nawal.

to go to bed now which one

of u fuckers told

we not only grew up with the boys, but we grew up with each other.

a lot of us have careers, families, a whole life far detached from the one we used to dedicate to a group of five boys (and their families, hairstylist, bodyguards… even a pigeon). and in one moment, simultaneously and instantly, all those memories came pouring and flooding back.

The boys finished X Factor in December 2010, began recording Up All Night in January 2011 and finished recording in October 2011, during which time they were on tour with X Factor. Up All Night was released in November 2011, and the Up All Night Tour began in December 2011. Between February and March 2012, they took a break from the UAN tour to open for Big Time Rush, then went back to the UAN tour, which ended in July 2011. Recording for Take Me Home began in May 2012 and ended in August 2012.

So in the span of a year and eight months, 1D (all teenagers, mind you) made two albums and did two tours and a stint as an opening act. There were also two official 1D books, one released in February 2011 and the other in May 2012, but who knows if the boys actually had any input on those.

let's be honest. he took the hit when he left. he lost so many of his fans then. but you know what he did?

he showed the boys that there was life after one direction.

he showed them that the hell they were enduring was escapable. that they could make it out and still sing and write songs and be happy.

if they'd really been as happy as they seemed to us, they would've come back after the hiatus. they promised us 18 months. its been 9 years.

im sure they loved us with all their hearts. that they enjoyed their time together as a band, as brothers. however, they were exploited and taken advantage of every step of the way.

now, liam's passing is the fucking culmination of the hell they endured. you can't argue with me that the liam of 2011 was SO SO FULL OF LIFE. he had so much promise. you just knew this boy was gonna go places.

but somehow, along the way, his light dimmed. that wasn't the liam we knew. we all subconsiously could see it. that liam hurt so much that he hurt a lot of people. that liam could've done better. that liam should've been given the chance to make amends.

but the young boy that was so full of life, he didnt deserve any of this. he deserved to have been kept safe and away from the shit that could destroy him.

the boys should have been protected and maybe, just maybe, we wouldn't have to endure this devastating loss. maybe, just maybe, liam would still be alive.