Subby Bambi

CW: brainwashing, corruption, femsub, brainwashed author, denial,

Hi hi~ This appeared not so long ago~

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The number glowed on Sylvia's screen.

500

She stared at it for several long seconds. Five hundred stories. The number felt absurd.

Some had been barely five hundred words, little ideas she'd dashed off in a single evening. Others had grown and consumed entire weekends, their chapters stretching into tens of thousands of words before she finally forced herself to stop.

There, I simplified it for you. And, as with any dream, you commit to overcome all obstacles to achieve it with an unstoppable passion. Roadblocks and things which cause delays become unacceptable.

I like to write. Btw, journaling is something I highly recommend.

About me: I self-accepted as a trans woman in 2021 and began transitioning medically and socially at the start of 2022. We all do it differently, but I essentially just flipped the switch and went 24/7 overnight on the first day of my transition and never looked back.

Through boredom or, perhaps, curiosity I returned here in December 2025 to take a look around at a place where I’d spent several years before my ‘hatch’. I'd been booted during the 'great purge' on Tumblr in 2020 and it was the best thing that ever happened. Maybe I wanted to feel the old magic of massive reactions to my posts, though. But those were confused, mostly lost years (between 2015 and 2020) when my content featured tons of stereotypes and what I recognize now as misogyny in many cases. I came back with fairly pure intentions (Maybe I missed my old role of dominatrix which I just can’t get into anymore. I’d never want to force anyone to do anything or shame them. That was an old persona and it’s just not me anymore) and then an old superfan contacted me and sent me my old Tumblr archives from 2016 to 2020 from when I still didn’t even know I was a trans. It was surreal for me to see my progress so clearly in this massive trove of 5,000 captions. There was a discernable arc; early captions from 2016 to 2018 were so very stereotypical and sexist and highly sexualized and they equated being a trans and being a woman with weakness. Gross. By 2019-2020 the trend in my content was MUCH more affirming and sought to encourage transwomen to live their truth and transition (even though I somehow didn't even know I was trans yet! My soul must have known). Still, I started reposting EVERYTHING from those old archives which was a mistake. I should have deleted the poisonous stuff. It just didn’t feel right or fair after a while to spread it all over again as an out and proud transwoman. I mean, it was wonderful having 100,000 followers way back then and I could do it again, but I won’t do it at the cost of my soul. The same holds true for my old ‘sissy’ erotica short stories which were read by 1.5 million people on Fictionmania in those days (I’ve only left 5 of those stories up at that site out of 100 because they are fairly sweet ones). I could write and post those kinds of stories again, but I won't. I hope I was never a harmful influence with either my captions here or my fiction there. I like to think that I have helped more people than I've harmed. My writing is actually what led directly to me finally hatching, though, so I have mixed feelings about those days. It was just part of my growth as a human. Sometimes we have to forgive ourselves for not knowing then what we know now.

Now that I’ve looked back, I am only looking forward.

I am resolved. I won’t spread harmful stereotypes. I’ve just spent several days/hours ‘scrubbing’ over 4,000 captions I’d reposted over the last 8 months. I am only interested in positive content for transwomen. My goal is to empower those who are transitioning, especially if they are earlier in their journey than me (but not too early). To be honest, it was painful to see what I’d created before and to relive the confusion. All of that is so far behind me now. So, what did I find when I came back to Tumblr? Not what I expected. This place is more alive than ever with content which makes transwoman look likes toys for men to use or makes them look like a subspecies. Even worse, I found people equating trans womanhood with being a sissy. Eww. Gross. I don’t want any part of cesspool thinking. And it’s sad to see that there is almost no escaping these men who sexualize everything while calling themselves sissies. If you post a picture of a transwoman, they goon to it. If you post a picture of a cisgender woman, they do the same. I am trying very hard to make my blog a space that is only for transwomen and a space that feels safe. All I can do is keep blocking pretenders. It is so sad for me to look at the blogs of some of the people following me. They must really hate women and especially transwomen. It’s disgusting how they portray us and what they choose to reblog and I’m sorry that I ever contributed to ANY of it.

You can't 'decide' to be a girl. Nobody can 'make' you be a girl. (Hypno is crap, btw). You're either born that way or you're not. It's a matter of the soul but there is also science. Don't be discouraged if you are strangely curious but don't necessarily 'feel like a woman' at this point. If you are truly an egg, that awareness/realization comes like a bolt of lightning (more times than not) when you 'hatch'. But, more info on our main topic:

"Gender incongruence is the state of having a gender identity that does not correspond to one's sex assigned at birth. This is experienced by people who identify as transgender or transsexual and often results in gender dysphoria."

What is the Cause of Gender Incongruence?

"To put it bluntly, we don’t know (at least not firmly). Science and modern psychology have proven that it is not caused by nurture; no one becomes transgender, gender identity is congenital, solidifying before we even exit the womb. It also appears to sometimes be hereditary; transgender parents have a higher likelihood of having transgender children, and many times they realize this in reverse. The child comes out to the parent, and that helps the parent realize they can come out as well."

