiamese Cat Songā (yes thatās what itās called)
And the chihuahua character is pretty bad too.
Donāt get me wrong, I love the 1955 version, but the little nuggets of racism in there are REALLY bad (even judged by the standards of the time) and if we can have a new version of Lady and the Tramp without evil squinty-eyed Chinese cats singing about stealing shit in broken English then Iām all for it.
Nintendo Franchises drawn in classic Japanese art style by Ukiyo-e Heroes
Linktober Sketches by Willowstration
This is weirdly cute and enchanting
this is gonna be in my halloween playlist
Three F/GO prints I made for a recent convention. I had to draw all of them in 5 days as Iāve been travelling⦠but Iām finally back! Time to sleep and read and be lazy in general >:3

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