A week before the Olympics, you buy a jersey with Miya on the back.
Itâs official, so itâs pricey, and on such short notice, only the small size on the menâs side was available so it hangs a bit lower than it should on your thighs and collarbone.
But when you walk out of the bathroom after the lunch rush hour with it on, Osamu is awestruck.
Awestruck enough for Kita to elbow him and for his Ma to shake her head and whisper words of âhanging the moonâ and âso obliviousâ to Kita.
Nowadays, despite the occasional game Osamu catches, he forgets that his brother doesnât have to put Atsumu on his back anymore. Now his brother is carrying the family on his back.
Youâre wearing Atsumuâs jersey, but itâs Miya on the back, and Osamu is selfish so as he watches you lazily wash the rice, he lies to himself, says that youâre wearing it for him. He thinks of another life, one where you went to highschool together. He wonders if those three years wouldâve been enough for the universe to work its magic, for him to build the courage.
The whistle blows to start the game. Plates of onigiri, bowls of rice, saucers of sauce occupy the table in front of you. You all say your thanks and dig in,
You watch the game. Osamu watches you.


















