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Un momento celestial, un amanecer, muere con los pecados y desechos del mundo.

When I speak to you

I re-live a thousand heartbreaks and every disillusionment throughout my life.

You may think this is a flattery but, it means I have no good left over memories to hold onto.

Our love is painful

I guess they’re former friends now.

One of them apparently liked me and after I started dating some annoying, arrogant guy in 2019, our friendship sort of collapsed.

A few days ago I commented on one of his stories and then now I see he deleted me from his Instagram.

Before this, the friend with whom I went to Puerto Rico became upset with me after I yelled at her hookup, who was 3 hours late, and she wouldn’t stop bitching about him. I apologized profusely, and I thought we had moved on from it but the other day she and I were talking on the phone and she confronted me about it for a while. I was caught off guard and I just felt incredibly shit and — since my self esteem has been below the floor lately— the added thought that I may be a socially inept just sank me.