my library. ur just living in it.

so far there's really very little on here, but it's easier to find if it's in one place.

cassian andor 🌅

latch complete, but still adding drabbles.

gender neutral reader - no pronouns used, no use of y/n.

set in the time between andor s1 and (up to and including) rogue one. this is just me hypothesising: what if someone loved cassian with an open heart. what if someone treated him gently. what then. latch spotify playlist - each chapter is a song title/lyric

had i known you better

amidst the chaos (part 1)

amidst the chaos (part 2)

as i was saying

to know him is to love him

here i am

you're so busy changing the world

interlude (what love is) - drabbles/short stories (coming,, at some point)

9.1 one more grain of sand (canon ending) 9.2 if i could (canon deviant)

post-latch drabbles

ease my mind moments of intimacy

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din djarin 🌑

OK SO I think about the book The Dictionary Of Lost Words often because very interesting book. Look it up if you aren’t familiar. I’m just thinking that if you have an extremely emotionally volatile society that’s tearing itself to shreds and then you have a big old reform where everyone adheres to strict logic there’s got to be a bit of force involved and I think it’s plausible that could be in the form of language. Basically: a mild sort of au where surakian reform involved destroying the records of most words to do with emotion and subjectivity, only keeping a handful. If u don’t have the words for it you can’t justify it or talk about it.

As per many fanon things (I cldn’t find this on Memory Alpha being canon or woteva) Amanda Grayson? Linguist. She’s out here going to rural Vulcan towns and then there are all these Vulcans using these words she’s never heard and she’s like what the hell are yall talking about

And slowly she builds this dictionary of words that the rural Vulcans (and colony Vulcans too) are using, that they kept over the generations because structures aren’t as strict as in the cities. They’re out here using Feeling words. Love words. ashaya k’diwa and many other words and feelings. And she doesn’t publish the words because that would be like throwing a lit Molotov cocktail into a field of dry grass but she keeps the words safe in case one day they can be used. Especially if Spock is struggling to identify emotions or cope with them being half human and all. Giving him words in his first language. Et cetera.

That’s just the background. The plot being: Uhura and Kirk (of the Jim variety) at some kind of science/tech/gifted high school that isn’t a direct line to Starfleet academy but definitely recognisable. They get placed on secondment during the summer break because they’re great at their studies and the secondment is on Vulcan. Uhura in linguistics maybe with ms grayson herself and Kirk in some kind of,,, admin thing. Kind of like advance credit in being an ensign/yeoman type thing. Baby steps in command track. They’re sending him bc his application was good but also in hopes he grows up a bit. He is a reforming delinquent. Bit of AOS energy here, not sure how much, not sure if I’m bringing Nero into this.

MeanWHILE Everyone at the VSA so xenophobic and Spock despite excelling is stuck with hanging with a human for a couple months which is very clearly a punishment because Vulcans are xenophobic how interesting.

Cue cultural exchange. Jim plays Spock terran music, Spock makes commentary and likes about 20% of the music. Spock leanrs a lot about feelings. Jim has a big old crush on spock. Spock is too busy having a career crisis to notice.

Then some other cool plot points blah blah blah the kids incl. Uhura hang out on Vulcan and they are friends :)

Time jump babey. End of VSA year 1 Spock is like actually fuck this I’m going to Starfleet. He do Starfleet. A year or two later Kirk and Uhura join.

Then what I actually want is the configuration of SNW where Spock and Uhura are on the Enterprise and Kirk is on the Farragut. I think Kirk gets FOMO something terribly fierce but is like there’s literally nothing I can do about it.

Idk how many SNW canon compliant spirk interactions I’m going to put in. that mind meld was crazy I feel like I need to put it in. I’m about to bite the walls.

Gary Mitchell mentioned in that episode of TOS that Kirk taught him at the Academy so I’m saying after that weird gas thing that kills a bajillion people, remaining Farragut crew are on leave and Kirk can’t sit still so he does teaching.

