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What did Toji think when he looked at him-- his son? Megumi saw both a stranger and his father in the opposing man. A man whose eyes they shared, but the details in them were different, and whose hair color was the same. The differences stood out more than their similarities, but for all of his life Toji had been dad. Dad had been dad. Did Toji see his family through Megumi or his wife, or did he see a younger version of himself?
He had never been a child or young adult who held a lot of doubts and definitely never experienced self-esteem issues, but he felt that nervous tickle of anxiety when his father approached him. Was he supposed to be taller, more muscular, stronger, show more expression? Megumi didn't know what he was supposed to be yet it none of it felt like enough in that moment. Perhaps all Toji wanted was that little dotting boy, so no matter how similar or dissimilar they looked, his father would be disappointed.
He was hitting himself with new found feelings of self doubt while waiting for the inevitable PUNCH of his father's reply. Don't ask a weighted question if you can't handle the force. No one could accuse Megumi of tip-toeing around pressing problems. He was too aggressive with his thoughts and words, so Toji, funny enough, was getting the more reserved side of questioning. Megumi wasn't recoiling or throwing something smug in his father's face. He stayed still but he was anything but a statue.
His adam's apple moved in a way that could give away how nervous he was if his eyes didn't already. Green eyes lost the cool edge that cut cut a diamond. Soft and vulnerable like the eyes of an abused and weary dog. Walls built up were hit with a hammer and shattered. When he was TOUCHED, they were hit again where stone and metal melted to reveal his soul. He had not been touched that way for nearing ten years and while he loved his parents, hadn't desired being touched intimately.
Thought and reality were two different things when it came down to action. He had expected so much from Toji's reply, but it was funny the words didn't matter when he was being touched like THAT. The words did matter, of course. Everything his father was saying and doing captured Megumi's heart and nurtured it-- fed something that was starving. He felt LOVE again, and he didn't want to lose it. Never again. Slooowly, Megumi's eyes shut, long lashes kissed his cheeks, and he even leaned into the affectionate touch.
He was scared. Megumi was petrified. Terrified it was a dream or worse even, that his father would disappear out of his life. He thought of his mother, Tsumiki, and what a terrible thing life had become, and he almost cried. Megumi leaned not only into the touch but into his father, enough that his rear lifted off the ground. His hands also moved forward to grip the hem of Toji's shirt and jacket; maybe if he gripped hard enough his father wouldn't disappear. He couldn't speak. Even if the words would form what could he say his body wasn't already saying? And then...
"....dad."
It came out soft and unfiltered, almost like a word spoken through dream.
For a moment, Toji just stared down at Megumi, wondering how the hell someone like him had a hand in creating something so damn perfect. He had learned what love was because of Enaâbut what he felt for Megumi⌠that was something else entirely. Something deeper. Sharper. To love someone so much it ached, to have them become the sole reason he was still breathingâit was terrifying. And still, heâd face whatever came. Even if it meant Megumi seeing him clearly, seeing everything he really was, and deciding to hate him for it. It wouldnât change a damn thing. Toji would never stop loving him.
He felt it before he fully registered itâthat shift in Megumi. Subtle. Fragile. But unmistakable. Megumi leaning into him. And it knocked the air out of his lungs in a way no fight, no injury, no near-death scrape ever had. For a second, Toji didnât move. Didnât breathe right. His bodyâso used to reacting, adjusting, calculatingâjust⌠stalled. Like if he moved too fast, too suddenly, heâd break whatever this was before it had the chance to settle. His hand stayed buried in Megumiâs hair, fingers still at first, then slowlyâcarefullyâthreading through again. Not ruffling this time, not careless, but deliberate. Intentional in the way his fingers sank into those soft, dark strands. His other hand shifted from Megumiâs face to the back of his neck, palm spreading there, firm and steady.
Then Megumiâs hands clenched in his shirt, and that did something to him.
Tojiâs gaze dropped, catching on the way Megumi held onto himâlike he used to. Like nothing in the last ten years had been enough to break that instinct completely. And it hit him all at onceâ
A memory.
Small fingers tugging at his pant leg. Impatient. Stubborn. A quiet little voice refusing to ask outright, just hovering there until Toji gave in anyway. The weight of a much smaller body hauled up into his arms, Megumi settling immediately like that was exactly where he belonged. Like there had never been a question about it. Like Toji had always been something solid. Something safe.
Tojiâs jaw tightened hard enough to ache. Because he hadnât been. He hadnât stayed. And still⌠Megumi was here. Still reaching and still holding on.
Tojiâs grip shifted without him thinking about it. His hand at the back of Megumiâs neck pressed a little more firmly, fingers curling just enough to anchor. His other hand slid deeper into his hair, palm settling against the crown of his head. Closer. He drew him in that last inchâcareful, measured, like he was handling something that might slip through his hands if he wasnât paying attention.Â
His shoulders lowered a fraction, tension easing in a way that felt unfamiliar, almost wrongâbut he didnât fight it. Not this time. His head dipped slightly, breath uneven as it brushed past his lips, his chest tightening around something he couldnât shove down fast enough.
Thenâ
ââŚdad.â
The word landed soft⌠So fucking soft it wrecked him.Â
Toji went completely still. His fingers tightened reflexively in Megumiâs hair and at the back of his neckânot harsh, but immediate. Instinctive. Like he needed to keep him right there, keep that moment from slipping away. His gaze dropped, shoulders tensing againânot in defense, but like he didnât know where to put the weight of that word. Like it didnât sit right on him anymore. Like it belonged to someone elseâsomeone who hadnât left, hadnât failed, hadnât come back too late.
And still⌠Megumi said it.
Toji swallowed hard, his throat working once before he forced a slow breath out through his nose. His grip eased just slightly, thumb shifting against the back of Megumiâs neck in a small, grounding motion. He didnât correct him. Didnât push him away. Didnât tell him he was wrong. Instead, Toji pulled him closer. Just enoughâŚHis forehead dipped, stopping just short of resting against Megumiâs headâlike he couldnât quite cross that last lineâbut everything in his posture leaned toward him. Toward his son.
His hand in Megumiâs hair moved again, slower now, smoothing instead of gripping. Memorizing the shape of him, the feel of himâsolid, alive, here. His gaze flickered over Megumiâs face again, closer now, sharper in the dim lightâbut not searching for damage. Seeing. Taking in the lines of him, the strength in his features, the quiet resilience sitting under everything else. The way he still softened when touched, even after the world had clearly tried to grind that out of him. It didnât make sense. It shouldnât have survived. And yet there it was. Perfect. Not untouched. Not unscarred. But perfect in a way Toji didnât have words for. Because Megumi had endured. Because he was still capable of thisâof reaching, of holding on.
Tojiâs thumb brushed once along the base of his neck, slower this time, subtly pulling Megumi just a fraction closer into him, like he was setting him thereâfixing him in place where he could keep him close. Keep him safe.
Tojiâs jaw tightened again, but he didnât pull away. This time, he didnât stop himself. His arms came around Megumi fully, solid and unyielding as he pulled him inâreal, undeniable. His head dipped, pressing his lips firmly against the top of Megumiâs head, lingering there longer than he shouldâve, longer than heâd ever allowed himself before.
âI got you, Gumi,â he murmured, voice low, rough, but steady in a way that mattered. âI got youâŚâ
Ten years passed, but it didnât erase the love he felt for his father⌠or the memory he felt for his father. Did he still love the man? He wanted to love his father, but the man standing in front of him was a stranger now. It was a tough pill to swallow. One of many in this new world. His memory of his father was skewed. His perception was skewed. He had seen his father through the eyes of a child and back then his father did no wrong. What was the truth? What was reality? Had his father always been so cold or had time turned him closed off like it had with Megumi.
He still couldnât shake the image of his father being bound away from his head. How he had chased him down. WHAT he had said, almost in a mocking and antagonizing voice. The three versions of his father were hitting him at the same time. The man he knew who picked him up whenever Megumi was needy, the man who had joked about being held prisoner, and the man who was more closed off than a clamâs shell. It was frustrating and it HURT.
Toji had always picked him up, tied his shoe laces even when unnecessary, looked at Megumiâs crayon drawings with interest like they were actually good; Megumi wanted that FATHER. Probably Toji wanted that boy who pawed at his leg to be held in those arms. With his mind going too fast and way too slow at the same time, he came to the realization that maybe he had been the one to act cold and distant first. The little boy would have ran towards his father. Adult Megumi ran away. Even while thinking this, hearing his father FUMBLE at his words and trying to grasp emotions like they were noxious gases made him sick.
As fucked up as Megumi was, he couldnât fathom how a man who once had a wife and a sonâ who had looked happy (was that a lie?) could fumble with the last piece of family he had left alive. More than anything Megumi wanted to hear the word LOVE come out of his mouth and he wanted those big arms squeezing him to the point it was difficult to breathe. He wanted vulnerability and affection in a world that had become so damn cruel, and he had become cruel with it too out of necessity.
The little Megumi in him CRIED. He moved his head from its shy position to watch and study his father. A crease in his forehead grew deeper and deeper the more convoluted their conversation continued, or more accurately listening to Tojiâs ramblings. It was funny that he seemed much larger and imposing of a figure than when he was a child. It shouldâve been the opposite considering the size difference, but in his memory his father had been smaller, softer, and more accessible. It was the accessibility and kindness which shaped his perspective.
Now he saw a man twice the size he remembered with muscles of barbed wire. He was ready to lay some cards on the table, finally, and of those holding none would hold any kindness. Then his father hit him with his nickname. Gumi. It sounded so tender and familial. It took him back to days of happiness, and his stomach tightened uncomfortably. He frowned but no more than usual and not like the little frowns he would wear dramatically as a child.
Even if he wasnât angry or sadâ he didnât know WHAT to do. Awkwardly his arms fell to his side and his knees came down just a little. What did he expect, a twirl and a show? Even in the dim light the head lamp provided he doubted he would get much of a good look, but Megumi looked at his father straight on regardless.Â
"Did you look for me out of guilt and obligation or because you wanted to, out of love....?"
The question slipped out from his mouth so readily it felt like drool suddenly dripping out. He was surprised too, but luckily it didn't show in his face. He did feel his face get a shade redder though it would be nearly impossible to decipher in the darkness.
It didnât take much. Toji had always been good at reading peopleâbetter than most. It had kept him alive. Taught him where to look, what to notice, what wasnât being said. And Megumi⌠even after everything, even after ten years of distance and whatever the hell the world had done to him in the meantimeâhe was still readable in the way that Toji knew his son to be. Not easy. Not the way he used to be. But familiar enough.
Toji could see it in the way Megumi held himself, in the tightness of his shoulders, in the way his gaze lingered just a second too long before pulling away. He could see the thoughts turning over behind his eyes, sharp and restless. Weighing. Comparing. Trying to make sense of something that didnât fit. Toji didnât need him to say it out loud to know what it was. Megumi was looking at him⌠and seeing him for what he actually was. Not the version heâd built as a kid. Not the one softened by memory and time and the quiet kind of love children give without question. Noâthis was reality. The ugly, brutal truth of it. A man built for violence. A man who disappeared. A man who failed. Not a hero. Never was. Toji let that sitâŚ
He didnât try to correct it or try to dress it up into something easier to swallow. If anything, he leaned into itâlet it exist between them like it belonged there. Because it did. Megumi deserved the truth. Even if that truth meant hating him⌠His jaw tightened faintly, gaze shifting just slightly as if he were checking the room againâbut it was a lie, a reflex to buy himself a second longer with the weight settling in his chest. If Megumi decided he didnât like him⌠That was fine. Expected, even.
Toji was used to that. Used to being something people recoiled from, something they looked at and decided wasnât worth keeping around. He knew how to exist in that space. It was easier than the alternative. Easier than this. But even if Megumi hated him⌠Even if he couldnât stand the sight of him⌠That didnât change anything.
Tojiâs fingers curled slowly at his side, tension building and settling all at once into something solid. Something unmovable. Megumi could feel however the hell he wanted. It wouldnât change the fact that Toji loved him with every fiber of his being⌠and he wasnât letting him go again.
Not this time. Not ever. Ten years too late didnât mean he got to walk away now. Heâd already made that mistake once. He wasnât making it twice. The thought sat heavy in his chest, sharp at the edges. There was no undoing what had already happened. No rewinding it back to something softer, something easier⌠something that looked like the life Megumi shouldâve had. Toji felt it then. That pull. That instinct buried deep in his bones, the one that wanted to close the distance, drag Megumi into his arms, hold him like nothing had changed, and tell him it was fine now. That he was safe. That Toji was here. That heâd kept his promise.
His jaw clenched hard enough to ache. Because that wouldâve been a lie. He hadnât kept it. Heâd been ten years too late, and that was something that wasnât ever going to wash off. It stuck to him. Sat under his skin. Followed him into every quiet moment, every breath that came a little too slow. He had no right. No right to reach for something that had already slipped through his fingers once. No right to expect Megumi to meet him halfway. And stillâ
When Megumi finally looked at him⌠Really looked at him⌠Toji faltered. It was small. Barely there. But it hit harder than anything else had. Because it wasnât hate. It wasnât rejection. It wasnât even cold. There was something else still thereâsomething softer, buried deep under everything Megumi had been forced to become. Something that shouldnât have survived all of this. And it cracked something in Tojiâs chest wide open.
His breath caughtâjust for a second, just enough that it didnât come out clean when he exhaled. His shoulders tensed, like his body didnât know what to do with that kind of weight pressing in from the inside. He almost stepped back⌠Almost.
