Kris Siwak

The idea that if you are annoyed you can just throw it away or run away is insane to me. Tiktok, tinder, Instagram, Facebook. All a poison that will drain you from reality and allows you to live in your lala land and be delusional.

I definitely think I was born in the wrong era. 31 years old and facing the fact I will never get what I dreamed of. I work hard, I put energy into life daily. I pivot constantly to face adversities. But it doesn't matter anymore. You either have to fuck people over or be added into the circle by someone else.

I work hard to make our life work. I try so hard to make you happy. But I'm broken , completely destroyed. I don't want to live half the time.

Just a loser , forever sad, forever going to lose.

Why are you even with me, to use me. Is it cause you feel like it would too hard. Do I baby you that much. Do I allow for all of this to happen, am I not a asshole enough.