Enterprise is docked back outside earth that time,,, Spock sits in on one of Kirk’s lessons and is hit with an absolutely insane wave of love appreciation lust you name it it’s there and he's like huh.... a development. Uhura hasn’t seen Jim in a while either, catches Spock’s reaction and just sends him the mp3 file of Whatta Man by salt n pepa being like hey is this u rn?

m'benga love him what a lovely man, what a soothing gravelly voice, what a heartbreaking arc. the face of a friend. he's lovely. and also very much combat trained. incredible. and that bright blue colour of med uniforms is delightful on him.

hemmer he was a diva i love him and i am sad. he was so cool. and such a good mentor for baby uhura. loved his wizard performance in elysian kingdom.

baby uhura i know she's not a baby but i'm obsessed with her she's such a cutie and a sweetiepie I LOVE HER. u have found ur place girl. sing ur songs speak ur languages live ur life wear ur statement earrings love uuuuu

chapel love her i think she's fun and i think it was a really cool choice to make her character attempting to be very emotionally closed off and raw esp since she's not super explored in TOS and she's mostly a romantic in that. Do Not Like her hair tho. they need to give the beach waves and purple shampoo a rest. also combat trained which is super cool. and she's got a big old crush on spock which tracks, babey

la'an at first glance i was like 'hmm very archetypal character traits i wonder how this will go' but she feels very real and i think she is awesome and cool and i love her. also her eye makeup suits her really well. and I like her signature hair and braids and stuff. also her in the elysian kingdom episode in her hoop skirt and bridgerton bosom and overall flightiness was such a wonderful display of range. most fantastique.

ms number one diva i love her hairstyles i love her mannerisms i think she's very cool she and pike have great energy as a command team. and it was mean of them to arrest her end of s1. she's very steady and i like that about her. re genetic modifications,,, the julian bashir of it all. i'd say they would get along bc they have something in common but julian would piss her right tf off.

mitchell i feel like we don't get to hang out w her much but she's fun and i think she is cool. LOVE a helm duo dynamic and her and ortegas is great

ortegas we hang out with her a bit more i think and she's fun!! her hair is also cool. i enjoy her playfulness. she is a bit of a rapscallion and that's important

pike i thought the him making dinner for people and riding horses was fanon but it's real and he's a cowboy and the devoted and loving father of 400 people. i really like him! I think he was well cast for 'boy scout' energy. he's fun and a bit silly and cares very much and is very captain dad. love him.

spock lowkey highkey love this spock. i liked aos spock but sometimes his perpetual smirk felt a little much (i know it's an alternate universe but still). in SNW,, Spock's spockishness feels familiar and correct to me. he's got a very deep voice which also feels familiar like nimoy spock. he's out here making deductions and vulcan-mannerisms-based social blunders and getting into shenanigans. he's lovely and he's a little asshole. he's so spock. i like that he's figuring stuff out, i like the push and pull with t'pring. i wasn't really expecting that, my first reaction to that was like 'ugh really we're doing betrothed stuff?' but i stand corrected. i think it's kind of awesome. i am curious about this sort of potential emotional cheating thing he's doing with chapel. yikes. on a completely visual note i wish they made the ends of his eyebrows a liiiiitle longer. or pointier at the end. they feel too short on his face but then again he does come across a bit more human like that. so that could have been a stylistic choice and if so,,, cool, i suppose.

sam kirk i feel like he's fine. he's a bit of a dweeb but i think that was the right choice. u can't have both the kirk brothers be super charming, fun and cool otherwise it's just too much.

jtk i've only met him in the alternate pike lives timeline so far so i feel i cannot make a solid judgement but i think he's got potential (as in the casting). i'm excited to see him as a ??lieutenant?? in further seasons. curious if they're going to show us the thing that went down on the farragut where a bunch of the crew died with that gas.

commander pelia i have to put this in i'm watching s2 ep1 as i type this and idk if we're ever gonna meet her again but she is completely nuts and she's like a little witch (positive) why is she absolutely bonkers?? is she from something else?? should i know her????? and she knows amanda grayson?? incredible

16 y/o jim and nyota overcome their weird hatred and rivalry of each other bc they’ve both been given the honour of accompanying some fancy earth dudes to Vulcan for 2 months for some federation thing. Uhura bc communications and languages and kirk because all-rounder and he hasn't picked his focus and also the staff think it'll maybe help him grow up a bit. and they’re both top of their classes and did the best applications et ceteRA they go to a school in SF that takes the very gifted talented sciencey, public speaking, language, kid-genius, model UN, engineering types and it's somewhat connected to starfleet. not a guaranteed thing but it's a 'high school is too easy for you and u have aspirations'.

