Solely Trying My Best

Don’t let your insecurities deny people their agency to choose. Even if you think you don’t deserve it, or you don’t understand why, let people decide to love you, to decide to look after you, to decide to help you.

learning how to handle rejection is so important, especially with rsd. because as scary as it can be, rejection is a part of life and spending your time running away from it will do more long term damage than experiencing and learning how to experience rejection in the short term.

when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

here we go again . i’m not asking - scratch that , i am . i am asking with every ounce of my body for this love to last . i know most people won’t understand the way i am . & maybe you don’t either . but fuck , please let me be in a good way for you . for us . so that one day i can say with almost no resistance that we are everything , & forever . please god , give me the strength to fall into the pit of love’s swords , uncaring of whether i will die , if only she knows that i would die for her . i do not want to be afraid . i want to love her how she is loved in her fantasies . i want our love to be the one light - the melding of two lights - if ever the world goes dark . i want us to feel as if nothing can come between us ; nothing of substance .

there are nights where i question it all