Instead, his hand moved. No hesitation this time. It came up slower than it should have, like he was fighting himself every inch of the way, like something in him kept trying to pull it backâbut he didnât let it. His fingers brushed into Megumiâs hair. Gentle. Careful in a way that didnât match anything else about him. The texture of itâreal, solidâgrounded him in a way nothing else had since he walked into that room.
His hand lingered there for a second too long before it moved again, trailing down, rough calloused fingers catching slightly before settling under Megumiâs chin. He tilted it up, not forcefully but just enough, like he needed to see him properly. Like he needed to know.
His eyes traced over Megumiâs face almost as if making sure he truly had no injuries but really he was just admiring how painfully gorgeous Megumi wasâŚMemorizingâŚ
There was a tightness in his chest that made his next breath come in uneven, shallow. He held it there for a second before letting it out slowly, as if he rushed it, something would break. Then Megumi spoke. And everything in him went still again.
âGumiâŚâ
The name came out lowârougher than he intended, something almost strained sitting underneath it. Not quite a warning. Not quite anything he could control. His body moved before his thoughts caught up this time. He dropped down into a crouch in front of him, closing the distance fully nowâno space left to hide behind, no distance to soften the edges of what this was. His hand didnât leave Megumi. If anything, it settled more firmlyâsliding from his chin to cup his face properly, thumb brushing against his cheek in a slow, grounding motion.
âYouâre the only reason Iâm still here, kid. The only reason Iâm still alive.â
His voice came out low, but there was something under itâsomething tight, something barely held together.
âOnly reason.â
His thumb dragged once across Megumiâs cheek, slower this time, like he was making sure the words landed. Like he needed him to understandânot just hear it, but get it.
âDo you understand?â
The question wasnât really a question. It was a need. Something raw pushing through the cracks. Tojiâs grip didnât tightenâbut it didnât loosen either.
âIâm sorry I didnât come sooner,â he added, quieter now.
And that was the closest thing to breaking heâd allowed himself. His jaw clenched right after, like he regretted letting it slip out that softly.
âBut Iâm not losing you again.â
There was no hesitation in that. No room for argument. His hand shifted, sliding up into Megumiâs hair again, rougher this time as he ruffled itâsomething familiar, something that almost looked like it belonged to another life. His fingers were still there. Lingering even after the motion ended.
âEven if you don't want me around... Even if I have to chase you down myself.â
A faint huff of breath left himâalmost humor, but it didnât quite make it. Didnât quite reach. His hand stayed where it was. Didnât pull away. Wouldnât. Not ever again.
It was odd to feel anything but torment and soul-gnawing sadness, but Megumi was glad. That gladness was, of course, wearing the cloak of his melancholy because he was glad the cover of night masked the emotion creeping onto his face. It felt like the heat of a sunburn. Unwanted and painful. Completely transforming his face despite his strong will. He asked the question, so what did he expect? Frankly, he expected the awkward coldness between strangers to remain far beyond questioning until the two eventually parted ways.
There was toeing the line questioning, and there was the bomb he threw at his father. The only thing worse than that would have been asking if the man still loved him. Toji's response might as well been i love you because Megumi's heart squeezed so painfully tight that it immediately showed in his face. His forehead wrinkled and he sucked his bottom lip into his mouth as a profound sadness washed over him. Whatever blurred edges the images of his memory had were sharpened with the uptick of emotion.
From that day, Megumi could remember the taste of blood in his mouth from how much he sucked on his cheek while trying not to cry. He remembered hearing other children cry in the transport truck, some wailing, others sniffling. Tsumiki had moved from the back to join his side, and her hand had been covered in little cuts and dirt when it grabbed his for support. He didn't know who needed it more at that point.
He remembered how heavy Toji's hand had been on his head, patting it one last time, right before the doors were shut for the truck to drive away towards supposed safety. Megumi had craned his head over the side of the truck to watch as his father's figure grow more and more distant. A rock upturned from the tires moved past the canvas panel of the truck's siding and hit Megumi right below the eye. Eye twitched as a large tear welled on its edge... but that was in the present.
Megumi's hand jerked up to knuckle the rise of moisture, and though any burst of tears was subdued, his emotions still made his throat itchy with pressure. He had cried many times since being separated from his father. Perhaps below the average for a child going through trauma, but he had never been one to cry not even as a baby. He had whined for his parentsâ affection, primarily that of his father, but was never much one to cry. He cried one week after parting with his father when he saw how grave things were, and the gut-twisting feeling of never seeing his dad again hit.
His cries were painful but silent. The dam broke when Tsumiki was murdered in front of him. It had been years since he last cried. Sadness was shoved away or was transformed into something elseâ intense focus or rage. He didnât want the dam to break AGAIN. He tilted his head back, the light of his headlamp disappeared into the night, and he released a tremulous breath. It would be loud enough for Toji to hear, and that was fine. He WANTED to say something too but couldnât risk it. He walked past that protective barrier Toji put up and walked into the shambles of the building.
It was a small place though Megumi couldnât make sense of what it had been previously. Two rooms were blown open and exposed where only rubble and garbage remained. The intact structure had a small room that might have been a storage or supply room, and a room adjacent that had its walls and door in tact. The metal door was dented and looked burned but it opened easily, and it was opened only with Megumiâs hand hovering on the grip of his knife. He jerked his head to flash the light everywhere.
No humans or the sick were inside but a rat skittered through some litter to escape out of a small hole. There wasnât much other than garbage, two broken chairs, and a broken vending machine filled with coils and glass. He removed the headlamp from around his head but kept it on; he used it like a flashlight while he walked to the back of the room, kicked away some garbage, and sat down with his knees to his chest. He tilted the headlamp to hit the ceiling, spreading light around in a small area.
"...It's okay.... I leaned A LOT."
He didnât know if he actually meant it but he didnât want his father living with that guilt. Would life have been better by his fatherâs side? At least Megumi had been there for Tsumikiâs last years and last moment. He hugged his legs closer to his chest and hid the majority of his face behind his knees.
Toji had never felt like he knew what he was doing when it came to being a father. Megumi had been an easy baby, too easy, and for a while, Toji had let himself believe heâd gotten off light. Now⌠even with Megumi grown, the truth sat heavier than ever. He still had to be a father. And he had no fucking idea how⌠Heâd spent years chasing ghosts, tearing through shadows just to find him. And now that he had⌠it was all there at once, crowding his chest in a way he didnât know how to deal with. Toji was used to burying thingsâemotions, thoughts, intent. Used to slipping through the cracks, to being unseen, unwanted. Feared. Hated. He wasnât used to being loved.
His eyes widenedâjust barely, just for a secondâwhen he caught it. That look on Megumiâs face. For a moment, Megumi wasnât grown⌠He was a kid again. Face scrunched tight, fighting itâlike he always used to when he didnât want to cry. Megumi never liked crying. Back then, Toji would tell him it was fine, that he could if he needed to. There were times Toji had wished he would. Anything but turning out like him. âŚThough that fear felt stupid now. Obvious, even. Megumi was nothing like him. And thank God for that.
Toji stepped forward before he could think about it, instinct, pure and simple. The movement stalled halfway, his body catching up with his head a second too late. He stopped. Whatever Megumi had gone through all these years⌠Toji didnât know. Didnât know how bad it had been. Didnât know what it had cost him. And he hadnât been there. Hadnât been there to shield him. To take the hit instead. His hand curled tight at his side, fingers digging into his palm. Tojiâs childhood had been hell. Heâd sworn⌠without ever saying it out loud⌠that Megumiâs wouldnât be. And heâd still failed.
He lingered just outside the threshold, posture loose but deliberate, eyes sweeping the perimeter out of habit and out of necessity. But also because it gave him a second longer to steady the thing in his chest that hadnât settled since the words left his mouth. The quiet inside felt different from the open darkâŚ
Toji exhaled slowly, then stepped in. His boots were quiet against the concrete as his gaze adjusted to the dim light spilling up from Megumiâs shadows. He didnât move in right away⌠kept his distance, enough not to crowd him, but he didnât stay by the door either. He circled instead. Slow. Methodical. Checking angles, exits, weak points in the walls, and the door, automatic, ingrained. Something to do with his hands, his eyes⌠so he didnât have to deal with everything else clawing under his skin.
He stopped a few steps off to the side of where Megumi sat. Arms crossed loosely. Head tilted just slightly. His gaze flicked over him againâtaking it in. The way he folded in on himself. The tension that hadnât eased. The way he hid his face like he didnât want to be seen like that.
ââŚYeah.â
The word came out low, rough. His kid had learned everything Toji had never wanted him to. Silence stretched between them. Toji shifted his weight once, jaw tightening faintly before he pushed off the wall he hadnât realized heâd leaned against. His hand dragged down his face, fingers catching at his jaw like he could pull the right words out of himself⌠and coming up short. He stepped closer. Not enough to crowd him. Just enough that the space between them didnât feel like a gap anymore.
âThatâs not how that works.â
His voice wasnât sharp. Just firm. Grounded. The kind that didnât leave room to brush it off. His gaze dropped for a second, then lifted again, settling on Megumi.
âYou were a kid,â he said, rougher now. The words didnât come easy⌠but he didnât stop them. âDoesnât matter what you did. Doesnât change anything.â
 Another pause. Heavier this time. His hand lifted, almost without thinkingâlike he was going to reach out⌠It stopped halfway. Fingers flexed. Then dropped back to his side. Small movement. But it lingered. Unfinished.
ââŚI said Iâd find you.â
His voice dipped lower, steadier in a different way nowâŚThere was an edge to it. Failure, sharp and buried deep.
âI donât miss.âÂ
He muttered, something bitter threading through it. A ghost of what he used to be. What the world still expected him to be. His jaw tightened, and he let out a low exhale.
ââŚExcept that.â
He dragged a hand back through his hair, gaze breaking for a second before returningâless sharp now. Stripped down to something quieter. Something⌠human.
ââŚYou donât have to make that easier. Not for me.â
Silence stretched again. Heavy guilt that he doesnât think will ever go away. Very much earned, though... Toji let his eyes flick around the room once more, a habit and reflex, before stepping closer. This time, he stopped within reach. He didnât crouch. Didnât lower himself all the way. But he leanedâjust slightlyâbracing a hand against the wall near Megumi. Not touching. Not forcing.
Just there. Present⌠When he spoke again, his voice softened in a way no one else ever got to hear.
âNow let me get a good look at you, GumiâŚâ
Didn't say you didn't or couldn't-- the words may have come through edgeless, but there was a charged energy that Megumi and Megumi alone perceived, apparently. He may have been reading heavily between the lines with some extro- and introspection, so he was both hurt and offended nonetheless. It had seemed like his father meant offense to his remark, but the toneless nature of his words felt arctic. Facts read off a page which lacked the love and concern of a father. So what. Megumi had run away, primarily from danger, but the memory of his father with his sudden appearance added energy to his dispersal.
If Toji had laid out even a little bit of care, then Megumi might have folded in his arms like he had many times as a little boy who dotted on his father. Ten years later, the two were men. Just men. Strangers. It made sense. After so long apart, the memory of his father began blurring at the edges with some memories disappearing altogether. He loved the father who had held him, smiled, tended to his wounds with gentle hands despite those hands being brutish. If Toji was no longer his father, then Megumi was no longer his son, and the love... was gone, wasn't it? Megumi grabbed the straps of his backpack unnecessarily and used more force than necessary in addition.
"No, I'm not hurt. All I did was talk."
Toji wouldn't understand it, and Megumi wasn't inclined to go into detail unless he was specifically asked. All he literally did was talk in the conflict and used blood-thirsty morons to do all the dirty work while he acted as a shadow. He didn't talk for a while after that, and for all his talk of surviving hadn't noticed that Toji wasn't following him. With so much time surviving on his own, he was used to sound of his own footsteps.
When footsteps finally came from behind him, he hesitated for a second, then pressed on. He wasn't alone anymore. For now. He didn't like walking in washes, but he had once. Cool rocks and interesting animal skulls always washed down into washes, but now they were littered with cumbersome rocks and the bones of the dead, not to mention garbage of every kind.
He walked it carefully until they were far enough from the camp that there was no more shouts of gun fire. He then climbed out and walked where it was easiest, guided by the moon light until he fished out a headlamp from his pocket for ease of navigation. With the conflict nearby, he doubted they would venture away from the camp, but Megumi wanted to place enough space between them and him just in case. Again? He let that one slide.
"I won't unless you give me a reason to."
He gave Toji the benefit of the doubt just like with any other stranger. Okay, that wasn't the truth, he definitely did trust... his father more than the average survivor. However if he turned out to be a psychopath or an abuser, he would drop him just as quick as any regular person. Megumi was tired from the day, but his feet kept moving forward while his mind was buzzing with thoughts. It was a miracle he didn't trip on anything as he moved with muscle memory. He slowly came to a stop and looked around frowning. He avoided looking at his father because what was the point? It was dark. It made no sense.
"How long were you looking for me?"
Just like his father's tone, the question was matter of fact. Void of any tone or emotions. He continued to stand there and flashed his light at the side of a building that looked like it had been partially blown up for some reason. It may have been a decent place to lay low for the night.
Toji kept pace a step behind him, close enough to close the distance if he had to, far enough not to crowd him, his gaze moving the way it always did⌠sweeping the dark, tracking shifts in shadows, listening past the obvious sounds for the ones that mattered. But it didnât matter how sharp his awareness was, how many angles he covered, how clean his breathing stayedâhis focus kept pulling back to Megumi in front of him, to the space between them that felt wrong in a way he hadnât prepared for.