Meanwhile 18 y/o spock acing first year VSA but the hoes are prejudiced and give him the ~boring job~ of hanging with the terrans for 2 months as some high council or VSA prof. aide and first he’s like haaaaate this and then he’s like lowkey this is a valuable cultural exchange.

but for context

Jim and nyota hate each other because when they were 14 on their first day at this sort of pre-starfleet gifted and talented sort of school,,, jim looked worse for wear (maybe he’s emancipated he’s going thru a tough time or maybe he just fell in some mud) and nyota and a friend were like ‘wow poor guy’ genuinely feeling bad but one of them said it weird + they said it in unison despite having just met which made them laugh and then they just kept going ~poor guy~ in the weird intonation for the whole day. And Jim is around the whole day because it’s orientation and it’s a class of like 20 kids and that’s it so he hears them say it over and over again.

and from jim’s perspective hes like I turn up lookin like shit i get laughed at and then get called poor the whole day like the fuck ? immediately sniped by the pretty girls in my class (he is 14 and he cares deeply about the fact that they are pretty girls) So he calls nyota a bitch. And from nyota’s perspective it’s like I was having fun making weird sounds with my new friend and some little asshole is calling me a bitch for no reason. what the hell was that and they hate each other for a year and or two and they have an academic rivalry and all that smoke

And then once they both get awarded this position, pike or someone is like,,, jim,,,, dude this is a huge opportunity you need to get your act together w the terran delegation for this thing because jim is un petit peu a delinquent (trek aos energy)

nyota’s like this dude’s gonna kick the bucket over there in logicland I almost feel sorry for him.

and jim’s like “hey I’m actually ready to put that stuff behind me I don’t even care anymore I just want a friend over there because maybe I’m scared actually of messing this up because I am literally a teenager and going to planet of pure logic no childishness no getting silly,,,, with a bunch of very serious important adults”

and nyota is like oh you're ready to put this all behind you? i expect an apology.

And he’s like why the fuck are you saying it like I’m the one who needs to apologise

And she’s like the first thing you ever did in my presence was call me a bitch unprompted.

And he’s like no i called you a bitch because you kept calling me the poor guy

And she’s like ????? you read that wrong???? I’m not an asshole????

And he’s like ????? you read it wrong too????? neither am i?????? maybe yes i am but i'm not when it matters????? and i'm trying to do a better job of being nice now?????

and she's like i've actually been noticing that. you're pleasant enough to be around. (he's inching closer to the middle ground between aos and tos kirk)

And then they realise hm we could have been getting along fine this whole time and it seems we have had a misunderstanding of some kind

Mandatory joke about nyota being a communications specialist in training and having that big of a miscommunication

Mandatory ‘dude I was 14 cut me some slack’ from both of them because yeah they were 14 cut them some slack

Achievement get - friendship

now,

Jim playing beastie boys in the red car he drives off the cliff. that song is like 200? 300? years old by his time? that means he’s a music nerd and that’s True and Verifiable. Nyota we know is an angel of music. and she knows so many languages you know she is so into fusion music and songs in diff languages.

They bond over music and then they meet Spock and they’re like yoo what’s up (Vulcan-appropriate version) and Spock appreciates how mathsy and scientific music is and kirk and uhura are like please let us show you terran songs it will be fun

Fun is not productive or particularly logical but he’s going to get into it for the sake of cultural exchange when they're not working. i've decided that nyota is going to mostly work with someone else in languages and comms but hangs with jim and spock sometimes, and jim and spock are paired in work because they're all-rounders that haven't picked specialities at this stage in their lives.

And you know Spock got that thang (Vulcan lyre) on him.

And then at some point spock is like why are some of these songs hitting different why am I feeling things abt the music. i thought i could maths and science my way through this

a while after this valuable cultural exchange he's gonna go: dude.... i have to go to starfleet i can't do this VSA xenophobia shit. like the humans are weird but there's actually nothing wrong with being human and because he's 18 he can go to straight into starfleet. and jim and nyota can't bc technically they're still in highschool so spock beats them to the punch.

note that when chekhov enrols in starfleet age literal CHILD (in like 4 years) uhura and kirk are pissed but it's because the rules changed

And then we sort of talk about language and stuff and then THEN maybe timejump we get into an extended thing of when Surakian reform happened part of the becoming devoted to logic was getting rid of feeling words

And spock is like what is this feeling so sudden and new I don’t have words for because they literally don’t exist. And then we’re gonna go from there idk we’re going to rediscover the ancient Vulcan Feeling Words. and we're gonna talk to amanda grayson and she's a linguist i've decided and she's gonna go hello my beloved son i've actually been deep diving into this my whole married life let's get into it do i have some ancient Vulcan Feeling Words for you