Depressed Unicorn

Lesson learned. Don't eat a shit ton of pasta and then try to swallow 3 edibles. I'm so pissed at myself for throwing it up. Good weed fucking wasted.

Usually, when I get high I just eat a bunch of snack cakes and watch Ghost Adventures over and over... however last night I somehow drew a rough sketch of a tattoo design and ate six eggs for some reason and the only way I know is because I just found the pictures on my phone. It was the same weed I always use I don't know why it hit so differently. Literally only have the barest hint of recollection.

Unveiled a tiny bit of trauma today at the therapist. Don't know whether be proud or scared that I accidentally revealed so much.

I find it absolute bullshit that a manager put me in a shitty situation where I tried my fucking best and now the same manager has denied me the 1 day I requested off for next month. They can fuck off. I should put in a transfer request in. They think that I fucked them over? Wait till I'm no longer there.

I have no appetite whatsoever but my stomach won't shut the fuck up. Food is so unappealing when you just want to die.

Just wanna tell the world to go fuck itself but I need groceries and some goddamn cheesecake. Fuck I hate dealing with people but I guess I'm leaving the house then. At least I can have a cigarette while I drive.

How is it that I'm on vacation and I'm just as depressed as ever? It would have been cheaper just to stay home. Now I'm stuck in a hotel room watching a bunch of dvds because I have no motivation to go anywhere. I'm supposed to get my tattoo tomorrow and honestly I'm not even excited for it anymore.