Heâd expected distance. Cold, maybe. Suspicion. Even a knife to the throat. He hadnât expected thisâŚ
Not the silence that wasnât empty, not the way Megumi spoke like they were just⌠two men walking the same direction for convenience, not the absence of anything that used to be there. Tojiâs jaw tightened faintly as he followed him down into the wash, boots finding steady ground without thought, his body moving on instinct while something else worked slower beneath itâsomething that didnât come as naturally.
Heâd handled this wrong.
The realization came blunt and unwelcome, sitting heavy in his chest. Too flat. Too controlled. Like he was talking to a contact, not his kid. Not that Megumi was a kid anymoreâthat part was obvious in every step he tookâbut still. Megumi was HIS kid. His blessing, even now after all this time, he realizes, finding him again felt like a whole new blessing. Looking at him, even if heâs grown so much, still gave him those feelings he had only ever felt with Megumi around. Toji exhaled quietly through his nose, gaze dropping briefly to the bones scattered along the wash before lifting again, settling on Megumiâs back.
Tojiâs eyes narrowed just slightly at Megumi, saying he wasnât hurt, not doubting him, but filing it away. Talk⌠not pushing for details. He could ask later. Or not at all.
They moved in silence after that, the distance from the camp stretching out behind them until the noise finally died for good, swallowed by the open dark. Toji tracked the shift in Megumiâs movement when he realized he wasnât immediately behind him earlier, the slight hesitation, the adjustmentâsmall things, but they didnât go unnoticed. Nothing about him did.
When Megumi climbed out of the wash, Toji followed without breaking stride, pulling himself up and over with the same quiet efficiency, boots hitting the ground without much of a sound as he straightened. His eyes adjusted easily to the moonlight, but he didnât comment when the headlamp clicked on, just let his gaze move past it, checking the structure ahead, the angles, the possible entries and exits.
âI wonât unless you give me a reason to.â
Toji huffed quietly under his breath at that, something dry in the sound, but it didnât carry much bite. His head tilted just slightly, gaze cutting toward him for a second before returning forward.
ââŚFair enough,â he said, voice low, accepting it for what it was. It was more than what he deserved. Even if it felt offâŚ
They slowed near the broken building, Megumi stopping first, light sweeping across cracked concrete and blown-out walls. Toji didnât stop immediately. He took two more steps, then turned slightly, putting himself at an angle where he could watch both Megumi and the surrounding darkness without making it obvious.
Thenâ
âHow long were you looking for me?â
Toji went still⌠Not visibly. Not in a way anyone else would catch. But something in him locked for half a second before settling again. His gaze shifted, not to Megumi right away, but to the building, to the edges of it, like he was assessing itâbuying himself time in the only way he knew how. The easy answer wouldâve been short. Dismissive.
A few years.
On and off.
Enough.
Heâd given answers like that his whole life.
This time, it stuck in his throat.
Tojiâs jaw flexed once, subtle but there, his hand lifting briefly to drag across the back of his neck before dropping again, fingers curling loosely at his side. When he finally looked at Megumi, it wasnât sharp or assessingâit lingered, just for a second too long.
âSince that day.âÂ
He said, voice lower than before, rougher around the edges in a way that didnât quite smooth out, but it was the truth. His gaze shifted away again almost immediately, like holding it there any longer wasnât something he knew how to do, settling instead somewhere off to the side, watching nothing in particular.
âDidnât stopâŚâÂ
He added after a beat, quieter this time, like it had been dragged out of him instead of offered. The words sat awkwardly between them, unfamiliar in his mouth, but he didnât take them back. A pause stretched, heavier now. Toji exhaled slowly, shoulders rolling once like he was shaking something off, but it didnât quite work.
âMegumi⌠I shouldâve found you sooner.â
That one came out with more hesitation and almost as if it struggled. His brow knit faintly, more irritation than anything elseâbut not directed at Megumi, never at him.
At himself. Always at himself.
ââŚThatâs on me.â
It wasnât a long apology. It wasnât clean, practiced, or even complete. But it was real...
Toji shifted his weight slightly after, grounding himself back into something more familiar, his attention snapping outward again, scanning the building, the dark, the quiet that never really meant safe. But he didnât move away, didnât create distance, staying right there within reach, like letting that space open up again wasnât something he wanted to risk
Not after ten years. Still feeling almost surreal that he'd finally found his sole reason for still existing...

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A mouse and a bear. No, Megumi preferred to view himself as a fox, as a wolf, stalking silently but quickly. He heard the rush of steps following behind him, and a moment of fear strangled his heart. It could have been one of the militia men, it could have been someone sick with the rot, but Megumi knew it was... his father. Hunting him down. For some reason he thought it would be less frightening to deal with anything other than his dad. He could fight off and kill whoever was chasing him, except he couldn't do that to the man who had been his entire world until he had not been.
Ten long years. It hurt to think about even as he ran until he couldn't run anymore. Megumi hissed but not with pain, instead with displeasure and almost annoyance. He want to drive his palm into the man's nose out of pure instinct, maybe out of late blooming teenage rebellion, but all-in-all it was reflex. Megumi was a person of great control, so his body stopped in its tracks where his shoes made holes in the dirt from the momentum. If he could do it all over again, would he untie his father? Of course.
It would have been cruel not to free him (though cruel held a different definition in the modern world), and it was his father. He loved his father. He could not, however, raise his head to meet his father's face. Time was a terrible thing. Shock kept him silent and still. After ten years to just happen across his father who looked more beaten than a choir boy's knees.
Megumi-- tone carried both a foreignness and intimacy which made his heart ache ten fold. For so long he dreamed of being reunited with his father. For so long he eventually let the hope die as ALL things died horribly and bitterly. Megumi didn't think he had the emotional capacity to accept what was happening, but if his father hugged him and said how much he loved him, then Megumi could.... He could.... Toji did not do or say such a thing. That hurt more. His eyes narrowed and eyes finally snapped to the matching pair of emerald.
â I've survived this long by myself. "
The coolness and pallor of face dissolved with a quick lit fire, and even though the moment demanded that Megumi snap himself free from his father's grasp, he slowly swiveled his shoulders as a sign to get off. He knew when to fight and when to run, and he knew between a raid of supplies and some guy, no one would run after him. His father knew a nine year old boy who loved drawing forest scenes, missed his mom, and hugged his toys hoping they'd turn into real animals one day. Toji didn't know the survivor and killer that the nineteen year old had become. Megumi inhaled deeply but silently, and some of the tension in his body language disappeared. Some.
â Why were you there? And captive? "
He shifted the attention to his father in what was a genuine question to pose, and not just a distraction. Why was he there? Where had he been? Was he still working for the government? Why and what everything. Megumi didn't like standing in one spot though, so he took the initiative and began turning away.
â ...Come on. "
The way Megumi stilled didnât seem to be hesitationâŚÂ more like control. The kind that came from someone forcing instinct down instead of acting on it, from someone who had learned the hard way that moving at the wrong time got you killed. It was there in the way his weight settled, in the tension held tight beneath the surface without spilling over, in the silence that followed instead of another attempt to break free. Toji recognized it immediately, something familiar and uncomfortable settling in his chest as he watched him turn, watched him choose to move forward instead of away this time
âIâve survived this long by myself.â
Tojiâs eyes flicked to him at that, sharp and quick, catching the line of his profile in the dim light before returning forward. There was no immediate answer, just a beat of silence where something shifted behind his gaze, something heavier than irritation but just as sharp, before it flattened back into something controlled.Â
ââŚDidnât say you didnât or couldnât,â he replied at last, voice low and even, not dismissive, not patronizingâjust a fact, stripped clean of anything else.
 And it was true. He could see it. Every step Megumi took, every decision in his path, every ounce of tension held instead of wastedâit all spoke for itself. Survived wasnât the right word anymore. Adapted was. Tojiâs jaw tightened faintly at that, not in disapproval, but in the quiet acknowledgment of what it had taken to get there, of what the world had forced him to become without him.
Silence stretched between them again, not empty, but full of things neither of them was saying, and in that space something else surfacedâsharp, uninvited, and far too clear.Â
Megumi, at six, crouched low in the dirt with a stick clutched in his hand, brow furrowed in concentration as he scratched uneven lines into the ground with a seriousness that had always felt older than him. Toji had been leaning against the doorway, watching longer than heâd admit before finally speaking. âWhatâs that?â Toji asked The kid hadnât looked up right away. âA wolf.â Toji had stepped closer, glancing down at the rough shape and snorting lightly. âLooks like a dog.â âItâs not.â Firm. Certain. âItâs watching.â Megumi had immediately frowned, shaking his head. âWatching what?â Toji had huffed, folding his arms.  Thereâd been a pause then, longer than expected, before Megumi finally glanced up at him. ââŚEverything.âÂ
The memory faded as quickly as it came, but the echo of it lingered as Tojiâs gaze sharpened slightly on the figure ahead of him now. Yeah. Still watching. Still thinking. StillâŚHis eyes dropped briefly then, catching the blood on Megumiâs clothes⌠fresh in places, not all of it his, and the shift was subtle but immediate, something tightening low and quiet in his chest before he spoke again.Â
ââŚYou hurt?âÂ
The question came more directly this time, voice lower, stripped of anything but intent. No pressure, no demand, just there, offered⌠They walked a few more steps before Toji spoke again to answer Megumiâs question, quieter now.
âI was looking for you.âÂ
No explanation followed, no elaboration, just that simple truth laid between them, rough and unpolished, carrying more weight than he let it show. His jaw tightened faintly after, gaze fixed forward, but his attention didnât leave Megumi for even a second.
âSo donât run off again,â he added after a beat, voice low, not quite a command, not quite anything softer either. âAt least give me a reason first.â
The words settled between them, heavy but not suffocating, and Toji didnât push past them, didnât try to fill the silence that followed. He simply stayed where he was, close enough to close the distance if he had to, steady enough that the space between them didnât feel like it was about to snap again... and when Megumi finally spoke, quiet and shortâ
â...Come on.â
For a brief moment, Toji didnât follow... not because he wouldnât, but because the shift threw him in a way he hadnât expected. The kid who used to wait, who used to stay exactly where he was told, who used to look back to make sure Toji was still thereâwas now standing on his own, making his own decisions, not looking back at all. It wasnât like he didnât expect Megumi to grow up and change, but more like he hadnât thought about what it would be like when or if he finally found him⌠Toji exhaled slowly through his nose, something tight and unspoken in his chest, before stepping forward and falling into stride behind him without another word, his movements quiet and controlled, slipping easily into that familiar rhythm as his gaze swept the terrain, the shadows, the edges of movement that didnât belong. Even now, even here, he didnât relax⌠not with Megumi within reach, a fact that shouldnât have felt fragile, and yet it did.
"Look at him. Fucking cry babies." Bruised yellow, green, purple, and blue. All the colors of the rainbow on him, including red. All of that red. He was bruised inside and out. An ache that wasn't physical but mentally... emotionally. The salt in the wound for all of that were jeering noises from things worse than cockroaches, hyennas, or blood sucking mosquitos.
"Hey, kid." The muzzle of an AR-15 was death's claw, probing at a swollen jaw, willing it upward. Dry lips were peeled over tobacco stained teeth to match the cackles.
"Never trust anyone. Don't you know?" He had known, but he had also known there were few people he could trust--- his mother, now dead, his childhood friend, now dead, and his father, now.... now---
Megumi heard the rush of loud, heavy footsteps by the time it was too late. He was lithe and had moved like a mouse throughout the base, but this wasn't dealing with an uncoordinated rhinoceros, Megumi was dealing with a tiger. Fast, powerful, and accurate. His adrenaline sky rocketed in a split second, and his heart raced so fast that everything blurred at once. He was about to duck beneath wooden workbenches and get his primary knife out, but massive hands were on him, shoving him around like he was nothing.
Not like he weighed nothing-- like he was nothing. Never trust anyone. He should've shoved the tip of his hunting knife right into his jugular, but his brain was swimming with adrenaline, his heart drowning in panic, and his lungs pumping to force air back into them. He coughed weakly, but fight or flight kicked in, and his hands shot up the grab the prisoner's forearms like... like it would do anything. No good deed unpunished. He wasn't ready to tear the man apart with his teeth, yet there was animosity boiling beneath the curl of his lips. His emerald eyes didn't remain cool or passive; they sought to see the man combust and turn into cinders.
Easy. The rest of the words waned in and out, static among the noise of death and gunfire, all secondary noises to the blood thumping in his ears and his internal monologue yelling at Megumi to KILL. Cocky. Disgusting. Megumi was planning on kneeing him in the crotch, and dropped one hand to get the knife from pouch attached to his hip. Fingers were wrapping around the leather handle when realization hit them both. It was a different kind of realization for them both however.
Megumi. Names were intimate in the new world.
No one alive knew his. No one except... Green eyes and black hair. Recognition hit Toji but not Megumi. The unfortunate son had more years worth of memories of a broken world, of solitude than of his family. There was SO much noise ringing in his ear; it felt like a bomb had gone off beside him. White noise, and static, and rushing blood, and the sound of a brain that would not shut up, shut up, shut up! He would've been dead if it wasn't for him. Then again, he wouldn't have been standing there if it wasn't for him.
His bones rattled, especially his teeth, with the force he was thrown down with and he didn't prepare himself for the fall. The taste of blood was inside his mouth, but the pressure on his back was distant. He still couldn't hear anything, but he saw chunks of dirt explode and dimly lit figures of armed men. He didn't hear the man above him. In fact, Megumi didn't need to hear him. He was 19 years old and knew how to take care of himself. Even though he told himself that, he was still lying on the ground, fingers digging into the dirt, and eyes focused on what was armed men then dead men.
