One Little Feather

Okay, let me preface this by saying that occasionally for my daily pulls I don’t ask any specific questions but more of a, “show me want you want me to see,” kind of pull.

Now, the first thing I thought when I saw it was a betrayal in a (romantic) relationship. Mainly because the high priestess and the magician always feels like a couple to me when presented this way? But I’m in a fairly healthy romantic relationship and I have no reason to fear that my partner would cheat or lie to me about something.

And I haven’t had any recent “betrayals” that I’m aware of or that I’m worried about. So I’m wondering if I’m reading it incorrectly?

1/9/19 - I’ve been feeling some serious mom guilt lately. I hate that I have to work while my kids are still so young and sometimes I work so hard to balance work and home life that I forget to slip in some time for myself as well. It’s caused some tension in the past and maybe I haven’t quite gotten over it. And then sometimes it doesn’t feel fair to do something for myself when I already have such a limited amount of time with my family during the week. I’m always trying to fit in so much and I’m afraid I’ll miss something.

So I thought this year I’d sprinkle in some personal posts into the blog every once in a while. I’m more of an Instagram girl but I’ve found that sometimes tumblr is just a little more personable at times if you find your niche. So we’ll see.

I couldn’t help but laugh at the fact that I pull the death card as my first card of the new year. I know it’s not a “bad” card, but the stigma of the death card and it being the answer to, “What should be my focus for 2019?” almost had me wondering if my deck was trolling me?

It couldn’t be a more fitting card for the new year, though. Some things need releasing. Some things need to fall away or turned into something positive. It was a nice sign as I feel like I’ve been on the cusp of big transitions in my life for a few months now (and feeling a little anxious and frustrated that I hadn’t seen them as quickly as I’d like).