🩵Two Spirit and Payomkawichum (Luiseño People of the West Coast of North America)
🩷This blog will be 18+! I'll tag those ones with #secrets
💜My icon is drawn by me! My header is drawn by @/corelle-vairel!
🩵My Main is @bloodanddiscoballs and I follow from that!👇🏽
💜Please do not follow me if you are into incest or are an adult who selfships with minors. It just makes me uncomfortable, sorry! Thank you!
I also don't really understand the whole proship thing? I'm just posting what I post. I'm 33. Don't drag me into that infighting please.
🩷I tag 🐺 for stuff with Jean, and while I do have other f/o's, he is the one who absolutely has my heart, so he is who I mostly will focus on. I like to draw and write when my chronic pain permits and will try to post those things here when I'm able. I would love to make friends, especially with those who ship with other Disco Elysium characters! I'm kinda shy, but loving Jean makes me happy, and I don't care about being cringe anymore!＼(^-^)／
F/O List Below👇🏽
🐺 The Love of my Life Jean Vicquemare: After starting a playthrough of the game Disco Elysium, Jean and I became friends in December of 2020, then began dating in September of 2021. We have been together ever since💕 We recently got engaged in July of this year (2025) and are planning a sweet little ceremony for sometime next year!
On and Off Throuple with 🐻 Harry Du Bois: (Also Disco Elysium) Jean and Harry have a qpr that was absolutely toxic prior to Harry losing his memory, but became something different after the events in Martinaise. Harry is with Kim Kitsuragi, but sometimes still sees Jean since they're still partners at work, and sometimes I join the mix. Making Jean happy is my goal, and I love seeing him loved however that happens.
Others:
🩺 Dr. Leonard "Bones" McCoy: My very first f/o! From the original run of Star Trek, I'll always have a soft spot for my cranky space doc~
🐈Captain Amelia: The beautiful and bossy captain from Treasure Planet! She still has my heart after all this time.
🪝John Silver: Also from Treasure Planet, he was the first character I ever had dreams of as a kid and still will whenever I rewatch the movie.
👾Queen Tyr'ahnee: From the series Duck Dodgers, the Martian Queen captivated me the moment she came on the screen. Stunning and powerful, I am nothing but a loyal warrior for her.
🔫Cayde-6: From the games Destiny 1+2, my Warlock s/i had a passionate affair with the leader of the Hunters, only to become utterly heartbroken at his passing. A love written in the stars.
☀️Variks: Also from Destiny 1+2, my Warlock s/i began an off and on fling with Variks, knowing that he would often need to disappear from sight due to his past. His loyalty is beyond attractive.
Ⓜ️Robert Robertson aka MechaMan: from Dispatch! I revamped my Destiny OC to be a reformed villain who got assigned to the Z-Team. It's a slow-going love, especially with the attention he's already getting from the Canon love interest options. Still developing!
💦Waterboy aka Herm: from Dispatch! My reformed villain, Void, can't help but find him cute. His genuine sweetness and open emotions allows my OC to shed the carefully constructed shell around her heart. The closer they get, the more open she becomes, the both of them accepting the other for who they are.
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imagine kissing your touch starved f/o for the first time. maybe they melt into your touch, or they kiss against you harder because they don’t want you to pull away.
imagine how they sheepishly ask you for more kisses because they liked it so much and want more.
sending love to my fellow selfshippers who are part of groups that have been victims of the USA's imperialism 🙋♂️ may this empire fall within our lifetime. your F/Os all love you <3
To all the disabled selfshippers, your f/o(s) love you so much. Not despite your disabilities. The love the whole of you.
Even on your bad days.
Even when you're flared up.
Even when your pain leaves your irritable.
Even when all you can do is sleep.
Even when they have to shoulder the majority of tasks around the house.
Even when they have to help you shower or feed yourself.
You are not a burden to them. Never. They couldn't fathom having such a train of thought. Because you are so much more than the bad that disability brings.
The smile on your face when you can finally leave the house is what keeps them around.
Your laugh when the pain meds finally kick in is why they're with you.
The joy you radiate when you two decorate your mobility aids is why they can't leave your side.
And even when the bad outweighs the good, they adore you so terribly.
Never feel ashamed. Never feel like a burden. Never feel like you're too much. You are strong and you, above all else, are loved.
