We are all out to kill tonight

It’s not one habit you’re breaking, it’s every single minute of the day you’re breaking a habit, and it’s exhausting. I had this metaphor in my head about being in this house and there’s been a drought but you feel like there’s a storm coming, and so instead of trying to block out the storm, you like punch a whole in the roof and just let all the rain come in and when you wake up in the morning, it’s washed away everything that used to hurt you.. And then you’re clean.

Single people want relationships, settled people wonder if they’re missing out on something, traveling types miss stability, stable ones are restless, old friends want new friends, new friends miss old friends, and basically almost everyone my age has some dangling worry trailing around after them everywhere that they’re somehow not doing everything, that what they’re doing is not altogether the right thing, that they are missing out. … Do not be ashamed. The doubt is natural, and everyone you know – yes, even that person – carries it sometimes too. Allow yourself to be peaceful. Allow yourself satisfaction in what you have. If you really don’t like it, allow yourself permission to make changes.