Partlan

i was in my car with one of my few IRLs that knows about my OSDD and I mention to them like "hey, thanks for being so cool about this. I know it can be a lot to deal with." and their response is, "oh yeah man, like i've known people with tulpas and shit so"

no hate to my friend. they said this entirely innocently and they're an amazing ally and i will maul anyone that says otherwise.

i couldn't put into words for the longest time that upset me but i think it's this; it was the fact that my extremely traumatic childhood was equated with someone that wanted guys in their head for fun.

that's what rubs me the wrong way about it all. it leads to situations like this. when i tell a friend about the disorder that i went through hell to end up with, and their first mental connection is to people who think this is fun.

that's the part that hurts. that to some people this is a game.

your experiences and frustrations are valid, since tulpamancy and CDDs are so different. i also feel very frustrated with that.

a big confusion people have is equating plurality with systemhood and CDDs. people without CDDs try hard to not be included with CDDs, but it's hard when there's bad actors and try to say its extremely similar or even the same.

but, that doesn't invalidate the experiences of non-CDD people. a person experiencing non-CDD systemhood shouldn't impede how your CDD experiences are.

if you can, explaining the differences between plurality, CDDs, endo and traumagenics, etc can help a lot. they share some similar symptoms/experiences, but they're definitely not the same. people who don't experience something tend to try and generalize it rather than understand the specifics of experiences!

but some anti-endos will, and that doesn't reflect on me. that reflects on them and if that falls within their morality then so be it, that's their damn morality.

"i speak to trees" requested by @p-counsel

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essentially, "core" comes from the outdated idea that people with DID / OSDD had one "original" part. since the theory of structural dissociation has become the mainstream, science acknowledges that there is no "original," and instead a personality that never fully integrated. most researchers use "host," or "part in executive control most often." in terms of sources, I'd just look into the theory of structural dissociation. idk. i'm tired and i do not have links.

but tl;dr, "core" is outdated and does not properly explain how systems work. there is no "original."

The fact of the matter is that "Core" USED to mean that. You're right. But the term has evolved a LOT since then and is used in very individual ways. A lot of what the term means nowadays is "Any alter who directly ties to the body in some way". Which is exactly how we use it, as several alters are just time stamps of the body at the time they split.

The term "Core" isn't harmful unless you're using it in that every specific, outdated way to say "Systems always have originals" (and some do know who their original was, if there was one for them).

how do people try to explain traumaendo systems-

cause they directly contradict each other. one needs trauma, the other "doesn't need trauma. its a forced system"

I genuinely do not understand. is it "I don't have enough trauma to be a system so I'll make one"??

"trauma wasn't that bad" yeah that's common to think, the disorder is meant to make you forget things and or play them down as if they weren't that bad, that's part of the disorder

"some splits don't happen during trauma" yeah so that's also really common, stress itself can cause splits, and in polyfragmentation splits can be unpredictable and caused by "small" stressors, also ANPs are incredibly common and there to help you function in daily life, it's part of the disorder!!

like people want to think any disabled person who is after money is morally suspect some way, because they're not asking for "treatments" or "accommodations" like a lot of our issues can be fixed way more easily with money. can't drive? paying for a taxi is often one of the more accessible alternatives. can't cook? you can pay more to have prepared food delivered to you. food restrictions? that food straight up costs more money. can't clean? you can pay for someone to do that. house inaccessible? having (lots) of money can help with that, you get the gist.

You need to understand that pseudo memories are not real they are pseudo for a reason

Yes, sometimes they mirror actual trauma but another fictive from your source you do not like has absolutely nothing to do with it and it's just plain stupid imo to tell an entire group of ppl who have literally done nothing wrong to dni

I literally saw a userbox that said "idc if you're source separated Valentino fictives DNI" grow the fuck up

I wasn't saying you have to force source separation

I wasn't saying it's bad to have delusions and struggle with them, I understand they aren't controlled most the time and I understand if you are uncomfortable with certain things but you can't just be straight up rude to ppl for it

I'm saying that no matter how you feel about a certain fictive group it is no excuse to tell them all to fuck off

and, ooglie booglie, coping mechanisms for them

You don’t get to cherry-pick clinical terms while simultaneously denying the disorder they come from. You don’t get to walk into trauma-centered spaces wearing a mask you made out of someone else’s suffering and call that resistance. That’s not defiance. That’s theft. And if you think disrespecting survivors is punk, then you’ve clearly never bled for anything in your life.

I’m not here to coddle delusions. I’m not here to clap while you cosplay pain you never lived. You want to feel special? Get a new hobby. Because this—this identity built from shattered memories and carved from years of surviving what should’ve killed us? It doesn’t belong to you.

Being punk means burning down systems that hurt people. Not stealing the scars of those they’ve already broken.

You’re not punk. You’re a parasite. And no matter how loud you scream or how many buzzwords you throw like confetti, you’ll never be what we are.

You’ll never get it.

And you’ll never be us.

[This part is dating in-system]

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[This system kisses boys]

[This part kisses boys]

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let me make this VERY fucking clear. we will always stand up for ourselves on this blog. if you steal our shit, we will react. absolutely nobody has a right to take our words.

welcome to the internet, besties. freedom of speech is not freedom from consequence. don't start shit if you arent prepared to back it up.

we don't seek out people to bother. we truthfully just block 99% of endos and move on. stealing shit from us is a direct attack.

we don't start fights as a system rule.

we sure as fuck finish them.