My thoughts...

Oh my Konta Bida na asawa. You say you don't want to see me sad and yet, you don't care if you hurt my feelings

03/08/2023 - you already see that I'm fuckin aggravated and then you come back saying don't use the lords name in vain... wtf are you, the lord?? Jesus fuckin christ! Leave me alone

02.28.2023 - feeling unloved

11/9/2022 - How I wish we can talk back to a**hole customers. I can not take the abuse🤬

Day 1 of no caffeine or alcohol. Head hurts snd I'm irritated af. This better be worth it.

10/19/2022 -ano, di mo makita yung Pusa mo. Yan na yung karma mo sa ginawa mo kay Pupuch

10/20/2022 - "use your logic!?!" How could you say that... PC of s**t karma will be a bitch

08/31/2022 - I hate my life. I work all day and when I get off work, I am hungry. I want to eat with my love but he wants to have burger king. I am defeated. My life is going nowhere. I'm going to starve myself and sleep.

07.22.2022 - Another night, another cry. And a blessing. I've been feeling off all night. I laid down after work. Just listened to an audio book titled The Wish by Nicholas Sparks. That's all I've been listening too. I guess I dozed off and woke up at 8:30. Checked my balances. Cheese has $129 and Varo should have $155 but it showed $275... where'd the extra 120 come from?? I'll take it. 😇Showered. Wore my cat noodle shirt. Did my nails. Laid back down. Got a glass of chocolate milk. Hugged Dumbo and Cubone, my adopted orphans. I broke down. I thought about taking love's gun and ending my life. #depressionsucks

07/21/22 - Nothing like a good cry. When you've been harboring so much in that you can't take it anymore. It's 2 of my cousins birthdays. I greeted them via group text. Worked 9:30 - 6. Had pork belly and rice for dinner. The love is working. Cleaned the stove, took out the trash and ran the dishwasher. Watched tv. Didn't call my folks. Unclogged the tub in my office bathroom. Went to lay down. I realized that Cubone and Dumbo both lost their mothers. That got me more depressed. I just had to let it all out. I miss my parents very much!

06/28/2022 - The love revealed that his mom is trying to convince him not to marry me and that my parents are convincing me not to go through with it. That shit hurts okay.

Drop dead Teresa! I love your son but I hate you! You are a judgemental, nosey hypocrite. You are mean, uneducated, brutal! I wish you would just die!

11/27/2021 - Happy fucking birthday! You get so annoyed when people don't respond to your text or answer your phone calls but here you are doing the same God damned thing...

10/30/2021 - I feel like getting my fiancé's gun and just ending my life. Im just existing....

10/27/2021 - having suicidal thoughts again. I can't sleep. I'm way too stressed. I love my fiancé but I can not deal with my life. I feel like I don't have a purpose. We've been trying for a baby for over 4 years... nothing. I suck at my finances. I'm being harassed by fleas, the IRS, the holidays are coming along with the birthdays of my mom, sister and fiancé which means I'll be God damn broke. If I had an abundance of funds, I will be okay. College is not going well, I want to go on vacation but I'm too broke. I know I'm loved but I don't feel it. - I need a sign...

09/20/21 - 10,009 steps before 8:30 am. Great job!🤯