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"I'm thankful and I love you!"

Huang Zitao, 2015

This is Tao’s last stage with EXO. This video is full of tears and emotions. Hear what the members had to say about him leaving.

Why am I still crying over this? It’s been two years and I’m still not okay. Tao is a very genuine person. He’s not that strong when it comes to holding back his tears, he would scream and cry whenever he’s afraid and you see the sadness in his eyes every time he can’t complete a task. He’s not physically strong, he’s always rushed to the hospital and he would always collapse.

BUT.

He loves everyone of us, the members and Ls, even if he left. He wouldn’t be that hurt and he wouldn’t be crying if everything he showed us are fake. All of the members love him so much even if he’s always teased.

(Highlights)

Baekhyun: He cried so much for he lost an important friend, the one friend he could tease all the time, the one friend he cares for, the one friend he treats like a baby. Tao was very close to his Baekhyun hyung and no one really knows how painful Baekhyun felt.

Jongin: He's been crying ever since the concert started. Kai's speech was meant to say good bye to his hyung. Tao treated Kai and Sehun like his real brothers. He's always with Kai and Sehun, the three of them are considered the maknae line. Even if Tao is only a year older than Kai, Kai said that he's treated lovingly by this hyung. Kai was very nervous during this concert. His tears are meant to tell Tao how thankful he is. He even gave a very heart-overwhelming speech, so EXO-Ls, let's love.

Jongdae: You'll see Jongdae trying to calm and comfort Tao. Jongdae himself cried during this concert but he needs to stay still for other members to lean on him.

Junmyeon: Just a few words: HE WON'T STOP CRYING. TAO IS SO DEAR TO HIM.

Chanyeol: Chanyeol always teased and played with Tao. We all know Chanyeol was a loving hyung to the maknae line and he was very close to each one of them.

Kyungsoo: Kyungsoo is another support pillar to all of them. You'll see him trying to hold his tears back and comforting other members. Kyungsoo, on the other hand, is someone teased by Tao. Do you remember when Kyungsoo was rapping and Tao just started laughing out of nowhere? Their relationship is very close, Kyungsoo must've been really strong.

Sehun: Sehun couldn't even speak properly. We all know that after Kris left, Sehun was the closest to Tao. Before Chanyeol became Sehun's travel partner, there's Tao who ate streetfood with him, traveled with him, walked along the streets with him, played and laughed with him. These two are like EXO's babies and you can see how everyone tried to comfort Sehun because among all of them, Tao is his best friend.

If this gets good reaction, I will post Sehun's ig and travel memories with Tao. I will share all OT12 videos I've saved. Let's not let the memories fade. The boys stood strong and kept going for all aeris, so in return let's not stop supporting them and let the boys win. #DafBAMA2017_EXO #BAMA2017DiamondEdition_EXO

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYo5oVjglxI - BAEKHYUN COVERAGE

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June 4, 2016

 JI HU

 He—

                       He stands from a long distance with nothing at hand

                       And all he could ever say was, “She has him.”

                       He could never interfere because she was happy

                       And he would always stand aside for her happiness

                       It was never his intention to stare at her that way

                       But he could never restrain himself, never

                       He is her protector, that one person she could run to

                       And he learned to accept that he could never be her lover

                       He would watch her spend time with another man

                       Sometimes, he’d feel delighted that it’s not just any man

                       But a friend he could trust, it was his best mate

                       He never knew he was also being stared at

                       He was being watched by her from afar

                                     —was her best mate and they protected that friendship. “Friendship over feelings,” he told her and then he let go of the feelings he had for her. She can’t do anything, they were both too scared to destroy the foundation they’ve built. But then, even if they loved each other endlessly, all they could ever do was love each other from afar because the odds were not on their favor. He could only stare at her as a lover and protect her as her best mate.

In the Moment 一瞬のうち

You told me that everything will be fine. You told me that we could only hope for the better. You told me all the good things that life could ever offer. You told me that we should be in the moment.

Everything went by pretty fast. From the pulchritudinous words you’ve said to the most hurtful actions you’ve done, I still believed in you. I’ve heard of your capabilities and those words that were used to describe you left me in awe.

You taught me a lot of things and I’ve realized too many lessons from you. I never realized but now, that all those lessons were bluffs.

You. I trust you the most. I would always believe in you more than anyone else. You are the most precious thing for me. Lastly, you hurt me the most.