Very wney-licious

It’s nights like these I really wish you weren’t so far away

I can’t wait to go on so many adventures with you. I can’t wait for the drives on our way to new places when we we listen to good music and fit kisses in during every red light. The morning drives when our eyes are sleepy and we need caffeine and the sunrise makes us feel fresh and new. The late night drives where the darkness envelopes us and the cities light up our dashboard and our eyes and we feel like the night is infinite. I can’t wait to go to shitty bars and sit in a corner together until we’re drunk enough to dance and then sneak off to have sex against the bathroom stall wall. And I can’t wait for staying out until sunrise, grabbing food at Waffle House and celebrating the beginning of another day together. I can’t wait to find new places to eat with you and to never stop discovering stuff. To find places we love so much that we become regulars there. I can’t wait to explore our own hometown. I can’t wait for lazy days when we want to go see a new movie and cuddle in the back of a theater. I can’t wait to travel to new places with you. Wandering around like tourists and ducking into little coffee shops when it gets cold or going for walks when the weather is nice. I can’t wait to go to new cities, states, countries with you by my side.

Getting to know you was the most wonderful adventure… It was like suddenly discovering the love of my life and my best friend all in one. There were moments when I was almost afraid that this couldn’t be real…. That YOU couldn’t be real… Everything about you was just too perfect and we were so compatible it just didn’t seem possible. But I surrendered to the feeling… let it take me where I knew I was fated to go and I’m so glad that I did because it allowed me to get to know you and in getting to know you I was getting to know myself …. because YOU are other half of me. It was discovering new things about myself I never knew and remembering things about myself I thought I’d lost like my childlike joy and ability to laugh loudly and love deeply. Finding you brought a magic and a joy into my life unlike anything I have ever known…. and there is not a day that goes by I am not grateful that on a planet of over 7 billion people, I was lucky enough to find you.

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. As time slowly drifts by, I think about you less and less but still from time to time. I wonder if you’re happy or if I ever cross your mind. I wonder if you have ever picked up your phone and attempted to call me during your bursts of emotions or nights if loneliness. Or whether or not you still fall asleep with your arms stretched out, waiting for me to lay on them. I wonder if you look at old photos and hear my laugh. Or hold new hands and think of my fingers running through your palm. I know I still do.

I hate how I’ve become so attached to you. I’m not this person. I don’t sit around waiting for a text or a response. I don’t stare at my phone every 5 minutes just to see if you have messaged me or whether or not you’re active on social media. I don’t look at old pictures and try to relive old memories in my head. I don’t get sad if we don’t talk for a day or more. This isn’t me, but lately that’s who I’ve been. I hate this. I hate how I’ve made you so important in my life.

Any tips on how to get to sleep? I have to be up in 4 hours, so I'm kind of desperate..

You are so damn beautiful. Why are you lesbian?