it was all yellow

“truest statement, actually. he’s the only cousin i consider to be my friend. the rest are either too old, too young, or too pretentious.”

“you didn’t... it’s fine. honestly, i think i would’ve kept it in longer if this conversation didn’t happen.” he shrugged, staring at their hands now. “thank you. you’re the first one to know, actually.” he chuckled quietly, trying not to be nervous.

“ha ha.” he fake laughed, rolling his eyes playfully. “that’s awesome. i’m glad you had fun.” jun sat down, hands in his hoodie’s pockets. “souvenirs? damn, i didn’t know you’d even think of bringing me any. what’d you get?”

“true...”

“yes, mom, it’s not a phase. true.”

“... true.”

“you’re back already, i see.” jun spoke with a smile as he walked through the door. “how was your trip?

jun shook his head. “no, it’s okay. n-now... now you know.” he responded quietly, smiling sadly at him. jun was always someone who was bright and smiley around his friend, but now, he just couldn’t hide how nervous he was. “i’m bisexual.” he finally spoke the two words he’s been having a hard time saying, and he had to admit to himself, he felt relieved. “have been since i was fifteen.”

@mjunkim: i think i missed the memo too.... 🇰🇷😳

@mjunkim: @maekwn nose-

jun didn’t expect this. he sat there in silence, his mind running a thousand miles an hour. he looked over at his friend, not meeting his eyes, but looking at the other’s hands. “i...” he took a deep breath. he’s been waiting for a moment like this since he was fifteen, and yet he still didn’t feel ready. he reached over and took one of kangdae’s hands into his own. “i wanted to come out properly first.” he answered quietly, sound uncharastically nervous. 

that threw him off guard. jun had frozen up, not knowing how to react. his heart was going off, not slowing down at all. “i-i... y-yeah, i guess.” he answered quietly. too quiet. kangdae was the person he was most comfortable around, but jun suddenly didn’t know how to act. in fact, he had no idea if he even heard him right. his arms that were around the other boy slipped away and he kept his hands in his lap. “you never know... he might feel the same. i wouldn’t know, though.” 

i’m scared too, he thought. jun doubted he was talking about him. it was definitely someone else. “fair enough.” he nodded. kangdae’s face was too close, jun was genuinely ready to just lose it. “yes. why wouldn’t you be? i wouldn’t lie to you.” 

“that’s nothing to be embarrassed about. lots of people don’t get tattoos because of the needles.” he shrugged. “oh, that would be cool. did you know there’re these temporary tattoos that you apply like those old kid tattoos, and they look like actual real tattoos? maybe you can try that.”