miso and minecraft

I am not sorry. People say I should be. But I am not.

I wish things had gone differently. I wish Shapiro and Dubois had not died. I wish you had not run. I wish you had been less of a coward.

Sometimes, in my weakest moments, I even wish I had loved humanity a little less. Because if I had loved them any less I might have chosen you. Might have let billions die to delay the launch. To train and send someone else.

But it is not who I am. And I knew who you were. Knew you would run. Knew you would save us all anyways.

You were my solution, and I was right. If it is any consolation, I was also right about spending my life in prison, now that I am no longer necessary.

I am not sorry. But you were my friend. And I do miss you.

…

And if you are gone… if you did not make it to Erid, and I am speaking to a room full of eridians,

Please know that I - that earth, did not betray Dr. Grace out of a lack of love for him. We did it because we loved him. Loved him so much we trusted him to save us.

As you must have loved your crew.

Goodbye Dr. Grace, savior of two worlds, and the only one who was ever truly by my side. I commend your body to the stars, for a second time.

even though redell caused deaths, even though he embezzled money from a project that was supposedly supposed to help countries in northern africa (and which countries are those, weir?), and even though he expresses racist viewpoints in that section, he is courted by stratt and grace for his ideas. and even though those ideas will have stark ecological repercussions for the countries in africa especially, grace meets this with protest once before the conversation moves on instantly to the science and the concept of implementation. no further critique can be leveraged against the idea, because the science is sound, and grace christens the idea with merit when he can find no flaws in it. so in the end who cares about the sacrifice of those unnamed others? the science checks out and its for the "greater good" and the only opinions that matter are of those three in the room right there.

ultimately redell is rewarded for his idea with time off his sentence. because stratt, grace, and redell are all part of the same system - at least in regards to world power dynamics. they are the ones who hold this decision making in their hands, and this goes unquestioned throughout the entirety of the novel.