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do you ever think about this quote by mary lambert because i think about it all the time
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natalie wee, our bodies & other fine machines
sam sax, hydrophobia

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who: @romxnticssβ what: truth or dare aftermath </3 where: the kidβs room
βIβm not saying βI told you soβ.β Which was mostly true. If she wanted a nice break from Cherry, it didnβt make sense to pick a fight with one of the few people who genuinely liked her. Even if she wanted to scream about his moment with Libby, about the way she could swear he wasnβt as captivated by her as he had once been. Jealousy and insecurity more likely to make Kitty feel like shit than the constant cycle of drinking and hangovers while they were away. βBut I knew they were going to be like this.β Which was totally unfair of Elaine since she was with Zev!
Of course, not many people had the guts to critique Elaine the way they did Kitty. βItβs so typical of her, but Harvey?β He had been so nice to her... and then just distance and that. Did Elaine hear something about them hanging out? Was that what she was mad about? Why she targeted him? βTheyβre supposed to be my friends,β the disappointment in her tone only allowed because it was Mac.
who: @thewriter-noahβ what: the writer and the wannabe on okay terms again? the world is healing where: the den
The last time Kitty talked to Noah, despite it revolving around the bomb Candy Girl had dropped, it was almost nice. At least, talking to him again was. That didnβt mean she was suddenly seeking him out. She was only going to the den to try to find a movie that Zahra, Elaine and Rory would all agree to kick everyone else out of the room for later that night. It did mean that the sight of him alone wasnβt shooting her guard back up and putting her on defense. Maybe some kind of happiness to see him without her friends around if you squinted.
βThanks for putting all the food away.β It was the least he deserved after she had backtracked to only thank Elaine in front of everyone else. βI didnβt say that before.β Was it something she thought heβd hold against her? No, but it was what friends did, right? They were friends. At least, trying to be. Thatβs what the entire gang was supposed to be. βAre you enjoying yourself?β
who: @zahrajacksonβ what: my formal apology for the way zahra is going to get so sick of kitty where: zahra & roryβs room! <3
Truth or dare always stirred up drama. Usually, she loved watching Elaine tear someone down. It was entertaining yet also inspiring. It usually wasnβt her. Technically, her question had been about Mac and his love life. AKA her worst kept secret. Harvey had been the one to name-drop her, but Elaine knew. She had to know from how she carried on about him to try and change her mind. More annoying than the discreet Kitty thought she was being.
βWhy would she ask that?β Kitty blurted. βLast night. About Mac. Is she mad at me or something?β Would Elaine even tell Zahra if she was? βAnd Harveyβs, like, so wrong. Rockstars totally have skin in the game. Iβm not pathetic.β More trying to convince herself than Zahra.
who: @jamiecromwellβ what: meet me behind the mall arcade where: youβll never guess
Itβs hard to articulate just how Kitty was feeling. Losing Lux wasnβt exactly the devastating blow it was to some, but the anniversary still left a funny feeling in her chest. How different things were from a year ago. Yet also how everything managed to feel so... raw and recent. Like growing pains without any of the actual growth.
One of the easier feelings to decipher from the static mess in her head was loneliness. The way Lux used to make her feel. Like she could scream and still be invisible, no matter how much she changed about herself. The way she had been forcing herself to feel. Damaging relationships dear to her because she lashed out like a wounded animal, keeping those who wanted to be around her at armβs length for the fear theyβd no longer want to if they saw too much.
She isnβt thinking rationally when sheβs approaching Jamie. Even on the other side of the tracks, especially with how Kitty had toed the line for years, optics were still a thing. Nothing more than a quick demand to meet her behind the arcade in, like, half an hour. Enough time to make him walking off seem disconnected from their brief interaction. The fact he actually does it? Honestly, it surprised Kitty a little.