How long will it take you to wake up?

To show you how backwards and misguided Tumblr is, they made me apply a 'sexual themes' label to a post about gender. They must confuse gender with sexuality. How sad. Being a transgender woman has nothing to do with who you like to sleep with. This is the fucked up world we live in, girls, but we thrive anyway:

"You might not know that the journey of transformation often involves more than the physical aspects; it’s a deep emotional and psychological evolution. As you navigate this path, you’ll encounter unique challenges, from understanding the nuances of hormone therapy to handling the societal pressures and prejudices that unfortunately still persist. These experiences can profoundly shape your perception of identity and belonging. It’s essential to recognize the resilience required to embrace such a transformation, but have you considered how these elements interplay to redefine personal and social understanding of gender? Let’s explore how these experiences contribute to the growth and realization of one’s true self.

Key Insights

Explore gender identity through personal reflection and professional counseling to understand your own transition journey.

Engage in hormone therapy and consider surgeries as part of physical transitioning, under medical guidance.

Build a support network with friends, family, and support groups to navigate emotional and social challenges.

Educate yourself on legal rights and anti-discrimination laws to protect and assert your identity.

Prioritize mental health by accessing specialized resources and practicing regular self-care.

Reflecting on your transformation marks a pivotal anniversary of rebirth, where you celebrate your growth and navigate the complexities of evolving gender expression. This day isn’t just a marker of time; it’s a profound acknowledgment of the journey you’ve commenced on—a journey of aligning your outer self with your inner truth. You’ve faced uncertainties and challenges that have shaped not only your identity but also how you perceive the world around you.

Each year, you might find yourself pondering over the changes, the strides you’ve made, and the hurdles you’ve overcome. It’s a moment to reflect on how past experiences have molded your current perceptions. You’ve likely wrestled with complex feelings, sometimes feeling anchored in your new identity, other times adrift in a sea of old memories and former selves.

Yet, this reflection is vital. It allows you to take stock of your evolution, appreciating the full spectrum of your transformation. It’s not just about recognizing where you’ve been but also envisioning where you’re heading. Through this process, you learn to navigate your transformed life with a deeper understanding and renewed resilience, continually evolving in your journey of self-discovery.

Expressing Gender Identity

As you celebrate your growth, understanding how you express your gender identity becomes increasingly important in aligning your external appearance with your internal sense of self. Each choice, from the clothes you wear to the way you style your hair, isn’t just about aesthetics; it’s a declaration of who you are.

Navigating the complexities of how others perceive you can be challenging. Despite your efforts, misgendering can occur, and it hurts. It’s essential to build resilience and find supportive spaces where your identity is affirmed and celebrated. Communicating your pronouns clearly and setting boundaries with those around you’re critical steps in being recognized as the woman you are.

Over time, you’ll notice that your self-perception begins to shift. Embrace this evolution. The way you see yourself might change as you reconcile your past experiences with your current reality. This journey is uniquely yours. Allow yourself the flexibility to grow and adapt. Each step you take is a part of crafting the person you’re becoming, a reflection of both your identity and your courage.

How have your relationships evolved since embracing your true identity as a woman? You may find that the dynamics in your connections have undergone significant shifts. As a woman, your interactions, especially with cisgender friends, might now entail a different tone and depth. It’s not uncommon to experience a mix of acceptance and awkwardness as those around you adjust to the new you.

You’ve likely observed that women’s spaces, which were once off-limits, are now open for you, yet they come with their own set of unspoken rules and nuances. Understanding and maneuvering through these can be challenging but immensely rewarding. The shared experiences can forge stronger, more empathetic bonds.

On the flip side, your relationships with men might’ve transformed as well. You’re possibly seen differently, altering the nature of your conversations and the mutual understanding you once took for granted. They might struggle with how to relate to you now, which can feel isolating but also offers a chance to build new, more genuine connections based on your true self.

Exploring your new interactions, you’ll also encounter varying societal expectations that shape how others perceive and interact with you as a woman. This can feel like maneuvering through a complex new landscape where every step is scrutinized. You’re not just learning to be yourself; you’re learning to be yourself within the confines of what society expects from women.

Here are a few common expectations you might face:

Appearance and Beauty Standards: You’ll notice a heightened attention to your physical appearance. Society often expects women to maintain a certain level of grooming and style, which can be both empowering and exhausting.

Behavior and Demeanor: There’s an often unspoken rule about how women should behave. You might find yourself expected to be more polite, agreeable, or nurturing than before. It’s important to find a balance that feels true to who you are.

Professional and Social Roles: In work and social settings, you may face assumptions about your interests and capabilities simply because you’re a woman. It’s important to assert your individual strengths and challenge these stereotypes.

Maneuvering through these expectations is a journey of balancing societal norms with your authentic self. You’re not alone in this journey, and it’s okay to seek support and community as you redefine what being a woman means to you."