let the tide in and set me free

this account is basically dead, so i think this is a safe space. i don’t feel very good. as in, i don’t know who i am. i put all of my identity and worth into other people and its bad. but when i look at myself i don’t see anything anymore. i feel boring. i don’t have any real interests or likes anymore, i don’t do anything. i can’t make any decisions, i don’t like myself, i get anxious and obsessive over tiny things that people have said. i feel used and like a thing that’s just waiting around for when someone else wants me. when i look in the mirror i don’t feel like a person. i don’t have an identity or a purpose. i don’t know why i’m here at all

can’t believe i dont use this website anymore. it’s like i grew up or something