βYou came,β she greeted, trying to keep the relief out of her voice. βI just...β But as she started, it became painfully obvious she didnβt have the words to finish. No explanation for dragging him away from the festivities. At least, not one she could articulate. βUgh, forget about it. This is stupid. Just go back to whatever freak show you came from.β

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The last thing Casey had been expecting that night was to have a meltdown over a movie. A meltdown over Luxβ¦ maybe. Possibly on the cards. A meltdown over Zahraβs birthday gift tucked in his back pocketβ¦ yeah. Probably. A meltdown over James Dean? No. He looks at the other manβs face on the poster with the same kind of scrutiny afforded to when heβs deeply engaged in a book. Thereβs no doubt that what Caseyβs wearing is far more modern - he wouldnβt be caught dead in those shoes, thank you - but there is something eerie about looking at it. Same pop of red in the jacket. Same cuffed jeans in a different colour. The only reassuring thing is the tagline. He certainly didnβt come from a good family - ha. βIs this like one of those who wore it better things?β He asks with a gestured finger point to the poster, finally tearing his gaze away from the poster to look at the person who had come to stand near him. ββCause Iβdβ¦ win, right?β
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βYouβre kidding, right?β Kitty asked, flicking her attention back to the poster as Casey pointed. βJames Dean is, like, timeless. It feels a little unfair trying to win that.β Would she agree? Probably. Is it smart to say that because of Mac and Noah? Definitely not. βIf you want a competition you can win, look at all the losers with too much hair gel and a tacky outfit attempt that feels way too forced. Youβre the best James Dean knockoff by far.β Which honestly sounded a lot nicer in Kittyβs head. βBut if you guys get totally famous and are timeless sex symbols like James Dean, maybe teenagers fifty years from now will think you win. The movie will be a hundred years old and theyβll all totally forget about him.β
rorycollinsβ:
who: open! what:Β took one look at rebel without a causeβs wikipedia page & said jesus christ not this where: either u agree to go to the food shack with her or u have to decide where they are i donβt make the rulesΒ
βWho picked Rebel Without a Cause?β Roryβs brow furrowed as she squinted at the screen over a sea of cars. Sheβd really been hoping for something a little more light-hearted, or at least something that she could get engrossed in enough to forget the everything elseΒ going on lately. Town Square. Lux. Town Square. Sleepwalking. Rebel Without a CauseΒ wasβ¦ not going to do it. She forced a smile to her face, some lightness into her voice. βOkay, if Iβm gonna watch aΒ movie about California teenagers fighting each other, knife fights, and doing stupid stuff that ends in multiple deaths, Iβm gonna need to go get a drink.β She hadnβt really planned on buying anything aside from her movie snack but desperate times called for desperate measures.Β βWanna come with? Iβll share my skittles in exchange for company.β
π
βYouβre looking at it all wrong,β Kitty told her as if it were a matter of fact. βThe fighting is just... stupid boy stuff. We watch Rebel Without a Cause for the hotties like James Dean.β If it were a year ago, there wouldnβt have been a trace of hesitation at Roryβs question. In fact, she probably would have been dragging the other girl by the hand from the mere mention of needing a drink. It would have been sweet, rather than just emphasizing the cold spot in her life without Rory next to her. She had made some weird kind of peace with Noah in the form of seeing him after Candy blasted him on her blog. Plus, the glittery gel pen on the calendar was practically haunting her about the other girlβs birthday. βOnly if you save me a lot of the red ones,β Kitty caved, holding her hand out like an olive branch.
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roary80xoxo: i feel like i haven't seen you in forever
roary80xoxo: and i was hoping maybe we could go get birthday ice cream tomorrow? like tradition?
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kittycatcutie: you still want to do that this year??
kittycatcutie: idk i just assumed. yknow being forever and all
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Pain wasnβt uncommon in Noah Russellβs life. Far from it actually, but heβd have been lying if he said, getting his ass handed to him, and having Candy throw him directly under the bus wasnβt a rough one. In the short time since itβd all come out he took to spending the majority of his time locked away in his room. Sure there were a few exceptions, but as far as he was concerned the less interactions he had with the rest of the gang the better. Which made it hard to force himself to get up when he heard the knocking at the door. Could have remained content in the dark depths of his room until finally the voice registered with him. A voice heβd never in his life tried to ignore until now. A voice that once would have sent his nerves on a tizzy that now twisted his stomach in knots. Partially because he wasnβt sure which Kitty he was going to get. At least not until he really listened in on what she was asking. Just open the door.Β
A request that was so much easier said than done as he pushed himself up and made his way there. For a moment he paused. Pressing his forehead against the door as he contemplated turning back around and retreating to the safety of his room. But it was the please that won out. The please that reminded him of the girl heβd once been so crazy stupid in love with. That had him pulling open the door ever so slightly as he offered her an apologetic look.Β βIβm sorry Iβd been asleep.β He fibbed, although it wasnβt like he didnβt look the part. Although the odds of that in the middle of the day were a little less likely. βIs everything okay?βΒ
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The sound of the knob twisting and the door being pulled open came as a slight reassurance. Proof that Kitty hadnβt completely burnt the bridge. That relief quickly dashed by the sight of the other boy. If it had been a few months ago, if Kitty had handled everything better, she would have been pulling him into her arms. Instead, she greeted him with a soft βhiβ and that faintest curve of her lips that was meant to be a smile.