ᯓ★ self shippers who can’t indulge with their f/o as much as they want because their health gets in the way
ᯓ★ self shippers who suffer yet can’t get help or a proper diagnosis because the healthcare system sucks
ᯓ★ self shippers who have a hard time being active in the community for various reasons (low energy/fatigue, burnout, pain flareups, etc.) despite wanting to
you are seen. you are loved. i’m glad you’re here, no matter how frequent or infrequent you pop in. thank you for being part of our community.
your f/os love you so much, and i know they’re beyond happy to support you through anything and everything.
you won’t walk this exhausting path alone. they won’t let that happen.
thank you @/silcosbunny for the reminder that disability pride month is upon us!!
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If you use mobility aids, your F/O(s) will help you in any way they can for it.
If you use a wheelchair, a walker, or a rollator, they'll help you around uneven ground or sudden stops that you can't easily move over.
If you use a cane or crutches, they'll make sure you're not putting too much pressure on one part of yourself and to help distribute it.
Your F/O(s) will help you maintain your mobility aids. They'll replace the rubber or foam on your grips, check if wheels are in good condition, and charge your electronics like power wheelchairs or mobility scooters.
And they'll make sure not to let anybody touch them without your permission. Even if it means you don't want them to handle them right now, your F/O(s) will respect that.
For all types of F/Os. Dividers by sisterlucifergraphics. My boundaries are in my pinned.
It's genuinely so frustrated that self shippers who engage in shipping discourse literally use three dozen different DNI tags. If you're like me and want to avoid this discourse, you diligently blacklist certain tags.
But on one post you'll see "problematic/dark/etc. shippers DNI" on another, you'll see "pr0blematic/neutrals/variants DNI," and then on a third post, you see "c*mshippers, d.ark shippers DNI"
This is not helpful for anyone. :/ It makes it so that the people you want to avoid might accidentally interact with your post because they haven't blacklisted the particular shipcourse DNI variant you use. On the flip side, it's annoying for the people who want to avoid shipcourse because there is no single consistent tag people use. On my old blog, I literally had to blacklist THIRTY FOUR different shipcourse DNI tags and phrases.
Just -- please choose one or two DNI tags and stick to those. It'll be so much easier for everyone.
Also to add: I feel like it would make for better interaction for everyone if people just said what they meant. When you say “proship DNI” are you using it as shorthand to say that you don’t like incest ships? Do you mean you don’t like anything dark? IMO, it honestly leaves people guessing and nervous to interact. I know I keep beating this dead horse, but I wish *everyone* would just drop shipping discourse labels.
If you don’t want people who ship incest to interact, just say that, rather than saying “pro/anti/blorbo/bleepus/schlorpus DNI.”
Also, personally, I avoid reblogging 99% of posts that have any kind of shipcourse DNI. I don’t need to sit around worrying if OP is going to jump my ass because I’m a villain fucker and like some dark stuff. So I just avoid those posts altogether.
i love self shippers. i love seeing people actively unlearn the shame of (whatever definition people are throwing around this time) “cringe”, and indulging in what makes them happy or brings them comfort.
i love watching people live their lives the way they want with their f/os.
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i need you to imagine your f/o being subtly really horny for you. their eyes constantly wandering while you’re talking. them taking every opportunity to pull you close, their hands ghosting up and down your body. a kiss on the cheek that starts to trail down your neck, then feeling them smirking against you as your breathing and pulse quickens. really handsy makeout sessions that always end in the bedroom 😵💫😵💫😵💫
Is their hand bigger, smaller, or just the same size as yours?
You can see the length of their fingers compared to yours. You can feel their skin and the pads of their fingertips and palm. Are they soft or more rough? Does their hand feel cold or warm to the touch?
They close their fingers between your own, intertwining their hand with yours. As they caress the back of your hand with their fingertips, they scan your skin, your flesh and bones, taking note of how precious you are to them, how precious each part of you, each vein, mark, crease and line of your hand, is to them.
Your F/O embraces your hand with both of their hands, wrapping their palms around you as if they were hugging you entirely. Just by this small gesture, they expressed their love for you.
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Imagine your f/o giving you compliments at the WORST possible times. Fresh out of the shower, hair sopping wet, wearing the most ridiculous outfit known to man they still think you’re beautiful.
❤︎ scary f/o who keeps you firmly at their side, narrowing their eyes at anyone who dares look at you wrong. they're snappy, curling their lip whenever anyone gets too close, a hand on your hip holding you tight.
❤︎ people tell you to "keep your dog on a leash" when they act out, but they don't care. they'll be your guard dog even if it earns them dirty looks and glares - so long as you're safe they could care less.
❤︎ scary f/o who's shoulders visibly relax once you're in their arms or returning home. they can be paranoid, sure, but they just want to know you're safe. everything else matters little in comparison.
