πΈ The Beginning of the Journey πΈ
If you told me about a year ago that this was the path that I would be willingly choosing, I would probably think you were insane.
I've never been one for traditionalism. I always grew up imaging myself becoming a "bad-ass babe," a "girl-boss," or some sort of other cringey label that reflected how successful I was going to become. I grew up in a home that advocated and pressured for me to go to college, become a doctor (doesn't matter of what, just get that Ph.D.) and make more money than my husband. I went to college, I got 2 degrees, I moved away from home to get my Masters, and work full-time.
I'm crass, I'm loud, I'm sassy and irritable, I'm more masculine than feminine, and live up to the standard idea of what a modern woman is today.
And I hate it.
Do I feel fulfilled? Content? Happy? Satisfied? No. The more and more I think, the more I realize that I'm running away from from my true nature. The Lord did not create me so I could swear and smoke cigarettes and get dirty and angry. I was created for so much more, to nurture and nourish, to love and be compassionate.
I find that if I engage in the ideals of traditional femininity, there is a heavy weight lifted off my shoulders and I feel whole. Simplistic, wholesome, Godly living by fulfilling the commandment given to us in 1 Timothy 2:9-15 is attainable, but first you must have strength and discipline in yourself to change pretty much everything.
So here I am, ready to go but with no idea how to start. The path is not obvious, but it's not supposed to be.
This blog is primarily for me to document my own journey. I hope you'll join me while I figure out where to go and navigate the challenges that come. Glory to God, and have mercy on me. I'll need it.
-Scholastica