If it werenβt such a dire situation, if it werenβt Noah, Kitty would have made some comment about the fact he looked like he hadnβt slept in years. βNo, everythingβs not okay,β she replied, brushing past Noah to come inside even without an invite. βIβve been worried sick about you. Are you-β Okay? How could anyone be okay after something like that? βAlone? Can we talk?β
beachboy-westβ:
who: @ofwannabeesβ what: Lawn mowing
Regardless of where he was living now, West always found a reason to go back to his trailer park roots. Whether it was to visit his brothers, or in this case just to take care of some of the surrounding areas, heβd had a hard time ever completing separating from it. Something he just sort of accepted wasnβt the case for most other individuals who grew up there. Which made it ever the more rare when heβd run into the queen of trying to escape herself.Β βHey Maddox!β He called out as he stopped his pushing to give her a flag down. Giving his brow a quick wipe from the sweat as he leaned against the machine.Β βShe graces the homeland with her presence. Gotta be quicker than that if youβre trying not to be seen in these parts.βΒ
π Kitty always knew the day she moved the last thing out of her motherβs place would be the last day she ever stepped foot in the trailer park. Why West Virginia was lingering like some annoying bug was beyond her. βDidnβt you move out?β Kitty asked in place of a greeting. In fact, she knew he had because she was nice enough toΒ actuallyΒ tell him sheβd miss him when he left. She wouldnβt have been so lame if she knew he would keep hanging around. βI was just leaving.β Yet as he leaned against the machine, Kitty decided she could spare a few moments. βDo you want something, or are you just being weird?β
romxnticssβ:
Mac knew he was acting weird, between the guilt of not having the courage to tell Kitty what happened with Harvey and the weird connection he was feeling to Town Square. He was surprised she was still choosing to hang around him at all, let alone talking of big plans to run away together. He almost didnβt want to play pretend, to get his hopes up for something he knew would never happen, but he couldnβt help but match her smile as he looked into her eyes.Β βAs fun as Hawaii sounds I think Iβd have to go with New York. Lots of people in the music scene over that way, and Iβd love to see the snow with you.β He presses a kiss to her forehead, pulling her in closer to him,Β βWhy the sudden change of heart?βΒ
π
βHow about we live in New York and then get a cute little holiday home in Hawaii. I mean, some people have them in Cherry, of all places!β Ones that no doubt sit empty in light of recent events. βIβve always wanted a white Christmas,β Kitty admitted. βMy mother is a total grinch, but I think it would be kinda nice. Actually set up and decorate a Christmas tree. Fake, of course. Iβm not dealing with an actual thing from nature thatβs gonna bring bugs into our home.β Kitty hesitated at the question, wondering if she should just brush it off. Because Cherry is a terrible place and Iβm sick of it. As if it hadnβt been the first time Mac asked her. βI donβt knowβ¦ Itβs justβ¦ Last time Candy was airing out our dirty laundry, it was a lot of stupid shit like Rory having a baby or that I wanted to murder Zahra. Obviously not true.β She had been right about Sabrina and the mayor, but that was totally detached from them. βBut now thereβs creepy little voyeur tapes andβ¦β Donβt mention the polaroid. As far as she was concerned, she wanted to lump that in with Graceβs Unbelievable Bullshit. βSheβs acting like sheβs gonna make one of us go down for Luxβs murder or something.β
CAN WE JUST BE HONEST WITH EACH OTHER FOR ONCE?