"Your mom wanted you to have this... We were waiting for your birthday, but--" It was the saddest he had ever seen his father. Not devastated like the day Ena died but sad and wistful. The wolf plush was handed to him, and Megumi hugged it close to his chest like it was his mother's soul he was trying to keep on Earth.
When his FATHER's body approached him, Megumi finally felt everything crashing down on him. It was enough to send a normal person into a panic attack. Simply, he was utter shock, and it battled like oil with water with his need for survival. He pushed himself off the ground, placed his weight on the toes of his feet, and rose to a standing position, looking like a man possessed. His expression was neither angry nor neutral; it was like he saw a ghost. All color from his face was gone, and it made the black of his eyebrow, lashes, and green of his eyes all the more bolder.
It wasn't the father-son reunion he had always dreamed of, and a sudden sadness gripped his heart. This was it? Megumi survived ten years without his father-- he didn't need him. Megumi stuck to initial plan and moved like a mouse into the shadows and away from the chaos. Away from his father. Far, far away. He ran in the complete cover of darkness, and having scoped out the place, knew his exit. Where the trucks were parked and out of use due to shortage of diesel, Megumi hopped in the bed of one the trucks.
From inside his backpack he got out a pair of leather gloves and a towel. He ignored his father. The towel was draped over the barbed wire lining the top of the enclosure's fence, and he jumped forward, grabbed the top, and swung himself expertly over the fence to land on both feet. The gunfire was almost dead but voices were growing loud, louder. Megumi ran for the hills where that was a wash he could follow in total darkness towards safety.
Toji didnât miss itâŚThe shift. It was subtle, too subtle for anyone who hadnât spent years reading movement instead of words, but it was there. The way Megumiâs weight shifted onto the balls of his feet. The way his breathing changed, sharp and uneven for a split second before flattening into something controlled. Pre-movement. EscapeâŚ
Tojiâs eyes narrowed.
Donâtâ
Megumi moved fast. Slipping from the ground like a shadow, already turning, already gone before most people would have even realized heâd made the decision. For a heartbeat, Toji didnât follow. Not because he couldnâtâbut because something in his chest hit harder than the bullet graze ever could.
Running.
Away.
From him.
That hesitation cost him half a second. Then Toji surged forward.
âMegumiâ!â
The name tore out of him sharper this time, less uncertain, more command than pleaâbut the kid didnât slow. Didnât even look back. Just vanished into the dark edges of the camp like heâd done it a hundred times before. Of course, he had. Ten years. Ten years alone in a world like this⌠yeah, heâd learned to run. Tojiâs jaw tightened as he pushed after him, boots hitting dirt in controlled, quiet strides despite the chaos still flickering behind them. Gunfire was dying down now, voices rising in its place, men regrouping, shouting orders, trying to make sense of the mess left behind. None of it mattered. His focus locked onto the faintest traces Megumi left behind⌠disturbed dirt, the slight sway of something recently moved, the absence where a body should have been. Ghost. Just like the reports said. But Toji had hunted worse. And he knew his son. That thought hit harder than expected.
A flicker of memory surfacedâuninvited, sharp.
Megumi at six, small hands gripping the hem of Tojiâs shirt while they walked through a crowded street, the kid quiet as always, watching everything with those same too-sharp eyes.
âYou get separated, donât panic. Find high ground or a corner. Somewhere you can see without being seen. Then wait.â Toji tells him.
Megumi had looked up at him. âWait for you?â
Toji had snorted lightly. âYeah. Iâll find you.â
A pause.
ââŚWhat if you canât?â
Toji had stopped then, crouching slightly so he was eye-level with him, gaze steady, unshakable. âI will.â
Back then, Megumi had believed him. Now⌠Now he was running like Toji was just another threat in a world full of them. Toji exhaled sharply through his nose, something hot and ugly tightening in his chest. Not anger, not really. Fear, maybe, or something worse.
He picked up speed. The fence came into view just in time to see Megumi vault itâclean, practiced, efficient. Toji didnât slow. One hand caught the top edge where the towel still hung over the barbed wire, and he cleared it in a single, fluid motion, landing hard on the other side without breaking stride. Toji followed the faint tracks without hesitation, slipping into the uneven terrain with the ease of someone who had spent years navigating worse. The night swallowed them both, but it didnât matter. Megumi was fastâbut he wasnât faster, not yet at least. It didnât take long, a shift in the shadows ahead. A silhouette moving just a fraction too sharply to be part of the landscape. Toji closed the distance in seconds.
This time, when he grabbed him, it wasnât as rough. Still firm and unyielding, but controlled. His hand caught Megumiâs arm, yanking him just enough to stop his momentum and pull Megumi towards him.
âMegumi.âÂ
He tries again, keeping his voice steady. Not shouting, but absolute. His grip didnât hurt, but it didnât allow escape either. For a moment, Toji just looked at him again. Really looked⌠Up close, alive, breathing, real⌠His chest rose slowly as he exhaled, something in his expression tightening before he forced it back down into something more familiarâstoic, controlled, the same unreadable edge he wore like armor.
âIâm not going to hurt you.â A soft sigh escapes him. âYou run like that out here, though, you get yourself killed.âÂ
It wasnât an accusation. It wasnât even a lecture. It was a fact that Megumi, who had survived this long without him, needed no reminding. But his grip shifted slightly⌠less restraining now, more⌠grounding like he wasnât entirely sure if Megumi would bolt again.
ââŚIâm not letting you disappear on me again.â
That one slipped out without meaning to, low and rough...
And for just a second, before he buried it again, there was something there beneath the surface⌠something raw, something that didnât belong to the unshakable soldier everyone else saw. Then it was gone, and Toji stood there, still holding onto him, as if he let go too soon⌠Megumi might vanish all over again.
"Don't worry, Megumi, everything will be alright."
A smile was on her lips. Tears were running down her cheeks. Megumi's pupils were blown out, shaking, completely fixated on what was happening. What he was incapable of stopping.
"Don't look. It'll be ok--"
And there it was-- skull fragments, brain matter, and blood. The smile was completely gone from her face, and all the rivulets of blood covered any signs of terrified tears. She had been scared. Petrified, yet she smiled for his sake like Tsumiki had always done. Her body was a macabre rag doll being held up by gloved fingers gripping her hair. Where was the humanity?! Where was the kindness?! There was only evil. Evil and horror and the disgusting nature of man.
Megumi hadn't cried in years upon years, and maybe he cried then. He couldn't remember. Megumi remembered staring into Tsumiki's dead eyes and screaming until all he saw was red. There WAS red, still-warm blood all over him. They had done it out of the maliciousness of their hearts. That's how life worked. People killed, hurt, built weapons, and destroyed. Megumi didn't even the chance to hug his childhood friend's body. No time or opportunity to even give her a proper burial but what was a proper burial anyhow? Would it bring her back from the dead?
Would it erase the horrifying fear that she felt in the moments before a bullet shot through her head? It wouldn't erase Megumi's. And the more and more corpses he saw stacked up, floating in rivers, half buried, torn into pieces, pilled into graveyards, he knew there was no such thing as closure. His mother, his father, his friend-- What did IT matter? They were dead and Megumi was alive. As jaded as he was, he did feel the sort of necessity to keep on living. To what end?
There was no answer to find, but he kept moving and fighting like the answer was part of a treasure hunt he could uncover. He had no mementos of any part of his life, but through his reflection he saw his mother though the image became more blurry day after day. It was painful. A sharp ache in his heart. More and more Megumi looked like... well, like himself. When he looked up at the stars, he saw Tsumiki's smiling face.
However when he saw any dead girl, no amount of shining stars in a bright night's sky could erase the image of her dead, broken head. Her memory was the sharpest. Telling by the seasons it had been six years since she was murdered. It had been ten years since he last saw his father, and he didn't know if there was a single thing that reminded him of Toji. It was more like the feeling of loneliness that made him recall his father. Try to, for that matter. The last semblance of his blood family gone just like THAT.
Megumi knew his father was trying to protect him, but he would've been better off at his father's side. Maybe then. Maybe then. Maybes had no place in the world where the rot ate people up and even those not infected and turned were vile. Megumi nearly cut his palm open on his hunting knife as he cleaned it, then snapped into razor focus. The funny thing was Megumi was soft at heart, the kind who preferred peace over violence, and the kind to prefer animals over humans.
He had a way with some people. Although it didn't take much to push people to insanity and violence. By no fault or effort on Megumi's part, he ended up in the camp of some seriously fucked up loons. He knew how to keep his cool, and it was his focus which help him manipulate the men who were more like rusty barbed wire than functioning people. They were all erratic and loud while Megumi was the chilling voice of reason.
Their reason --violence. A revolt against a camp of veterans and war criminals, and Megumi assured them they had the upper hand. He laid out the plans and stoked their fires. Surely the former militia had more weapons, food, and they had been the ones responsible for staring the rot.... supposedly. At dark the mad men set siege to the other mad men and Megumi slipped by like a ghost. He only had to kill one person in all the process. He was red just like that day.
This time he didn't scream and he didn't give the man in military fatigues the time to scream. He was a shadow-- picking up a first aid kit, stuffing it into his bag, picking up three food rations, stuffing it in his bag. People screamed and homemade explosives went off. Megumi carried through the camp like he was picking up groceries at a functioning store. The screams were dying down. One side was winning and Megumi needed to be gone in less than five minutes. Then he heard IT-- grunting, chains shuffling, wood being scraped. An animal? A prisoner?
He had less than five minutes ideally. He kicked the door open with his four inch hunting knife in hand, coated in red. There was blood spray on him too. Propane lamps were shaking outside of the holding cell and Megumi had to step aside so that the light could hit the bound man. Stern-faced, he stared. Beaten and bloody but in great shape. If the militia men were holding him captive, what did that mean? He could've been a deserter. Another piece of shit who deserved being killed. Megumi turned to walk away then stopped. No, he walked back to pick up a water filtering kit and shoved it in his bag. Was Megumi turning evil too?
No. Never.
He walked back inside the depressing hut-like cage, removed the wet gag from the man's mouth, and set a spare hunting knife, just a two inch thing, in the man's bound hand. Megumi walked quick. Efficiently. Leaving no time for the man to retaliate if he wanted to. At the door, he did spare him one look. He didn't know why but he did, then Megumi was off back into the shadows, and on his way out of the little bubble of mayhem and death.
Toji had been listening long before the door ever opened. In his experience, captivity was rarely about the ropes or the walls. It was about patience. About understanding the rhythm of the place youâd been dropped intoâthe way guards changed shifts, the way boots sounded different depending on the man wearing them, the way voices rose and fell when people thought no one important was listening.
These men werenât soldiers. That much had been obvious within the first hour... Real soldiers carried tension differently. Even when they were drunk or exhausted, their awareness never truly switched off. These men were loud. Erratic. Half-feral in the way they laughed too hard and argued too quickly. They werenât organized. They were desperate... And desperate men were easier to kill.
For two days, Toji had let them believe he was exactly what they thought he wasâa captured mercenary, useful muscle they hadnât decided what to do with yet. They had beaten him a little, questioned him poorly, and argued over whether to sell him, recruit him, or put a bullet in him.
None of it had concerned him much. What had concerned him were the things he heard when they thought he wasnât listening...Fragments... Arguments about another camp across the riverâex-military types whoâd fortified the hydro plant. Talk about supplies they didnât have. Weapons they wanted. And once⌠just once⌠a quiet rumor he overheard afterward... Black hair... Green eyes....Quiet kid that kept to himself...
Something in Tojiâs chest had tightened then... not hope, exactly. Hope was dangerous. Hope got people killed. But something about the way those idiots talked about that kid⌠It didnât sit right. So Toji waited. And when chaos finally broke loose outside the holding shackâshouting, gunfire cracking through the night, the distant thump of homemade explosivesâhe didnât move.
Not yet.
He simply lifted his head slightly as the noise rolled across the compound, eyes sharp. Probably a raid of sorts. Either way, the camp was collapsing into chaos. Perfect timing.
Boots approached the shack doorâquick, controlled steps, not the stomping swagger of the men whoâd captured him. The door burst open with a violent kick. Lamplight from outside shook as the door slammed against the wall, spilling light into the dim room. Tojiâs gaze lifted. A young man stood there.
Knife in hand, dark with fresh blood. Blood sprayed across his clothes tooâtoo much of it to belong to a simple cut. His posture was wrong for panic. Wrong for someone stumbling into violence for the first time. He stood like someone who had already done what needed to be done and moved on from it. Efficient. Cold. For some reason, it felt familiar, and that made him uncomfortable... Tojiâs eyes narrowed slightly. The young man looked at him. Not afraid. Not curious. Just⌠assessing... For a second, Toji thought he might walk away.
Then the young man stepped back inside the hut, crouched briefly, and shoved something into a bag slung over his shoulder before moving toward him. The gag was yanked free from Tojiâs mouth. The wet cloth hit the dirt, then something small and cold was pressed into his bound hand.
The kid didnât say a word. Just placed the blade there and turned away again, already moving toward the door like this had been nothing more than a minor detour in whatever quiet war he was fighting tonight⌠Toji gripped the knife in his hand. Two seconds. Maybe less, the blade flicked onceâclean, efficient, and the rope parted.
