Peter Parker; Ilomilo
Words: 1066
Warnings: angst, fluff, endgame spoilers!
Peter Parker x Stark!reader
Based on 'Ilomilo' by Billie Eilish
ENDGAME SPOILERS AFTER CUT!!!
Told you not to worry
But maybe that's a lie
After your dad had died you had broken down. Just like the rest half of the world Thanos had made you disappear. As soon as you came back happy got notified and took you home. But not the home you remembered. Eventually it became too much. Your dad died, you had a new home and a new sister you didnât knew existed. You burst into tears by Peppers side and you two cried for several hours. After that day you tried to be stronger. Not only for yourself, but also for Megan. You were suddenly her big sister after all. You two were inseparable since you met.
You had told Pepper that you were fine but Just didnât feel like going to school yet. Obviously that was a lie. You were not fine and weren't sure about facing Peter again.
Honey, what's your hurry? Won't you stay inside? Remember not to get too close to stars They're never gonna give you love like ours
You had called Peter immediately after you came home, he didnât pick up, which you obviously knew since he was probably helping your dad fight Thanos. So you called the next day. And the next. And the Day after that, several times. But it didnât matter how many times you called or texted he Just didnât respond.
Where did you go? I should know, but it's cold
You had called May as well but she kept saying het wasn't there or that he wasnât feeling well. You didnât Know what happened. What you had done. You were hurt. Felt left out. You didnât Know where he was or what he was doing. Something you always knew. Luckily Ned did pick up first time. It was cold in your room and had snuggled up in your oversized sweater. You and Ned had talked about everything and you cried. It made you feel a lot better.
And I don't wanna be lonely So show me the way home I can't lose another life
 Every night you called him and he didnât pick up you felt more alone. You and Peter had been thru everything together and now he dropped you, just like that.  Luckily Betty and MJ were there to hang out with you the days you didnât go to school. They said Peter never really talked about it and also never mentioned you. You had lost so much already, you didnât want to lose Peter for no reason. So you thought it was a good idea to face him where he couldnât avoid you. School.
 The world's a little blurry
Or maybe it's my eyes The friends I've had to bury They keep me up at night
 You sat in the backseat of Happyâs car watching the landscape as he drove you to school. You were getting more nervous by the minute. Your anxiety was rising, not only because you had to face Peter but also because you knew people would talk about you coming to school again. Since your dad died and all. You hadnât noticed the car had stopped until Happy cleared his throat. He wished you a good day and good luck. He also said he would beat Parker up if he had too. You smiled and waved at him. It was like a scene out of a movie, people stopped talking and watched every step you took. Your vision was becoming blurry. Thatâs when Betty saw you and wiped your tears away. âYou can do this. Youâre strongâ she kept sweet talking you until you reached your first class. As you sat in class everything reminded you of your dad. Drawings and posters were hung up and some kids came to school with âiron manâ shirts on. Your dadâs death also reminded you of Natashaâs. You buried an empty coffin.
 Said I couldn't love someone
'Cause I might break If you're gonna die, not by mistake
 When finally lunch rolled around you realised the mistake youâd made. Walking up to your standard table you saw Peter. To say he didnât look good was an understatement, he looked like shit. As soon as he saw you he awkwardly stood up. âCan I talk to you?â He asked slowly. You nodded and followed him outside. âIâm sorry.â
You scoffed. âThatâs a little bit lateâ you said. You were trying to look tough, trying not to cry. But you hadnât seen Peter in so long.
 So, where did you go?
I should know, but it's cold And I don't wanna be lonely So tell me you'll come home Even if it's just a lie
 âI called you so many times, Peterâ You said, more fiercely. âI know, I justâ âNo you donât get to talk right nowâ You were so angry. He left you when you needed him the most, when you didnât want to be lonely. He didnât even try to lie, he just ignored you.
âYou left me all alone when my dad died and now you suspect me to what⌠forgive you?â You were getting more upset by his silence, although you shushed him just a few seconds ago.
 I tried not to upset you
Let you rescue me the day I met you I just wanted to protect you But now I'll never get to
âI never intended to hurt you like thatâ Peter sniffled. You scoffed again. âNever intended to hurt me? Jesus Peter. That worked out didnât it?â You wiped away the tears on your cheek. âMy dad died and I needed you. God even Ned was there. But where were you? The last time I saw you was at his funeral.â âIâm sorryâ Peter didnât even try to give excuses. He had none. Because of his selfishness heâs going to lose his best friend. Â
âYou know what, I donât even want to talk to you right nowâ you stormed inside, not giving Peter a second glance. You ran into the girls bathroom and cried. You were done with Peter Parker.
 Hurry, I'm worried
Where did you go? I should know, but it's cold And I don't wanna be lonely Was hoping you'd come home I don't care if it's a lie