Another Saturday, another bout of HONESTY HOUR for the Gang to lie their way through! How fitting.Β
If youβd like to participate in this weekβs sharing circle, then totes pin this post to your own bulletin board and make sure to send out questions to as many of your fellow Cherriots as you can! Have fun, weirdos!Β And donβt do anything I wouldnβt do.Β
Or do. Itβs way more fun that way.Β
who: @romxnticssβ what: fluff?? in this economy???? where: macβs room
βOkay, so, I know I was the one that called you crazy for wanting to leave when that psycho broke into Rissaβs office, but...β The last word drawn out as she was pushing the notebook, another weird rendition of Town Square she pretended not to notice, out of his hands. βI changed my mind.β After all that, how could you not? Instead of asking how much he believed or making any snide comments about Alice, her hand was placed on his cheek and tilting his head up to meet her gaze. βShe hasnβt said any βIβll expose you and then kill you if you try to leave townβ threats again. Weβll run away together, and itβd be super cool and super romantic. Youβll write songs and theyβll be, like, crazy successful. Itβll be a total Fast Car moment.β Of course, it was easier to offer up that kind of grand commitment when it was an impossible situation. That theyβd never have to call their own bluffβs, even though she pressed her lips against Mackenzieβs as a promise. βWe could go to,β a quick pause to weigh up their options, as if they had the resources or free will to leave town. βHawaii! I could get a sexy tan. Or New York. It always looks so glamorous on TV. Plus, all of those places are so Not Cherry. No one would even bat an eye at us being... yβknow. An us.β

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who: open what: rocky being a lil on edge to be back in proper where: around the side of surfβs up
There were many, many things Rocky could attribute the tight feeling across her shoulders to. The horrifically publicised funeral of Billy Rocks that she had missed, the drama that seemed to swell every time someone so much as mentioned Lux Lewisβ name, or maybe it was simply pain from carrying all the bullshit she had for so many fucking years. One thing she would not attribute it to, however, was an uncomfortable feeling caused by being back in Proper after so many years. It wasnβt the first time back, no, but it was sinking in that she was back. In a certain sense. Whatever. That totally wasnβt her problem.Β
In the afternoon shadows beside Surfβs Up Rocky attempted rid that irritating and awfully humbling feeling, pulling rolled cigarette from a metal case and put it between her lips. Cupping hand around it as she tried to light itβ but then she sees a shadow move, or thinks she does. Either way, causes her to jump, dropping lighter from her hand as she did.Β β Jesus.Β Donβt fucking sneak up on me like that, β Was it really sneaking or was it more likely theyβd just rounded a corner and now had Rocky snapping at them?Β β Total creeper shit. β She commented irritably, grabbing cigarette before it had the chance to fall as well. She looked to the ground for fallen lighter, the faded red BIC lighter easy to spot, but unfortunately close to the approacherβs feet. God damn it.Β β Mind passing my lighter? β She asked, pointing to it. Irritability notably dropped from her tone now she was asking a favour. A small one, but a favour nonetheless.
π
Strange to think about it now, but there was once a time that rounding a corner and coming face to face with Rocky wouldnβt have brought on the pit in Kittyβs stomach that was impossible to ignore. They had been friends. Safe to say, there was no proof left for the naked eye when Kitty stepped back in disgust upon recognizing the other girl. βDonβt flatter yourself,β she shot back quickly. βThis is a totally busy walkway and youβre lurking in the shadows like some southside thug. Which, I mean, kinda fits, right?β
Kittyβs eyes flickered down to the lighter that had fallen to her feet before shooting back up to Rocky. βYou know thatβs disgusting, right? And, like, a sure-fire way to die young.β Then again, living in Cherry alone did that! βNot that I give a shit,β she tacked on before halfheartedly kicking the lighter towards the other girl. βIf youβre done being a sketchy psycho, some of us have an actual life to get back to. This has been horrible, letβs never do it again!β The artificially sweet tone laid on thick to match the Barbie smile flashed at the other girl. βPeace out, Pebble.β
who: @thewriter-noahβ what: kitty having a heart?? more likely than you think where: the russell residence
In the wake of Candyβs destruction, Kitty wouldnβt have been surprised if her endless knocking at the door and calling out went ignored until Ronnie was sent out to tell her to get lost. If there was one thing Kitty Maddox had perfected, it was the art of being annoying. Turns out it was a lot harder to get Noahβs time and attention when he wasnβt fawning over her. The thought that he had heard her voice and turned away because they werenβt exactly on the best of terms lingered in the back of her mind. Something would no doubt get ranted to Zahra and Audrina whilst still swearing she didnβt care.
She was at his doorstep to check on him because she didnβt care. How believable! Surely she could just blame the sappy empathy on spending too much time around Mackenzie Walsh and roll her eyes about it later. Once she was sure Noah was... stable. βLook, Noah. Iβm not here to make things worse,β she reasoned with a door, hoping there was someone- anyone behind it. Except Rory Collins. How embarrassing would that be? βJust open the door... Please.β