By the time the boy reached the doorway, Toji was already moving. Fast. Too fast for someone whoâd supposedly been tied up and beaten for two days. The distance between them vanished in a blur. His hand caught the back of the kidâs jacket and yanked him hard, momentum twisting them both sideways as Toji slammed him into the closest wall. The impact probably knocked the air from the kidâs lungs⌠Tojiâs forearm pinned across his chest while his other hand locked around the wrist holding the knife, twisting just enough to keep the blade away from either of them.
âEasy.â Toji muttered, voice low and rough from disuse.
The camp burned around them. Gunfire cracked somewhere across the compound. Men screamed. Toji barely heard any of it. His focus was entirely on the kid struggling under his weight.
âYou planning to free every prisoner tonight,â he said flatly, âor just the good-looking ones?"
The boy fought back immediately. Good instincts. Quick. Too quick for someone his age. Toji tightened his hold slightly, pressing him harder against the stone wall behind him as he leaned closer.
âRelax," he muttered. âYou already saved my life. Least you can do is answer a few questions and let me see the pretty faââ
The words stopped. Something felt⌠wrong... Too familiar. The boyâs hair brushed against Tojiâs cheek as he struggledâdark, slightly messy strands catching the flicker of firelight. Black. His eyes flicked downward. Green eyes.Â
For a split second, Tojiâs brain refused to process what it was seeing. It couldnât be. It couldnâtâ But the shape of the face. The sharp line of the jaw that hadnât existed when he was a boy. Definitely the prettiest face Toji has ever seen, that was for sure.Â
The stubborn tension in the kidâs shoulders. And those eyes. God. Those eyes. Green eyes that bore into him, making him feel like he was looking into a mirror, yet looking at someone completely different at the same time. Tojiâs grip faltered. Not enough to release him or let him escape. But enough to make sure he wasn't hurting him.Â
ââŚMegumi?â
The name left his mouth before he could stop it. Quiet. Uncertain. Like something fragile, he hadnât dared to say out loud in yearsâŚFor a moment, the world seemed to tilt. Everything elseâthe gunfire, the screams, the flames licking up the wooden watchtowersâfell away like distant noise. Tojiâs grip loosened some more without him realizing it, just enough for the boy beneath him to shift, just enough for him to see the face properly now that it wasnât half-hidden in shadow.
Older. Sharpened by years that had clearly not been kind. But unmistakable⌠His Megumi...
His chest tightened with a sudden, violent pressure that felt dangerously close to panic, something Toji hadnât felt in longer than he could remember. Ten years of chasing ghosts, of following rumors that dissolved into nothing, of convincing himself he would settle for the smallest proof that the kid had even survived⌠Boots pounded across gravel nearby. ââsomeoneâs over there!â
Tojiâs head snapped toward the sound just as two men rounded the corner of the shack, rifles already half-raised. Their faces were wild with the kind of panic that came from men who had lost control of the fight and were now scrambling for any advantage they could find. One of them spotted them instantly.
âFuck...â
The rifle came up... Toji moved before the trigger finished pulling. He grabbed Megumi by the back of the collar and yanked him down hard, twisting his own body to shield Megumi just as the shot cracked through the night. The bullet tore past them. A second shot followed. This one bit. A hot line of fire ripped across Tojiâs upper arm, the round grazed flesh instead of punching clean through. He barely reacted. Pain registered somewhere distant and unimportant as he shoved Megumi down behind an empty crate.
âStay down.â
The words were quiet but absolute. Then Toji moved. The first man barely had time to react before Toji was on him. The small knife Megumi had given him flashed once in the firelight, the motion so quick it barely registered as a strike. Steel slid cleanly across the manâs throat, and the sound that followed was wet and choking as he collapsed.
The second shooter fired wildly. The shot shattered stone near Tojiâs shoulder. Too slow. Toji closed the distance in two strides, grabbing the rifle barrel and wrenching it sideways before driving his knee hard into the manâs ribs. The bone cracked under the impact. The man folded forward with a strangled cry. Toji didnât hesitate. The knife plunged once. Then again. Efficient. Silent. The body hit the ground beside the first. Just like that, the threat was gone. The camp still burned around them⌠gunfire echoing from farther away now as the fight shifted toward the outer barricades⌠but the immediate danger had passed.
Toji stood there for a second, breathing slow and steady despite the blood now running down his arm. Then he wiped the knife once against the dead manâs sleeve and picked up the rifle, hoisting it over his shoulder before turning back towards Megumi.
For a moment, he just looked at him. Really looked this time. Ten years. Ten years of imagining what the kid might look like now, whether heâd survived, whether heâd grown taller, strongerâ And here he was. Alive. Still the most beautiful being he's ever seen. Toji crouched slightly, his voice lower now.
âYou good?â
The question was simple. Direct. Like theyâd only been separated a day instead of a decade. His gaze flicked over Megumi quickly, scanning for injuries with the same clinical focus heâd used on battlefields for years. Only after he was certain he was fine did the tension in his shoulders ease even slightly. The relief that followed was quiet. Heavy... Almost dangerous. Toji exhaled slowly through his nose, one hand pressing briefly against the graze on his arm before dropping again. Then his eyes returned to Megumiâs face. Still trying to reconcile the boy he remembered with the young man standing in front of him.
ââŚYou got big,â he muttered at last, the words rougher than he probably intended.
It was the closest thing to emotion he let slip. But the way he stood thereâslightly between Megumi and the open camp, blood running down his arm, body angled instinctively like a shield... Said the rest without needing words.Â
"I'll ask later, for now⌠let's just get out of here unnoticed." He motions for Megumi to follow.Â
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The world had not ended all at once. It rotted.
First came the reportsâisolated bite incidents in cities the government swore were contained, small outbreaks dismissed as violence, hysteria, anything but the truth. Then came the sirens. Endless, screaming sirens that wailed through the nights for days without rest, a constant, fraying noise that crawled beneath peopleâs skin until the realization began to settle in their bones that something worse than war had arrived. Power grids collapsed not long after. Radios dissolved into static. Television stations looped the same emergency broadcasts again and again until even those eventually vanished. And when the noise finally died, panic rushed in to fill the silence like floodwater breaking through a cracked dam.
Toji Fushiguro had seen the end of the world before. Just not like this. His childhood had been its own kind of apocalypseâviolence, hunger, the constant threat of being crushed beneath the weight of someone stronger, crueler, or simply more willing to hurt you. Back then, he had learned the only rule that ever truly mattered: hesitation gets you killed.
The military had simply sharpened that lesson into something precise. Special operations, quiet kills, infiltration... Survival tactics designed for places where laws stopped existing and morality became a luxury soldiers couldnât afford to carry. The irony wasnât lost on him. All those years spent turning himself into the perfect weaponâand the world had finally handed him a battlefield where it mattered. By the time the virus was officially named, it was already far too late. The designation had been cold and clinical: SV-8. Septic Viral Strain-8.
The public called it something else.
The Rot.
The infected didnât die immediately. That would have been merciful. SV-8 hijacked the body in stagesâfirst the fever, burning hot enough to leave its victims delirious; then the neurological collapse, shredding thought and memory until nothing remained but instinct; and finally the grotesque reanimation that came as organs began to rot from within while the body continued to move anyway, driven forward by a single brutal directive: consume. Fresh blood. Fresh organs. It spread through blood, saliva, and torn flesh. A single bite was enough. Cities fell within weeks.
Borders stopped meaning anything. Governments fractured into remnants clinging to whatever territory they could still defend. Military outposts transformed into fortified enclaves ringed with steel and gunfire. Private militias, warlords, and corporate bunkers carved the ruins into territories and called it civilization. And between them all, the dead kept walkingâsometimes alone, sometimes in small wandering groups that moved with an eerie coordination no one had yet managed to explain.
Toji adapted. He moved through the collapse like a ghostâsilent, efficient, ruthless when necessary. Clearing infected nests from crumbling cities. Escorting supply convoys through dead zones where the Rot moved thickest. Slipping into rival strongholds when the pay was high enough to justify the risk. The new world loved men like Toji Fushiguroâmen who could pull a trigger without hesitation, men who could do ugly things and still keep walking afterward. Men who could survive. Which was exactly why he couldnât afford attachments.
Except he had one.
Megumi.
Even now, years later, the name still sat behind his ribs like a blade that had never been pulled free. Megumi had been four when his mother died. Toji could still remember the sterile smell of the hospital room, the quiet hum of machines, the way her hand had felt so light in his when she squeezed it weakly as if trying to comfort him instead of the other way around. She had been brilliantâtoo brilliant, maybe. Ena Fushiguro, a government biochemist working on viral immunology projects buried beneath layers of classification that even Tojiâs military clearance couldnât touch. Somehow, she had carved a place for herself in his life in a way he had never thought possible. Ena had been like a gift he didnât deserve but was given anywayâbright, stubbornly hopeful, full of a warmth that made a man like him feel human again. To this day, he still had no idea what she had seen in him. But he fell hard, harder than he ever had for anything in his life, respecting her in a way he had never managed for anyone else.
When they married, he had been eager to leave his own family name and the filth that clung to it behind. Taking hers had been easyâalmost a relief. Her parents had welcomed him with a kindness he had never known before, and for the first time in his life, he began to understand what the word family was supposed to mean.
Unfortunately, it didn't last.
Her death had been explained as an illness. Complications. Stress from her work. Toji hadnât believed it then. He believed it even less now. But at the time, none of that mattered. Megumi had needed him. So Toji walked away from the militaryâfrom the missions, the blood, the endless chain of orders that had once defined himâand became something simpler. Just a man raising a quiet, sharp-eyed boy with black hair and green eyes that looked far too much like him and had far too much of his motherâs kindness.
Megumi had changed his life completely, even more so than meeting Ena had.
The moment the kid was born. The moment Toji first held him in his arms. The moment Megumi opened those green eyes and looked at him with a quiet curiosity that felt almost too knowing. The moment those tiny fingers wrapped around him and refused to let go. Something inside Toji shifted that day in a way he had never expected.
After the brutal childhood he had survived, after the bloody career he had built because he believed violence was the only thing he was good at, none of that seemed to matter anymore. He wasnât a weapon. He wasnât a soldier.
He was Megumiâs dad.
And that was enough.
Megumi was his blessing and his greatest giftâthe one good thing the world had ever placed in his hands, the quiet light that made everything before him feel distant and meaningless. Helping him survive the loss of EnaâŚ
His treasure to protect.
Always.
Then SV-8 happened.
Megumi had been nine. The memory of that day was carved so deeply into Tojiâs mind that sometimes it felt like he was still trapped inside it. The evacuation corridor had already begun collapsing by the time they reached it. Smoke choked the sky until the sun burned red through the haze. Sirens screamed over the chaos as military convoys tried desperately to push civilians toward transport trucks while infected bodies slammed against the barricades surrounding the checkpoint.
Toji remembered lifting Megumi up, the boyâs small hands gripping tightly into his shirt.
âStay with the kids,â Toji had told him, voice low and steady despite the gunfire cracking somewhere in the distance.
Megumi hadnât cried. He never really cried. He had only looked up at him with those calm green eyes that always seemed to see too much.
âAre you coming back?â
âYeah.â Toji had meant it.
He shoved the boy further into the transport truck with the other evacuee kids before turning to reinforce the soldiers struggling to hold the perimeter.
One second. Thatâs all it took⌠A blast tore through the barricade. The crowd panicked instantly. The driver slammed the truck into gear too early as infected bodies poured into the street from both sides. Toji turned just in time to see the vehicle lurch forward.
âMegumiâ!â
He ran... through smoke and screaming civilians. Through infected bodies, clawing and snapping at anything warm. His blade flashed again and again while gunfire echoed around him as he carved a brutal path through the chaos. But the truck kept going and going⌠Until it disappeared into the burning haze of the city, and Megumi vanished with it.
Toji searched for three weeks without stopping. He broke into refugee camps, interrogated convoy survivors until their voices shook, and tracked the convoy route across three counties while following wreckage and blood trails that slowly faded into silence. He found children...
Dead ones.
Bitten ones.
But never his son.
Years passed after that, and Toji kept chasing ghosts. Rumors surfaced every now and thenâa black-haired boy. Green eyes. Survived a convoy attack. Every lead ended the same way: cold, empty, and gone.
Eventually, the whispers changed. They stopped talking about a lost kid and started talking about a target. It began with stolen intel files during a mercenary job inside an abandoned military bunker. Then came intercepted radio chatter between research enclaves. Then the classified fragments Toji dug out of buried government archives beneath ruined command centers. Piece by piece, the picture came togetherâand every new detail made it worse. Ena Fushiguroâs research... Leading toâŚ
Megumi Fushiguro.
Subject of interest.
Potential carrier of adaptive resistance to SV-8 Variant S, a newly mutating strain spreading through the infected population with far more violent symptoms.
A more dangerous variant...
The documents referenced his late wifeâher research, her final project before her death, and one phrase that made Tojiâs stomach turn to ice. Genetic immunity candidate. Not a cure. Not a treatment. A person. His son.
Someone had been hunting for that research long before the outbreak began. And now that the world had collapsed, they were hunting Megumi. Research enclaves. Military remnants. Corporate biolabs hidden behind fortified cities. Everyone wanted the same thing. The boy who might hold the key to ending the Rot.
