Orokwu

Sometimes I get so fucking mad at my sister, like, yesterday our step sis told us that she doesn’t feel comfortable when we treat our step mom as “mom” so we told her that we would stop doing that, the text was in Spanish, so she referred to both of us in femenine and I told her to please refer to me in masculine, instead of using “chicas” (girls) using “chicos” (boys/guys) and my sister told me to shut it, that she’s never going to refer to me as a guy because she doesn’t consider me one, and neither does my dad. In private I send her some audios where I asked her why would I lie about being trans, like, what do I win? Acceptance? Popularity? I’ve lost friends because of being out, I’m arguing with her and our dad almost every single time we see each other just to end up crying bc they scream to me, I just don’t see the point of lying abt this. For fuck’s sake, why would I wear a binder every single day when it hurts so bad? I can’t understand them

Can’t believe how angry I am, I finally told my sister that I wanna do a full mastectomy and she only tells me “well you know that with your belly it will look awful” like, ok?

Btw, this is kinda funny, I dyed my hair white and red some months ago (I still wear it like that) and the other day a friend of mine told me “OH ABNER UR HAIR LOOKS JUST AS A FUSION BETWEEN CROWLEY AND AZIRAPHALE!” We laughed, but that’s not it, we continued talking abt it and we both agreed that I’m their lost son, I just look like Aziraphale with Crowley’s aesthetic