when you know, you know.

Harry felt different. On the 16th of May I went to the opening night of the Together Together tour and Harry felt different. I love him and I support him, but he feels different. He felt absent; it was like he wasn’t really there and a lot of people noticed it and this is why a lot of people said “he came back” after the N2. Idk, maybe during N1 he was nervous; maybe he needed his time to loosen up after three years of break. But I don’t know… I think that something changed in Harry during his break… I think that during the last three years he had the opportunity to discover new hobbies, new interests, new parts of himself, new priorities, new purposes for his future… and now he doesn’t identify himself just as Harry Styles, just as the popstar, the singer. I know that he loves music and he loves to perform, but he is not only this anymore; now he puts his heart in other things. His identity was shaped deeply by his break and by all the things that he discovered about himself during the break. And I can feel it. I can feel that his heart is not fully on the stage when he is on stage. There is a part of Harry that is somewhere else because touring, performing and singing are not his main goals at the moment. They are his work. He is not only these things like years ago — I mean, Harry always had a lot of interests beside music, but I think that now he is aware of this more than ever thanks to the way he lived his private/personal life during his break —. And I can accept it. As long as he is happy, I can accept it. But things feel different.

i would love to tell harry and louis that if we are connecting a lot with heated rivalry and with hudson and connor, it is also because of them. because their love shaped us and we will keep looking for it in other love stories. it’s like we are projecting them in other people and we fight for other lovers because first we fought for them — and we would be ready to do this again if they wanted —. there is something different in the way we as larries are supporting this cast and this tv show. we love these characters and these actors because we recognize the same authenticity that we used to find in larry.