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I typed this up for submission to a blog helping give men a voice in this matter. Links at the end.

Jun 27, 2026 United States

First off, I have gone through an identity crisis and in the worst of times needing to vent online didn't want relatives or those who would run and tell to find what I was saying. For protests I've managed to attend and research I participated in, I typically give the name Jay Boyd.

As an African-American, because of feminism and welfare, my father was ultimately alienated from me so I was raised by a single black mother. He wasn't fully absent though and had a whole host of mental health issues of his own. Ironically it was he who first told me the truth about male genital mutilation in the summer of 2015 per the show Adam Ruins Everything. He doesn't know it but around the same time I learned I was raped at least once as a child and my so called mom did nothing about it. I cried for months and for the first time since 2009 wanted to commit suicide, but have suffered from depression my entire known life. I was born in 1986 so was 28 at the time. My dad apologized immediately but I quickly learned that it was most likely not his fault and regardless his maturity in accepting the information goes a long way.

I foolishly had not learned the reality of the collective slave mentality of the black community and the extent of child abuse, gaslighting etc. that goes on as a result. Entire books have been written about this so I can't even begin to cover that here. I tried to repair the relationship with my mom only to be told things like get over it, the doctor said you needed it, all men in the world are circumcised blah blah blah. In the worst of times it led to arguments, yelling and me fighting with every fiber in my being to not lose control and kill her in retaliation. Being equally stupid I tried to seek comfort from 3 other female relatives, indicative of the lifelong emasculation to put it simply. 1 just played it off so I never bothered with her again 2 My older sister among other things said it's not a big deal and "no amount of information will change her mind" - typical black woman, ignorant and proud 3 Another relative who refused to even watch an educational video, said I'm fixating, me not having my foreskin has nothing to do with me being a man, that I need to be focused on better income and good place to live, my concern is irrational, the proof of men worldwide being intact is "obscure and invalid info" and that my mental health issue related to this is self-imposed. I will not post the screenshot of the communication but am including a few comments from a social media post with some kind, supportive words from female intactivists who (shocker) are European.

There is a pattern here, that I had to learn the hard and brutal way, ultimately destroying my trust in black women and later virtually all black people. It's relevant because many things slave owners used to do to us, we now do to each other. Also, Europeans didn't start the enslavement of Africans but fought and died to end most of it. To the black woman it's always white man bad but never Islam.

There's no way I can even begin to briefly explain how much my life was destroyed before I even got to figure out who I am, nor the consequences of all the abuse I've endured. I do know I was suicidal since before the teen years, but largely suffered in silence, a practice which I sadly learned in my 30's was the best choice given the circumstances. Even so called mental health professionals refuse to take our MGM grief seriously.

My memory is fuzzy and I don't remember how old I was but it was before puberty. At some point I recalled an experience that might've been a MGM PTSD re-enactment. One day I started feeling serious lower abdominal area pains, and I remember screaming for what felt like hours but who really knows. Eventually, 911 was called and I was taken to a poison control center but either en route or shortly after arriving the pain stopped. I don't remember anything after that. If this pain did in fact go on for hours, considering it could've been an appendix burst, it's just more proof my family does not care about me.

Few know this but in terms of consensual sex I'm actually a virgin. I went through a period of sexual confusion up until around the age of 23 then after a brief period of hypersexual desires which I'm grateful I didn't act on knowing the root causes now I lost all desire before the age of 25. I’m 39 now and have settled on calling this trauma based asexuality. Today, even if I found myself comfortable with attempting to enter a romantic relationship, I don't have the confidence to be the father any potential children would deserve. I certainly wouldn't allow any to be born in this country.

The only thing that's kept me from ending my life from 2015 onward has been that I stumbled across the futurist movement first, which includes indefinite healthy human lifespans. Combined with the promise of time travel, it's the only hope I have to one day go back and save myself or at least counteract what I should've never had to endure.

Friday, July 20th, 2018 was the first time I attended a protest. It was with the Bloodstained Men in Wilmington, Delaware.

With so many things at play, by 2021 my mental health took a deep nose dive and I didn't have it in my to attend any more protests but in 2026 things finally began to improve and I made a surprise return, for the first time outside of my hometown metro area, at the Genital Integrity Awareness Week in Washington DC. I was only there for a day but it's a start.

I kept any obvious picture or video of me out of this, only because I regrettably still deal with relatives despite it being for good reasons and I want to minimize the risk of being confronted because the time to repair our relationship has long gone, with so far well controlled anger and rage being the only thing left so it's not a fear of conflict but rather to keep the monster they created in me at bay.

Me at one of three protests in 2018, the first year I participated in such events. This is Philadelphia. The other cities were Wilmington, DE and Newark, NJ.

The black community is an absolute joke and black women being sellouts for welfare is the #1 reason for this.

Because to black women, us men are slaves.

Black women displaying the same attitude and double standard they always have.

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