*Rochard knocks gently on Charles' door, glancing around, ready to run if he sees Bromias*
@charlesmars
So you get a pass because youre so special. You get to do whatever you want because you are so special. You get to be free of all consequences. Because you didnt choose this. You didnt choose immortality. As if you have no responsibility for anything.
The laws arent arbitrary, they are common sense. Dont show people who can kill you how to kill you!
So that you can try and kill me?
If you had a random vampire come to you, and he led hunters to Richard's coffin at sunrise. Carelessly. When you told that vampire not to fuck with those hunters. You'd just let him get Richard killed? You wouldnt try to protect Richard?
He wouldn't know where Richard slept.
Yet you do know where my sister sleeps! My brother! My brother is dead! Because I fucked up and slipped up and let people in our home. So I repeat the mistakes, you dont follow the laws, and Regina is next perhaps?
I had nothing to do with your brother. Neither had Richard.
I know that! God damnit i fucking know!
Put yourself in my fucking shoes! I chose a perfect childer. Alexander was perfect. I loved him so much. He slaughtered his brother, me and his child killed Bedrich! Now a strange child gets turned by our only equal, a hybrid. And i have to just let everything go and let you do anything you want.
If Richard was in danger you would not hesitate to wipe my family out. Why do you not understand im the same!? But I do hesitate! I did!
You should be torn apart, burned, and your heart eaten, but I love you instead!
You would have actually killed me back at the asylum. You dont love me like you think you do.
*his jaw works as just his eyes lift to him*
You understand nothing.
I understand you give me mixed signals. Fortunately for you I love you as well and you cant get rid of me that easily again.
Thousands of years, if have to go against what ive been and believed for thousands of years. And every time ive done so in the past ive been hurt.
Then why continue?
Because Im so.... Alone.
Then change it.
Every time I do I get hurt!
Im I hurting you now?
By misunderstanding, yes.
There is no pleasing you, Demetri. Even if I agreed, you'd still find a way to make yourself the victim of our love.
I cant be pleased when everything ive done has been a mistake and has gotten myself and Bedrich killed! I had to make a fucking deal with Lucifer to stay alive because of my mistakes, and so im sorry if I question my choices in partners when one of them fucking murdered my brother just days ago!
How am I supposed to know if youre not just another mistake!? How do I do this!? When the guilt is fucking crushing me!?
Im not a victim, I'm the problem! I always have been!
*a dull look as he has no emotion*
Im going to retire to my room.
I want you more than ive wanted anyone in my life.
Leave.
*his eyes linger on him a moment and then he turns to leave the room*
*grabs his wrist and spins him again*
*he looks him over when facing him again*
*slams him back against the wall, pinning him there*
*he growls loudly as hes unable to move off the wall*
*slams him again*
Youre a favorite of a king and you turn your back on him. Because your love isnt enough! Its not enough! Our love doesnt keep anyone safe.
*a cries out the second time*
What would you have me do! I told you I love you! I havent ran!
You did run. And you took Richard with you. That's why I tried to kill you both. You left and you hid with him and took him from me.
*hisses at him* You turned him without his permission. You wanted to keep him here without his consent.
I gave him a gift! Neither of you understand that immortality is a gift! Humans die. We dont. Especially if we stay together.
And hes dead, so what now?
Because hes a fucking traitor. He should have been the one dead at the asylum, not Bedrich. Bedrich has a wife and three children.
*he may have the switch off but he is enraged by this*
*he pushes off the wall and goes to vamp speed to attack him*
*his powers can do whatever still*
*hits him across the face as he does, intending to use his own momentum to push him to the ground*
*he falls to the ground as his feet, his nose and lip bleeding*
*huffing*
*grabs him by the shoulders and props him up against the wall*
Convince my sister youre not a threat. Go to her. Ill ask her if you are. When she is convinced... then ill stop acting this way.
*he keeps his eyes averted for the moment, a nod*
Does this seem like a decent compromise? So I stop giving these mixed signals?
*he nods and looks back at his face*
*looks his features over* *rubs the blood off his lip with his thumb and puts it in his own mouth* It will be alright.
I know it will.
*offers his wrist to him since he is probably hurting* I shouldnt have brought Richard up.
*he takes it eagerly and bites into it, slowly looks up to him as he says this*
I sincerely apologize.
*theres a slight softness to his eyes to say he accepts the apology *
*pets his hair with a fondness* rest here...
*he nods as he begins to purr*
Don't leave me, John. I'm so very lonely.
*he actually lets go as he stops feeding*
Im yours.
*starts to lead him to the bed* Lets rest.
Gladly. *is led but walks with him willingly*
*has him sit on the bed then drapes his dark red, fur lined cloak over John, intending to lay under with him*
*sits and looks up at him while he drapes the cloak over him, he looks content to be with him*
Perhaps... its best you dont have my venom. It's rotten. *lays down*
*he lies down with him*
*laying on his back looking up at the ceiling*
*he waits a moment and turns to his side, resting a hand on his chest*
I dont know why I get like that...
I want you to be happy. Like you were when we first were together.
A lot has happened.... because of my mistakes.
As you've expressed.
If bedrich doesnt survive Malik's attempt at healing his body... i dont know if ill ever be like I was again.
Would you be just like this?
And what is "this" i am currently?
Quick to anger, woe is me, yelling about anything and everything I do.
It would help if literally anyone gave a shit.
*he doesnt say anything to this*
Thats what I figured.
Dont start again.
I can do as i please.
I want to enjoy my time with you.
*looks his face over*
*even though his emotions are vacant, he looks to be truthful as he does enjoy being with Demetri*
