BRAINZAP!!

"Printing this out and framing it" except I actually do this bullshit. I once sent an anonymous ask to someone a few years ago and I printed the response and framed it next to my bed I just do these things

If anyone needs to hear this (I know I do) it's really important to feed yourself even if you feel bad about it. Lately I've been feeling like I don't deserve the food I eat or I should be eating healthier if I want to achieve anything in life. These thoughts are cruel and counterproductive. If I'll feel bad regardless of whether or not I eat I might as well feed my body and help it function properly. Food is a great thing and was never the enemy

Phone calls with a long distance friend are the best thing in the world. There's this random girl on a different continent that is actually my sister

Psychiatrist appointment tomorrow and something tells me I might be going back to psych ward soon enough

Recently my psychiatrist let me stop taking my antipsychotics and more than anything in the world I wanted this to work out but I don't remember when was the last time I left the house or are a vegetable or washed my hair or face. I really hoped it'd be different this time

I thought that being online cancels out the autism awkwardness but no I still feel like an off-putting 11 year old girl

Pica is a ridiculous eating disorder what do you mean I got really nervous and started eating scented candles to cope

I know I'm going through a mental health crisis when I'm considering making a porn blog again

Trying to come up with a new Tumblr esque intro post but it's getting more embarrassing with each attempt. Sorry I have every disorder ever actually. And I identify with every word to describe a sexuality in a way that's confusing to most. And I'm too particular about my gender it makes me annoying. Sorry.