Ow My Lain

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pt asks him to promise not to freak out bc hes worried abt being seen as a weird freak . like . he has So many paintings of dm . that entire stack is just . all the paintings of dm that came out beautifully or paintings where he js saidd fuck it and leaned into the beauty entirely . theres honeslty probably another stack or two somewhere else in the studio bc he had been painting him for a while atp when the comic happens

that stack is kind of a source of shame for pt bc its like a physical manifestation of his lack of control over his own feelings . his plan was to make sure dm Never sees it and if he does then to kill himself (JOKE) but in this moment hes like. its just Unbearable to him . that this guy who he thinks is the most beautiful person hes ever seen in his life just Cant see what he sees .

atp dm knows pt is gay BUT neither pt nor dm know that dm is also queer . so. pt doesnt want dm to think he has a crush on him even tho he um Definitely does . like stigma and stuff . hes worried that if its too obvious that hes in love w dm then dms gonna get the ick and get mad at him .

its not rlly bc of dms character bc thats Ovivously ooc for him its jsut the social yk . perception of gay ppl. esp bc pt had such a negative experience w being perceived as gay (through his other identity but still) . and esp bc hes under the impression that dm is straight. straight men do Not exactly have a History of reacting Positively to Gay Men who are in love with them so.

this is also like the first time dm is seeing what exactly pt has been painting while he sat there for him . dms seen some of pts other paintings so he knows hes an exceptional painter but he hasnt seen a single painting of. himself. bc pt js refused to show him any of them until now . so yk. thats kind of a lot for him . like he obviously knew He was being painted but he didnt realize he was being painted Like This .

idrk what lead to this. like idk what the context is. bc this is after dm has alr shown him the stitches so its not like its pts first time seeing them. shrug.

okie thats all i can think of 4 now

ummm and then the uhhhh paitning . its js rough color .