One bite at a time

They say we were born into this world with nothing. Materially, that is. Because we sure have our mom in the first seconds of our lives.

We were brought into this world with our family. Eventually we met our first batch of schoolmates who turned into our friends, and so on.

We explored the world with them, in the process, we met new people to call friends.

We reached the peak — of life, friendships, adventures.

But just like mountain climbing, we eventually have to go back down.

To what?

To the reality of, well, we can’t stay there forever. We’re not meant to stay there.

We have to go back down to rest from all the excitement that wore us out.

We have to go back down so we can cherish the view again from the bottom. 

We have to go back down so we can properly plan our next peak.

And in doing this, season after season, some people will want to join you again and again. Some will need to rest. Some will prefer different adventures. And you have to accept that.

As you go through life, there may be different people in your Season 1 and your Season 8 — and that’s okay. Because the truth is, you won’t want the same thing forever either.

But notice the pattern, in every season, you were never alone.

Never :)

Four years ago, I wrote here that I was losing people.

But do we really lose people?

The past seven years have proven me otherwise. Because I've been keeping them here in my heart, and its quite heavy.

And I've been contemplating for the past two days how to release this heaviness, to focus on the happy memories instead, and in the process, wish them well on the life ahead of them, without me.

To my once-friends and family, thank you, goodbye, and all the luck.

I felt hate for about a minute and resume with my day. Very different response from me compared to 2 years ago. I’m improving.

Loving yourself more do wonders. You started to not care about feelings, emotions that will not do any good to you. You started to direct your energy to something that will beautifully grow.

I am healing. I am hopeful.

Here’s a photo of Nezuko --- my mama’s cat at home,  to remember one of the nights that I felt at peace.

I will not be where I am today, if not for her.

I will not achieve everything I want in life if not for her.

Eternally grateful to you, Mama.

Missing my time in Singapore during Christmas to New Year break!

Christmas night at Orchard Road

First Marina Bay Sands Light show (cos I’ve watched it for like 3 times on different nights)

National Gallery of Singapore

Took this photo cos he looked like my Tatay Juan

Had so many night walks in Singapore. The city is beautiful.

ArtScience Museum

Universal Studios

Sea Aquarium

And of course, this trip wouldn’t be as much as fun without my friends. Our time spending the holidays in SG was not planned at first. Justin and I booked different flights and it still turned out well.

We were so happy during the New Year countdown, we never expected 2020 to be like this for all of us :(

But with all our prayers, soon we can all laugh and celebrate like this again. 

So Jen and I decided to go for an overnight trip in Malacca, Malaysia.

As soon as we hopped on the bus, I took a medicine cos I just know I will have a fever. I feel better for like an hour, and then I’m feverish again. Good Mae didn’t bring any biogesic from the PH.

So every time we have to line up in the immigration, I just acted up like I’m okay. I’m scared they won’t let me pass the boarder. Haha

Long story short, I spent a night in Malaysia just sick. Bummer!

So I tried to somehow explore the next day.

Thanks, Jen! Our experience of ordering food in a restaurant without enough cash to pay it is one for the books!