i can't move past Louis' "A message to you Liam if you’re listening" and Zayn's "Liam, I have found myself talking out loud to you, hoping you can hear me" because there was STILL SO MUCH left unsaid.

wish i was snuggling not struggling

loving someone is so interesting because there are moments I get to see who I am without all of my trauma. Like I remember feeling like I wasn’t the affectionate type until I met my first love, and suddenly I had words for daysss. simply overflowing with affection and words for her. I didn’t realize I was capable of that. And then, with a different love, I learned how much I loved to touch. How much I wanted to hold and to cuddle and to feel. how natural it felt. I didn’t know I would love to be touched so much. I feel like love after trauma is relearning yourself. love after trauma is seeing who you are when you’re offered a safe space. safe love is simply Being whoever you’re meant to be.