Yaiozara

Upset with how much I’ve gained, my mentality is the worse it’s been for the longest, but I went off my anti-depressants bc I think they’re making me gain. I’m embarrassed that people have seen my body like this, I truly am shocked that my fwb still wants to hookup despite how disgusting I’ve gotten. My mind is telling me horrible things

I have no earthly idea why I get so mad when I see thin people post with food when it’s totally plausible that they just have a healthy relationship with food and aren’t disordered 😕

Bro, I have to start drinking a protein shake or an energy drink or something, I cannot keep almost passing out at work 😕

I'm so pissed, after some failed purging attempts where I know I didn't get everything out, in two days I gained two pounds. Now I have to fast and go to the gym until i lose this weight, I'm so pissed at myself.

I really hate the acne that comes with my period which makes me wonder, if I lose enough weight to lose my period will the acne stop 🤔?

Holy shit, just had a horrible dream where everyone at my school and my family forced an intervention for my ed and it was horrendous. They forced me to eat food like mashed potatoes and gravy and then locked all the bathrooms so I couldn’t purge it😭

Bro I’m so tried of pretending that I’m ok, I keep waking up at 4/5am because I’m so hungry and it’s a struggle to go back to sleep. I have 9am classes, this shit can’t keep happening 😕

Just tried volume eating with sautéed spinach and green peppers, 168g of peppers and 68g of spinach. Literal game changer, I will be eating like this forever

Just woke up crying because, in my dream, my sister ate my planned cheat meal after doing low res for a week for it and I was really looking forward to it and it took forever for the restaurant to make because they forgot my order and she ate it when it finally got there because they thought she was me and I had to leave with nothing 😕wtf man