OLD BONE

𝙎𝙆𝙆𝙐𝙉𝙆𝙆 !!   //   an independent, private, and selective blog for a fandomless original character.   written by charlie (  he / they  ).  a study on found family, self discovery, following your passions, fighting for what you believe in, and true comfort.  //  CARRD. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

hi there friends!!  i have moved blogs.  this one felt really cluttered and i needed a fresh start.  i am going to be continuing a select few threads over on my new blog, if you would like to keep one, please let me know!!  also, go ahead and LIKE THIS for my NEW URL. 

‘ i would do anything you want me to. ‘ ‘ don’t you understand i didn’t need it at all?? ‘ ‘ this doesn’t sit right. ‘ ‘ i feel unreal. ‘ ‘ invest yourself in something worth investing in. ‘ ‘ there’s so much pressure not to be alone. ‘ ‘ i don’t care about this life. ‘ ‘ no, I don’t care anymore!! ‘ ‘ it’s a bad idea to self-medicate. ‘ ‘ i know that you cry so easy even when you try so hard. ‘ ‘ are you near me?? ‘ ‘ can you see me?? ‘ ‘ and now my feet can’t touch the bottom of you. ‘  ‘ i will wait for the next time you want me. ‘ ‘ if I could give you the moon, I would give you the moon. ‘ ‘ you are sick!! ‘ ‘ i want to be the power ballad that lifts you up and holds you down. ‘ ‘ i can wish all that i want, but it won’t bring us together. ‘ ‘ i know whatever happens to me, i know it’s for the better. ‘ ‘ who am i to ask for more?? ‘ ‘ i know it’s for the better. ‘ ‘ we can be anyone. ‘ ‘ it took so long to know someone like you. ‘ ‘ i’ve been choking on truths that I couldn’t swallow. ‘ ‘ i’m falling apart over a memory. ‘ ‘  i could lie but it’s never made me feel good inside, i’m still so blue. ‘ ‘ there’s a parabolic story, but it’s boring and it ends how you’d expect. ‘ ‘ now you’re everywhere i go, looking faintly disappointed. ‘ ‘ whatever their arguments, i’ll prove your innocence!! ‘ ‘ leave that painful memory. ‘ ‘ they all want something from me. ‘ ‘ but i don’t have anything left to give. ‘ ‘ i’m like an old bone in the back of the fridge. ‘ ‘ i could ask for what i want so you could tell me what you need. ‘ ‘ there’s no use trying anymore. ‘ ‘ i’ve got no home if it’s not with you. ‘ ‘ ain’t no denyin’ that I’ve got you in my head. ‘ ‘ you’re the one i want. ‘ ‘ you’re the one i need. ‘ ‘ you’re evil, you outta know. ‘ ‘ come back to me!! ‘ ‘ won’t you hold my hand and stay a while?? ‘ ‘ i can’t really say. ‘ ‘ and oh you’re not laughing, you’re not laughing are you?? ‘ ‘ does it matter much to me to mean a thing to you?? ‘ ‘ i know it hurts like hell. ‘ ‘ the body finds a way to heal itself. ‘ ‘ we’ve evolved to deal with pain, physical or emotional. ‘ ‘ i’ve been coughing up bullshit since I can remember. ‘ ‘ i guess i haven’t changed. ‘ ‘ i’ve been much better but at least I’m healing. ‘ ‘ you know i haven’t slept since you left but for me that’s progress. ‘ ‘ i built my guard up to the clouds because of you!! ‘ ‘ you tore me down. ‘ ‘ how many times must we walk this line?? ‘ ‘ there’s gotta be something more for me!! ‘ ‘ aren’t you glad that you reside in a hell and in disguise?? ‘ ‘ could you say you’ve even tried?? ‘ ‘ i hope tonight goes differently. ‘ ‘ you’re not as good as what your mama’s sewn. ‘ ‘ i sip and toast to normalcy. ‘ ‘ i get so drunk that I can’t speak. ‘ ‘ the futures looking bleak. ‘ ‘ i’ll be just fine. ‘ ‘ i’m numb and losing feeling. ‘ ‘ i just don’t know what to do!! ‘ ‘ it’s a feeling i can’t remember. ‘ ‘ i seem to find myself just lying awake in bed until 2pm on saturdays just wasting myself away. ‘ ‘ tell me that i’m different!! ‘ ‘ i’m hard on myself and i can’t seem to stray from the idea that i’m worthless and have nothing else to give. ‘ ‘ i’m a waste of time and space. ‘ ‘ i don’t know how i got here … ‘ ‘ still i can feel the need to change me from the inside. ‘ ‘ romanticize a quiet life. ‘ ‘ there’s no place like my room. ‘ ‘ the end is here!! ‘ ‘ because i know that i do belong here. ‘ ‘ feelings are good, dishonesty is bad. ‘ ‘ you want a problem??  well i guess we got one now. ‘ ‘ what do you want me to say?? ‘ ‘ what do you want me to?? ‘ ‘ what do you want to hear?? ‘ ‘ i see it coming from a million miles away. ‘ ‘ what else can i say?? ‘ ‘ stay for a minute, let me hold you in my arms. ‘ ‘ you love me, don’t you baby?? ‘ ‘ don’t you rush away. ‘ ‘ i’m not really sure if my words make sense to you. ‘ ‘ you make me feel. ‘ ‘ please be here for me dear, because i’ve never needed a friend more. ‘ ‘ i realize how hard on you this is. ‘ ‘ i need you to pull me out of this decline!! ‘ ‘ i can’t stress enough how much it means to me that you’re trying. ‘ ‘ i’ve never hated myself more. ‘ ‘ this is just a bump in the road and i promise i’m trying!! ‘ ‘ i’m trying to tear the wool from your eyes. ‘ ‘ i don’t mind if you can’t hold me like you used to. ‘ ‘ i hate worrying about the future, because all my current problems are based around the past. ‘ ‘ but why don’t you love me back?? ‘ ‘ i swear i’m a good man. ‘ ‘ i’m just sick and tired of feeling undesired. ‘