Toji didnât even know if Megumi was still alive, but if there was even the smallest chance⌠He would burn what remained of civilization to ash before letting anyone carve his kid open on a laboratory table. So he adapted again. He became a mercenary. It wasnât even much of a lie. Groups paid well for a man who could clear infected zones and eliminate threats quietly. Toji took the jobs, gathered intel, and infiltrated compounds under borrowed loyalties, always listening for the same whispers that had followed him for years: a boy with hair black as shadow, eyes green as emerald, and a birthmark. Whispers of said boy moving between different groups and camps. Escaping capture attempts. Appearing in places no ordinary survivor should have been able to endure.
A ghost⌠Just like his father.
Which was why Toji now knelt in the dirt with his hands zip-tied behind his back. Blood trickled slowly from the cut above his eyebrow as rough hands shoved him forward through the gates of a fortified settlement carved into the ruins of an old hydroelectric dam. Floodlights burned harshly against the night sky while armed guards surrounded him with rifles leveled at his chest.
They thought they had captured a wandering mercenary who had gotten too close to their walls. Toji let them believe it because three days ago, he overheard a conversation between two of their scouts, a rumor had passed quietly between them. They had intel on someone unusual, a quiet young man with black hair and green eyes, who their leader wanted to capture, was supposed to be nearby.
And if that rumor was true⌠Toji lowered his head slightly as they forced him toward the inner gates, hiding the faint, dangerous curve of a smile beneath the blood and dirt streaking his face.
For the first time in years⌠maybe the trail wasnât cold anymore.
As quick as he was to sit on the edge of a cliff with his stomach all in strange and unfamiliar knots, he was completely calm and normal in the next instant like sharing a meal with his father was NORMAL. Megumi could imagine it -- a tiny and dingy apartment with Megumi and Toji sitting around a circular and heavily scratched table. No cushions to sit upon either. Chipped ceiling. Leaky kitchen faucet. Breakfasts and dinners consisting mostly of rice and miso soup. A normal and boring life that somehow was wonderful. He didn't picture Tsumiki in the dreary apartment. He wanted Toji all to himself. He frowned at the thought then stuffed rice into his mouth to busy himself.
The boy was all frowns and stiff muscles. The food even lost its flavor initially, then his worry lines flattened and he immersed himself in the moment. Eating with his dad. He didn't eat much for he wanted to leave the majority of it for his father who was thrice the size of him if not more. Likely more actually. Megumi's green eyes darted to Toji's bicep and again his stomach felt that weird tightening. Why was he feeling like THIS?! He had a lot on his mind that was all. That was all. A speck of rice stuck to the edge of the boy's lips as he set his chopsticks down and contemplated the question. No one had asked him and he hadn't put his opinion forward. It was nice being asked and by his dad no less.
â I don't think it's a matter of wanting. I don't know what good it would be engaging in a game where we have to kill each other and Noritoshi would be keeping sensei somewhere secure. Taking down the elders might be a good course of action. Gojo sensei never thought highly of them but there is someone with an ability who could help us track Sukuna and thereby track Noritoshi. It seems the best route and if I have to kill, I will kill. â
The grain of rice took away from it all but the words were still serious. He looked at his father in the face. Those green eyes. They were the eyes of the Zen'in however they were different from Maki's eyes; he saw them as his father's eyes. Did his mother fall in love with those eyes?
â .....How did you and my mother meet? â
It was out of his mouth before he could think about it.
Talking strategy and targets was familiar territory, but this⌠Tojiâs hand stilled over the bowl, thumb resting against the grain of the chopsticks. The question sank in deeper than he expected. For a moment, all he could do was let the memories bleed through, uninvited and sharp.
He remembered the first time he saw her; she just ran up to him at the park. Thereâs something on you, sheâd said, calm as if pointing out dust on his shoulder. Heâd almost laughed then. The first time, he took her up on her offer when he needed help ... limping into that narrow shop half out of his mind, a blade still in his hand and a gash leaking down his side. The air had smelled of crushed leaves and bitter smoke. She didnât run. Those eyesâordinary, darkâhad fixed on him like she truly saw him as someone with worth. Tojiâs jaw worked slowly, forcing himself back into the now. He picked up another strip of squid and bit into it, chewing like it didnât matter, though his eyes stayed fixed on Megumi. It would have been easy to say he didn't remember; that is what he would have done in the past. For some reason, the words just come out before he can think better of it.
âShe⌠helped people,â he said at last, voice low. âHad this little shop. Could see curses and she tried to help me, thinking I wasnât aware of them.â
His gaze drifted to the far wall, unfocused, remembering the nights after jobs when heâd slip in through the back, and sheâd already have hot water ready, herbs laid out, hands that never shook even when blood ran down his arm. Remembering the first time sheâd asked him to help her chase off a curse from some terrified manâs house. Remembering the way she smiled like it was normal. Like he was normal.
âShe thought I could be useful,â Toji went on, vague but honest in his own way. âFor a while, I was. Helped her out.â
The scar at his lip pulled as he bit down, a faint sound in his throat like a laugh but too thin to be one. He shifted his weight, leaning an elbow on his knee, looking back at Megumi. He didnât say more, not yet. Instead, he reached out, broad hand moving in an easy sweep to brush the grain of rice from the corner of Megumiâs mouth with his thumb. The motion was unhurried, almost intimate in its simplicity. His fingers lingered for a second longer than they should have, then he pulled back and just went back to finishing up the food Megumi brought him.

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The quiet was normally welcomed. The walls felt oppressive and cold; in the warehouse the sound of his own breathing and escalated heart beat was too intrusive. Intrusive sounds and intrusive thoughts. Again, this was a teenager who never felt nervous and had not hesitated to trade what was essentially his life for his sister's well being. His father was no beast and he wasn't in danger, but it did feel like he was in the belly of A beast. The beast was his own mind with wild thoughts and desires.
Why couldn't his father have appeared in his life before all the madness with the King of Curses or afterwards, but it hard to imagine what life would be like after this war. It was a war against the most powerful curse and against jujutsu society itself. Now more than ever he wished for simplicity. But here he was, hiding out in a warehouse and being a little too nervous? excited? around a man who was the father he hadn't seen in more than ten years. Those green eyes were the SAME as his, but Toji's... his father's penetrated him. He never knew green to be an intense color.
Even the snort he made, the first noise of the morning, made all the small hairs of his arm and along his neck stand up. It was nothing compared to gravel of his voice. It did things to him. Made his belly feel tight. Made it hard to swallow. The sleepy and masculine quality of it was nothing he had heard previously. Megumi knew he was a teenager but the things he fought and the death he faced tended to make him feel older. People, like Tsumiki and Satoru, had always joked he was a fifty year old in a boy's body. His father made him feel like a toddler again which made no sense since even as a toddler Megumi wasn't shy. DIDN'T he have to do that? It was morning. Toji needed to eat.
One gravely voice made him rethink everything. Megumi realized he began chewing on the inside of his cheek (a first time ever) and stopped immediately. Megumi wanted to say the obvious -- it's breakfast time. He kept it to himself, instead began to dig into his own portion of the breakfast starting with the rice. Maybe Toji was just being Toji, which Megumi was still trying to figure out precisely what that encompassed, or the sight of his sun eating set the man more at ease. Megumi licked some sticky grains of rice from the corners of his lips as he watched his father eat... the prominent scar stretching with each movement. The boy moved his gaze to the dried squid.
â Some of the sorcerers were thinking of going outside to find Kamo Noritoshi and make sense of the rules that are set in place for sorcerers. It seems to a game of sorts. A game about killing, that's why those curse users were attacking us. â
Toji chewed through another bite of rice, the grains sticking faintly to his teeth, and his tongue swiped over them, over his scar, and let his eyes drift over the dim interior of the warehouse. His body moved with that lazy, predatory ease, but his mind wasnât still. It was working, calculating, trying to piece together what the hell a man like him was supposed to do now that he wasnât running alone anymore.
He wasnât built for this kind of thing. Didnât know how to sit across from his own kid and figure out how to act like a father instead of a good-for-nothing whatever he was. He could protectâhell, he could kill anything that came too closeâbut that wasnât the same as being useful. Not in the way Megumi probably needed. What did Megumi need, though? What did he want from him, other than for him to stay?
His green eyes narrowed slightly as he tore into the dried squid, muscles in his forearm flexing with the motion. His instincts said to keep moving, to never linger in one place long enough to be a target, but the kid⌠the kid needed more than running. He needed someone who knew when to fight and when to disappear. Someone who could plan. Someone who could teach him the ugly things no one else would. Toji knew how to do that, but now it was different. He couldn't just act all the time; heâd have to let Megumi in ... to an extentâŚ
Tojiâs thumb rubbed absently against the rough edge of the squid strip as he chewed, gaze cutting toward Megumi without fully turning his head. The resemblance still hit him like a punchâsame sharp eyes, same quiet way of watching everything. Damn, the boy didnât miss a thing, did he? He remembers when Megumi was just months old, he would quietly watch everything Toji did and sometimes tried to mimic him, the older he got.
He shifted his weight, setting the empty rice bowl aside with a soft clack of plastic. His mind drifted through possible routes, safe houses, and favors still owed in the underbelly of jujutsu society. He had contacts, information, tricks no sorcerer could teach. Thatâs how he could be useful. Thatâs how he could make sure the kid stayed alive long enough to figure out what kind of life he even wanted. He could tell Megumi that they should just run off while they could, to just leave the jujutsu world behind, but that wasnât up to him. Megumi would have to make that choice.
Toji dragged a hand back through his dark hair, jaw tightening briefly before he tore off another strip of squid. Heâd figure this out. Piece by piece. Fight by fight. Even if he wasnât cut out to be a father in the soft ways, he could damn well make himself into the kind that mattered in times like these. For now, that was enough, he supposed. Megumi still had time to change his mind.
âAnd what do you want to do then?â
He finally turns his head to face Megumi fully.
Vulnerability was glass shards in his mouth. Hard to swallow. Hard to speak but speak he did. For the first time ever he did speak from the heart. That was a gross exaggeration but he would be able to count the times he was openly honest and vulnerable on the fingers of one hand. Even if asked as a child if he was starving and needed help, he wouldn't admit it. When Tsumiki asked if he missed Toji or his mom, he wouldn't admit it. He had been building his WALLS even as a toddler, and it fucking hurt. It was so much and for so long.
He was bound to burst and bursting, as it turned out, looked a lot like just telling the truth. Letting the words fall from his mouth which were connected to his HEART. Not only was it new for him, Megumi feared the shards would hurt this new relationship. The boy was only slightly offended with the way his father retorted. Toji had been building his walls too. Both of them had lost a loved one; their loved one, and both of them were learning how it was to be son and father. He understood but it hurt just a little.
Toji didn't know what Megumi was feeling or going to feel, but the man was making judgements based on how he knew himself. Was he that bad of a man? For better or worse Megumi wanted to KNOW his father inside and out. It was only fair after his mother died and after he was abandoned. More than that, didn't Toji want to be with his son? Then, Megumi was hit with that quiet confession. The boy's heart squeezed so tightly it felt wonderful. He could've smiled. No. He was actually smiling and it felt odd, out of place. He was glad it was dark for that big smile and then the red that crept onto his cheeks without his damn permission.
Satoru had pulled him into embarrassing hugs but THIS is what Megumi wanted -- being held by his father. Megumi forced his lips together but audibly sighed with joy and comfort. He never needed it before but sleeping pressed up to a warm body made his eyes fall shut into sleep not long after. It was dark in the warehouse but Megumi's internal alarm woke up him. He didn't want to wake up. He had been spoiled for more than ten years, sleeping on a bed, but sleeping on a sleeping bag over concrete was not that different from his living situation as a child.
Futons were far superior if he had any say, even ones riddles with holes and flattened with age. He nuzzled his face against the warmth and almost moaned, then it all hit him. Sukuna. Satoru. The elders. HIS FATHER. He was almost sleeping on top of his father. The sleep escaped him entirely. His eyes jolted open and he took a moment to access the situation. Megumi senses the cursed energies of the sorcerers inhabiting the other spaces of the warehouse but they were faint. Stronger was his dad's warmth and his scent. A hot blush dominated his face and he didn't know why.
He very deliberately extricated himself from Toji's side, slow as a snail, and used his familiarity with the darkness to get up, find his clothing, and leave to another adjacent room. He used the privacy to change into a spare and clean set of uniform, wandered down the halls, and used a barely usable utility bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth. Maybe he was a little spoiled but he needed a shower, hot or cold. Another trip to a hotel would be nice. It was sad to think they could stroll into a local hotel and pick an abandoned room to hold up in. While his father slept, Megumi spent talking to Yuji, Shoko, and Yaga.
Hot food had been brought in and made available, set up in similar ways to food and supply tents following natural disasters. There were packaged foods too and someone had even brought in a microwave. Megumi spent a polite amount of time listening to new information and checking up on people, mostly Yuji, before taking his food and food for his father back downstairs. Everyone watched but didn't say anything. Megumi could only imagine the things they said when he was gone. He didn't mind. He had his father to get back to. He didn't know what his father liked, so he brought it all. White rice, natto, packaged pastries, hard boiled eggs, dried squid. Maybe his dad liked more western food. Megumi would like to find out.
Megumi had always been like that since he was a baby, quiet and good, but it wasnât like he wasnât hurting or nothing was wrong, Toji had been able to read him like a book because it was his kid after all and perhaps he was the reason Megumi learned to put up walls at such an early age. Toji had to as well, but his circumstances were different. Now thinking back with the little time he did have with Megumi he should have taught him it was okay to open up. He didnât have to be just like Toji. Though he is glad that maybe Megumi did learn to open up a bit after all, even if it wasnât he who taught him.
