Dragon Princess

I don’t know where i went wrong. I don’t know how to go back and fix it. I think the worst part about all this is even with all the fucked up shit you’ve done i would accept you with open arms. I would love you forever still. I fucking meant it when i said forever. I want to take my last breathe with your kiss on my lips. You can’t say the same though. I’m almost sure of it. Your biggest fear is to be alone, yet Thats what you’ve done to me. You left and took the family you added me to with you. I have nothing. I’m absolutely alone. It fucking sucks. Life fucking sucks, and everyday i question life more and more. I remember 5 years ago when i begged the gods for you. I knelt on broken glass for you and walked across nails. You were supposed to be my forever and after tonight i know that’ll never happen. Because the one person whose opinion matters most to you. You’ve made hate me.

I've been thinking about all the things I could have said or done that would make you stay. But instead I play the waiting game. I have to wait patiently for you to decide if you want me. But what's the point of marriage if you are just going to walk away?

I’ve always questioned if we made the right choice by deciding to be together forever. But, honestly this is what proves me wrong. I should have never questioned you. I took you for granted and never realized you just needed my help. I need you to let me guide you and provide for you. Let me love you and help remind you that I am your forever. But instead I just wonder what's going to happen if you decide I'm not. I recognize my flaws. I recognize my mistakes and I will spend everyday making things work. If they dont ill move on and forget about you. I'll forget what your bed head looks like. I'll forget that twinkle in your eyes. I will forget how safe I've always felt in your arms. I will erase you from my memory like a bad dream, because everyday without you would be like dying slowly.

I want to live in a world where my breath of fresh air is the smell of cigarettes and cologne. I want to live in a world where you are my home. I want to live in a world where I wake up next to the same person everyday. You are my person, my soul mate, my partner of crime, and my best friend.

Pick Me

Choose Me

You knw how they say the grass isn't greener on the other side. Like its just something we make up in our heads. What if that's what i did. What if thats what this is. What if you change your mind and im left with nothing. What if Chris isn't the bad guy and i just created this monster so i felt less guilty for wanting to be with you.