The night before lingered in Tojiâs bones long after the darkness shifted toward gray. Megumi had fallen asleep curled into him, small frame compared to his pressed into his side like it was the most natural thing in the world. Toji hadnât planned to hold him the whole nightâhadnât planned on anything at allâbut his arm had stayed there, steady and protective, long after the boyâs breathing had evened out. It had been years since Toji had let himself drift off with someone in his arms. Years since heâd felt anything like that tight warmth in his chest, a soft ache threaded with guilt he couldnât shake. The kid didnât know betterâhe didnât know what kind of man his father really was. And yet Megumi had burrowed closer in his sleep like none of it mattered.
Toji had stayed awake far too long, staring into the dark, one rough hand resting over the boyâs shoulder, feeling the quiet thrum of a heartbeat that shouldnât have felt so damn important. When Megumi finally stirred and carefully eased himself free, Toji kept still, eyes half-lidded, pretending to sleep. He didnât move when the warmth left, didnât stop him when he crept off into the shadows of the warehouse. He only sat there in the silence afterward, staring at the patch of empty bedding with a jaw set too tight.
By the time footsteps echoed again down the hall, Toji was sitting upright on the edge of the thin bedding, elbows braced on his knees. His hair was damp from splashing his face with cold water from a leaky utility sink nearby. The air still smelled faintly of concrete dust and oil, but there was something else threading through it nowâsteam, soy, a faint sweetness. Megumi stepped in, arms burdened with mismatched containers, his silhouette framed in the low light. Their eyes met, and Toji didnât look away.
Toji grunted low in his throat, eyes flicking to the food, then back to Megumi. He didnât trust his voice yet. Instead, he let the silence stretch, watching as the kid fussed with containers. The ache in Tojiâs chest sharpenedâyearning, guilt, pride, all tangled into something messy and unfamiliar. He didnât deserve this kind of thoughtfulness. He didnât deserve him.
âYou didnât have to bring all that.â
Toji said finally, voice low, rough from sleep or maybe from something else he wasnât ready to name. The man reached for one of the containers, not looking at him this time, because if he did, he wasnât sure what would show on his face. The tension remainedâa taut wire strung between themâbut beneath it was that soft, gnawing thing that kept him rooted here. He ignores it for now and opts to focus on the food because he was hungry, not ever knowing when heâd get his next meal, which still had him eating instinctively anytime someone offered food. Toji wasnât picky at all; he found most things good. It wasnât hard to please him when it came to food.
Pity or dismissal -- both were equally expected. He had almost wept or... had he? Megumi wasn't embarrassed but recollecting what happened only the day prior twisted up his guts. It was the first time he showed real weakness. What the jujutsu sorcerer perceived as weakness. Not even when he and his sister were to the point of starving did he beg or cry or show anything than strength. Tsumiki became his entire life and the only reason worth showing emotion, though even with her he didn't show much.
His actions spoke louder than both his words and his expression. In an instant his father brought out the worst and the best in him. Toji was playing penance for the past while his son, nearly a spitting image, was discovering how deep his trauma ran. Deep gashes in his heart and his mind. Gashes he ignored but now they took form of deep eyes and a scarred lip. How young were his father and mother when they had him? Toji had that roughened look to him but he didn't actually look old.
A part of Megumi thought he wouldn't be so driven towards his father and his approval had he looked like Zen'in geezer as Maki described the Zen'in elders. Toji was rough but in a way which almost demanded respect. Which made it hard to make eye contact, not in a way that disgusted him. Leaving two children to fend for themselves was disgusting enough but Megumi didn't know the details surrounding that tragedy. It spoke wonders that the teenager was still willing to FORGIVE his father even as all the blame resided with him.
Maybe it was because he realized his father was and had suffered for the death of his mother. Maybe it was selfishly nothing more than wanting a father. He didn't want A dad. Megumi wanted HIS dad. His guts tightened. His heart clenched. Stomach filled with a warmth that even being around Satoru or Yuji couldn't mimic. Satoru made him feel safe. Yuji made him feel human and young. Toji made him feel.... EVERYTHING. The good, the bad, the needy. I want to. I wouldn't be here if I didn't. Megumi's existence was a shadow garden and his heart bloomed.
He was glad for the dark because suddenly and for no apparent reason his cheeks flamed hot and red. He felt silly in his pajamas and so dreadfully young. He didn't know why these thoughts were popping into his mind. Why his face felt so hot. He resigned himself to his side of the sleeping bag and yelled at his heart to shut up. It was like the time (y'know, only a night prior) where he touched his dad and lied his head on the man's chest. Would that be too much to ask for?
OF COURSE IT WAS. Toji was only here because he was a guilty father trying to right some wrongs. Megumi was not five. They wouldn't play games or bathe together. They were here to defeat Sukuna and then... and then... that was too far in the future to even contemplate. He pressed his eyes tight but he heard his father breathing. Swore he could even smell him. Oh no, did Megumi stink?
He didn't think so but he would definitely need to run errands tomorrow for food supplies and deodorant. Maybe if he moved closer sooooo slowly Toji wouldn't notice or mind. Suddenly their hands were touching. Suddenly their arms. It was as close as Megumi dared to go. He needed sleep but it seemed as far away as freeing Satoru. Megumi's voice was soft and quiet. It just barely broke the silence. Despite his wild heart it came out even.
â I don't think I ever want you gone. â
Toji heard him; the words didnât echo, they settled. Sank. Buried themselves deep in the marrow of his bones like they belonged there. Like they'd always been there, waiting to be said aloud. He almost didnât breathe at first. Didnât dare. Because if he moved, if he acknowledged it too soon, it might vanish. Megumi was right there, close enough to feel the warmth radiating off his skin.
It wasn't a plea. It wasnât a childish cry for comfort. It was worse. It was honest. Tojiâs fingers curled into fists slightly. That kind of honesty could kill a man like him. He wasn't built for it and never had been. He had no right to be lying here. No right to be this close, to hear those words and want them. Because it wasnât just about forgiveness, it wasnât even about blood anymore.
It was about the ache in the boyâs voice, the tremble that wasn't fear but yearning. And Toji felt itâfuck, he felt it too. The boy was supposed to hate him. Be indifferent. Maybe tolerate him for the sake of some shared blood. That was already more than what he expected. He didnât expect this. I didn't expect hope.
His throat tightened as Megumi shifted just barely against him, enough that their arms pressed together fully now. Skin to skin. Barely a breath between them. And still⌠Megumi didnât move away. Still⌠he meant it, didnât he? He really wanted him to stick around? Toji canât say he understands; once he was free of the Zenâins, he never looked back. This was different, though⌠Why did Megumi still want him around? He keeps denying it, but maybe he did understand the feeling somehow. Only because he felt the same about Megumi? A type of yearning he tried to ignore.
Toji exhaled slowly, through his nose, chest tight like something inside was unraveling thread by thread. The last time anyone had said they wanted him around, theyâd ended up dead. But this boyâthis kid, his sonâwas looking at him and still saying, Stay. He turned his head, just enough to catch the shape of Megumi in the dark. Messy hair, flushed cheeks, breathing like he was trying too hard to seem calm.
Toji almost smiled. It didn't quite reach the surface. Instead, he reached out. Slowly. Careful, like the moment might bite him if he moved too fast. His hand brushed Megumiâs wrist, hovered for a second, then settled. A grounding touch. Bare. Honest too.
ââŚYou donât know what youâre asking for, you think you do.â
Tojiâs chest ached. He stayed like that. Let his fingers linger just a moment longer.
âBut maybe I donât want to be gone eitherâŚâ Not yet...
He added. Quieter now. Shame creeping in around the edges of his voice, around the feeling of warm skin beneath his palm. No promises. No future-talk. Just this. Just now. For the first time in a long damn while, Toji didnât feel like a ghost, a sorcerer killer, or anything else; he felt almost like a father, or maybe this was just what it was like to trust someone and want to be around them. When was the last time he felt that? Slowly but not hesitating, Toji shifts closer and gently tucks Megumi against him. He could pull away if he wanted, but he had a feeling this was what the kid wanted.
More awkward than going through puberty as a jujutsu sorcerer, with no one to turn to but an even more awkward man-child of a makeshift father, was bringing an apparent notorious KILLER to the pariahs of the jujutsu world. Everyone's worries, especially Yuji's, turned into judgement when the teenager returned not alone. He was with his father. A Zen'in. A man who was more powerful than 90% of the sorcerers across Japan. He was the wild card in a time when everything was too chaotic and wild.
In the end, it wasn't the most outrageous thing. They all needed every last bit of help if of course, that was Toji's intention. To stick around and help. Nanami was dead. Todo and Inumaki injured. Kugisaki almost at death's door, and the elders had dispatched one of Satoru's brightest pupils to kill Yuji. It had felt like years since Megumi last saw Yuta but it was less than a year. The world was upside down. His mind was full of unrest thinking about everything. It weighed on him heavily. Was Gojo suffering being locked away?
Was it coincidental his father was alive and back? Was it Sukuna who saved his life and why? He was getting a headache and Megumi sighed as he laid out the sleeping bag and blankets that was his and his father's bed for the foreseeable future. He was raised by a rich man but he was not spoiled. The basement of the abandoned stationary factory was just glum. He liked the darkness when it was on his own terms and within the shadow garden of his technique. Japan was in chaos and this felt like banishment.
Even his pep talk with Yuji didn't help much. He did take the time to comfort his friend who had gone through so much. Megumi's head and heart ached. He spent too long fixing everything. Only then realizing he had actually finished five minutes ago, except he continued to unfold and smooth things which were already ready. He had bitten the inside of his cheek raw as well. The teenager moved fingers through his hair and then got up. With a building so large everyone was given privacy.
Megumi was sharing privacy with his father. He used the dim lighting to change quickly from his street clothes to pajamas a little ill fitting, but it was a rush to get clothes for everyone. Megumi sat down on his sleeping bag and hugged his knees to his chest. A container of onigri and convenience store sweets sat on the ground. The boy's green eyes were on his father.
â You don't have to sleep with me. You don't have to sleep here with me... if you don't want. â
Toji sat with his back against the crumbling wall, arms slung loosely over his knees, the weight of his body unfamiliar despite how solid it had always felt. The basement was stale, the air heavy with the kind of silence he used to find comforting. Now it just pressed in around him an unfamiliar sensation. His eyes didnât leave the boy across from him. Megumi sat curled in on himself, knees pulled tight to his chest, pajama fabric wrinkled. Then, barely louder than the buzz of the dying lightbulb overhead, came his voice.
âYou donât have to sleep with me. You donât have to sleep here with me⌠if you donât want to.â
Toji didn't respond right away. He just looked at the boy⌠his boy and for a moment, hated himself for the flinch that almost crept into his fingers. Not because he didnât want to be near Megumi. That was the cruel irony. He did. Too much, maybe. And that made it worse. He kept looking at Megumi⌠really looked at him. Sleep nowhere in those green eyes. Not really. There was almost a haunted look there. Familiar. Too familiar. Like looking into a mirror from another lifetime. He wasnât about to repeat that mistake. Toji exhaled slowly. Pulled in a breath like it cost him something.
âI want to.â
His voice was rough but steady. No sharpness. Just the truth.
âI wouldnât be here if I didnât.â
He reached for the blanket and draped it over the boy without a word. No eye contact, he just does it like it's the most natural thing he could do right now. Then he lowered himself to the floor beside him, laying flat on the sleeping bag with one arm folded behind his head. The ground was unforgiving. It always has been. He barely noticed. Toji stared up at the cracked ceiling, blinking once, slowly.
âIâll stay until you want me gone..â
His hand rested inches from Megumiâs, not reaching but not pulling away either. He let the silence settle again, this time with something softer under it. A softness he had no idea he was capable of. Maybe long ago it was once there, when Megumi was little, when Megumi was all he had. Isnât Megumi still all he had? Was Megumi the only one capable of bringing this side of him out? One he thought was long dead and gone.
Toji's seed blood, his miniature clone was a little banged up but fine. He had faced worse during training, during Shibuya, and even when confront his dad. The fact he wasn't bleeding beside a little tear to his lip was actually a win. Letting the curse user escape was not a win. Though he knew the curse user was likely a drop in the ocean if the rest of downtown Tokyo was to judge. Whatever Noritoshi Kamo had done was bringing violence to the streets and curse users were acting without restraint. Megumi was out of the loop and very much needed to be back IN the loop.
He did take a moment to look at his father. It was addicting. No, addicting was not the right word. He was still in shock and the shock came in waves. His father was alive and beside him. He was also shocked he hadn't initially recognized him though the tensions were high and Toji notably had the shock factor of strange eyes when they first reunited. The world worked in mysterious ways, not that the teenager believed in any such higher power.
When his father and mother left, Gojo entered his life, and now that Gojo was sealed away, his father returned. Megumi nodded and reluctantly whipped his head away. There were tremors of violence and cursed energy everywhere but more distant. It was like smelling rain or feeling the remnants of a week earthquake. Never EVER had Tokyo been saturated with so much cursed energy. Megumi being a teenager meant his senses weren't as sharp as someone of Satoru's caliber or Ieri. What did it feel like for them? Megumi looked back at his father's face and almost got lost in the intimacy of it.
â Itadori... and the others. The elders want most of their heads. We need to meet up with them and explain and then, we will figure this out. â
He knew their last known whereabouts. Megumi hadn't been gone for THAT long. Luckily they were still in the same secret location. Should they travel by foot? Steal a vehicle? He assumed his father could drive. Riding max elephant or nue would expose them too much. Megumi was so used to keeping his thoughts and feelings internalized even when he wasn't completely alone. This time he was most certainly not alone.
â It's the basement of the abandoned stationary factory. I think if we walk it, we'll keep getting attacked. What do you think... Toji? â
After Megumi decided they needed to regroup with the others, Toji found a car to make the journey, and eventually, they met up with the others in an abandoned building. The introductions were a formality, tense, sharp-edged, and wrapped in a silence that tasted of suspicion and old blood. Toji stood half-shadowed in the doorway of the abandoned building, his presence like an unsheathed blade, humming with the promise of violence. Megumi had offered the others nothing more than a few clipped words. No explanations. No apologies. Nothing about him being his father. Just a name⌠a name that shouldâve stayed buried.
Their eyes cut toward him like drawn weapons. The pink-haired oneâthe vessel of Sukunaâstared with something like cautious curiosity. The others were more subtle, but Toji saw it clearly: recognition, revulsion, confusion. His name still hung in the air heavy and unwanted, though most probably didnât really know who he was. Even in death, his sins had walked ahead of him, dragging his reputation behind them like chains. He didnât nod. Didnât speak. Didnât pretend. Toji wasnât here to be forgiven. He wasnât here to be understood. He was a ghost stuffed back into flesh, reanimated by violence, still reeking of grave dirt and sins.
He kept to the edges of the group, silent and watchful, while they whispered tactics and cursed classifications, their voices tight with urgency. They moved like people preparing for the world to end. Toji didnât care if it did. And yet⌠he was here. Not for the war. Not for their cause. Only for Megumi.
Eventually, the others scattered, pulled away by duty or discomfort. But the tension didnât liftâit just thinned, curling in the corners like smoke that refused to clear. Megumi jerked his chin once, saying nothing. Toji followed, footsteps echoing. He walked beside his son, his blood, his legacy, the one thing in this world he hadnât entirely ruined, and something low and smoldering burned in his chest. Not guilt. No, guilt was too soft. Too human. This was something darker. Sharper. A gnawing ache that came from knowing he didnât deserve to be here⌠and yet he was. Breathing. Fighting. Following. Maybe that meant something. Or perhaps it was just one more sin waiting to be tallied.
And when they were finally alone, in the dim hush of a broken corridor, something about him shifted. Subtle. Easy to miss. But it was there. The tightness in his shoulders loosened. His stance relaxed, just slightly. His gaze softened just barely, but enough. As the walls that were built to be impenetrable could drop for just a moment around Megumi. Maybe he was getting too used to being by Megumiâs side like this, and he really shouldn't get used to it, and neither should Megumi.

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For the first time in his life, Megumi felt as if he was fighting alone. Of course that wasn't the actual truth. Oddly enough he had felt that sinking, overwhelming feeling of being alone and standing on the edge of death when fighting what it turned out to be his father, then when summoning mahoraga to defeat a blond twink curse user. It had all boiled down to everyone fighting for their lives. He wasn't alone in that aspect, but it was his first time being completely independent and in serious danger without his mentor.
The boy didn't want to be alone and wanted to fill the void in his heart... ironically by the very same man who had carved out the void in the first place. Would Satoru mock him? Would Satoru be disappointed? He wasn't even fighting Sukuna when he summoned mahoraga and he wished to do it again. Being a jujutsu sorcerer wasn't just about strength or luck. It was about wits. It was other people who brought out the best in him however. Megumi wiped away the blood and sweat and breathed in deep.
He looked left and right. Another deep breath. Max elephant bolted away from the curse user and that brief moment of confusion gave Megumi the advantage to lunge. Megumi wasn't looking to get a cheap strike in although he would've taken it. The boy and the curse user met each other hit for hit while max elephant blasted wave after wave of water out of its trunk to shatter all the windows in the neighboring buildings. With the sound of glass shattering the curse user halted and jerked his head around.
It was enough of an opportunity for Megumi to land a kick to his head. Water, also reflective, sloshed around the street as max elephant ran towards the opposite side of the street to smash those windows too. The curse user looked like he was about to use the water to his advantage, but then there was the swooshing sound of air and Toji's behemoth body appeared. Megumi's green eyes, exact replicas of his father's, widened with surprise. The feeling of loneliness disappeared. His father was HERE. The elephant shikigami shook the ground and made a racket as it began smashing more windows from buildings to those of parked cars.
The curse user snorted derisively. Dark eyes darted between father and son repeatedly, then to max elephant, and the curse user was gone. The larger windows were shattered, the smaller shards swept away by the water, but the curse user jumped his reflection into the last bit of water as it and he swirled into the drainage of the sewer. Megumi jumped forward to do something. Anything. Then he stopped. Max elephant returned to the shadows and Megumi turned to look at his father. He didn't drop his guard but all was quiet. Eerily quiet for such a busy part of Tokyo. His father was stained with blood.
â Thank you... â
For coming to protect me. For not leaving me.
Toji didnât know why the feeling hit himâonly that it did. A crawling, cold dread slithered down his spine. His instincts, honed over years of slaughter and silence, rarely screamed this loud without reason. This wasnât his usual awareness of danger. This was something deeper, more primal. Something wrong. Something about Megumi. It was ridiculous, almost laughable, if anything about this cursed life was still worth laughing at. But no matter how much he tried to shake it, the feeling clung to him like blood under his nails. And so, for once, he didnât indulge in his usual cruelty during the fight. He wasnât here to play. He was here to kill and move on. Because Megumi needed him. Or... no, maybe that wasnât right. He needed to see Megumi. But why?Â
And when he didâwhen he reached the battlefield and saw the boyâToji stopped, jaw tight, hand still gripping the handle of his bloodied blade. Megumi stood alone, back straight despite the tremble in his arms, facing off against something far too strong for a kid his age. But he was holding his own. There was blood on his cheek, dust clinging to his skin, defiance in his eyes. And still, there was something off in his stanceâa subtle falter. The kind of detail Tojiâs trained eyes couldnât ignore. Megumi was strong, stronger than he realized. Perhaps too strong⌠maybe it was better he didnât realize it, but he needed to realize just enough to protect himself.
Despite it without thinking, Tojiâs body moved. He stepped between them, between Megumi and the curseâa wall of flesh and rage. No hesitation. No plan. Just... instinct. The curse user paused, read the air, and ran. Coward. Smart. Toji almost went after him. The pulse of adrenaline demanded it. The thrill of the hunt clawed at his skin like a craving he couldnât scratch. But something else pulled him back. Megumi. He turned.
The boy hadnât said a word. Just stood there, panting quietly, eyes wideânot in fear, but in confusion. Like he hadnât expected Toji to come at all. Like he didnât know what this was supposed to mean. Toji didnât either. He stared at his son, eyes narrowing slightly as he approached. Every part of him braced for somethingâan injury, a curse wound, blood too red to ignore. But Megumi seemed mostly intact. Still breathing. Still standing.
âYou alright?â
The words came out awkward, maybe harsh, flat. Unfamiliar. As if theyâd rusted from disuse in his throat. He wasnât sure why he said them. He wasnât sure he wanted an answer. He wasnât built for thisâwhatever this was supposed to be. The suffocating dread that had stalked him all the way here finally slipped off his shouldersâbut it didnât leave peace behind. No. Something else settled in its place. Something worse. Relief. He didnât know what the hell to do with that. He hadnât felt it in years. He hadnât wanted to. But maybe heâd have to learn if he planned on staying. If he planned on seeing this through. Just as he was coming to terms with whatever the hell this was, he heard Megumiâs voice thanking him.
Toji actually looks shocked and almost uncomfortable. Why the hell was he thanking him? He didnât even do anything? Showed up too late to the battle, and the bastard got away anyway. He shrugs and grumbles it off.Â
âSoâŚWhere to now, kid?â
He looks at Megumi this time with something almost soft and very foreign because, for the first time in years, the only thing Toji Fushiguro was running toward wasnât a fight. It was a boy with eyes as green as his own.
Shameless. Absolutely fucking shameless. Suguru Geto knew better but being in the face of a man who clearly did not care, it was something else. The sorcerer did not bother responding to such a question. Liking men in suits? Wasn't that insinuating something, and the way the killer said it so easily. It was like Toji didn't mind the implication and didn't mind putting on a show. If Suguru turned away it would prove that Toji's body affected him. That a MAN's body affected him.
So, Suguru watched as piece by piece of clothing was stripped off. Admittedly it was one of his best acts yet; keeping a straight face when something both disgusted and... attractive was going on. Toji as a person was dog shit. Rat droppings. However his body was incredible. Clothes didn't eave much to the imagination but still without the clothing, seeing all that sculpted and scarred muscle in person was impressive.
Toji made Suguru look SMALL which was a difficult feat. Suguru was taller than the average Japanese man with broad shoulders and fit muscles. He was working on gaining more muscle but it did not compare to Toji's massive body. Suguru was battling between being disgusted and impressed he forget he was... staring and staring at Toji when he had nothing but black briefs on.
Suguru knew he was gay but seeing the sorcerer killer's large thighs, ass, and bulge seemed to give Suguru a second awakening. Suguru really was seeing something new -- that Toji was capable of being more than disgusting. The man was attractive. Suguru tore his gaze away and just pretended to be too disgusted. He was in part. Disgusted that he could ever consider a cockroach like Toji attractive. A great body did not make up for the sins he committed.
He didn't even the notice the worm curse was blinking its huge, weepy eyes at him until it was already moving back to its master. How did that... union form? Why would a curse willing attach itself to anyone much less a human with no intention of hurting said human. A parasitic relationship would be interesting, but from what Suguru could sense, no such thing was happening. He waited until the swish of material was done, judgemental purple gaze returning to the killer. The suit was a decent fit albeit a little snug. He almost got the the measurements right by sight. It would do.
â You are going to meet a curse user. You know what those are, right? What jujutsu sorcerers call those who aren't like them. He's powerful but weary of other sorcerers, and I don't blame him. I want him on MY side. Without your cursed energy you'll be able to talk to him without him getting suspicious. He takes advantage of humans giving out high interest loans. You look like... his exact clientele type. So, go there under the pretense of getting a loan and -- do I have to say more? Tell him about me. Here. â
Suguru stepped away from his perch and removed a slip of paper from his inner sleeve. It was folded over so that Toji wouldn't read it, and he handed it over at an arm's length.
â Get him to join and I'll reward you. Here are the directions. â
He walked out of the small building with Toji, providing him the name and address of the loan business. The curse user was powerful but dangerous and paranoid. He didn't want anything to do with Suguru, and he was known for doing unsavory things. Suguru had been willing to look past some things. Had. He knew the curse user would react violently and attack Toji. It was a test of course. Everything was a test.
â I eagerly await your... success. Do good. â
Toji Fushiguro didn't need to be told twice why Suguru picked him for this job. The mark was a paranoid bastard, a curse user running a predatory loan racket, leeching off desperate humans and staying far away from anyone with curse energy strong enough to be a threat and Suguru was most definitely a threat. The guy had a systemâhe'd only meet clients in neutral locations, never twice in the same place, and always had some cursed spirits lurking nearby like watchdogs. But Toji? Toji was perfect. No curse energy. Just another down-on-his-luck gambler looking for a way to crawl out of a hole. The guy wouldnât see him coming.
It wasnât hard for Toji to make himself a familiar face at the kind of underground joints the curse userâs clients frequented. He let himself loseâjust enough to get whispers started. A man with a bad streak, big losses, and had no issues with begging for money. Toji played the part, wearing the frustration, the desperation, the kind of energy that made sharks circle. It wasnât long before a low-level runner for the curse user approached him, offering a "solution" to his problem. Toji played it smooth. Acted skeptical at first, then "reluctantly" agreed to meet their boss for a loan.
The meeting was held in the back of a shady Mahjong parlor, the air thick with cigarette smoke and bad decisions. The curse user sat across from him, a wiry man with sunken eyes and too many nervous tics. A survivor. Someone who thrived on fear. Toji laid it on thick, a gambler at rock bottom. He took the loan, agreed to ridiculous interest rates, let himself be bound by the bastardâs cursed contract. The whole time, he noted everythingâhow many bodyguards, how strong the cursed spirits hanging in the shadows were, what exits were available. And most importantly, the man's habits. Toji made sure to miss his payment and let the curse user think he had him for good. Then he made his move.
The moment the curse user sent his enforcers to collect, Toji turned the tables. He picked them off in the alley behind the parlorâquick, silent, brutal. When he finally walked into the curse user's safe house, he wasn't an addict with a debt anymore. He was a devil knocking at the door. The curse user panicked, calling his cursed spirits to attack. Toji tore through them like childâs play. No cursed energy meant no tricks, no readings on his movements. The bastard's worst nightmare. By the time Toji grabbed him by the throat and slammed him against the wall, the guy was already broken.
"Listen, you like being in control, huh? Making people crawl to you, beg you for mercy. Feels good, right?"
Toji murmured, voice calm, almost bored. The curse user trembled, unable to answer. Toji leaned in, grip tightening. The man let out a strangled whimper.
"Thatâs how Geto feels about you. Youâre already his. You just didnât know it yet."
It didnât take long after that. Toji made sure he understoodâthis wasnât an offer. It was reality. Work for Suguru, or be buried in a place no one would ever find. By the time Toji walked out, the curse user was on his knees, head bowed. Mission accomplished and without he returned to report to back to Suguru.
âIt has been done your majesty. Your new pet awaits your command.â
He gives almost a mocking bow before Suguru, lifting his head just enough for his green eyes to meet purple ones. A wicked smirk forming at the corner of his lips.