I feel like I haven’t had anywhere to just vent shit in a while and I don’t do it online. Some shit I just don’t know how to talk about with people.
For maybe a few years I just occasionally get this feeling of straight up hollowness. Like I’ll be in the middle of talking to someone and think it straight up does not matter that I’m here right now and like I probably add almost nothing of value to this whole thing and that’s a tiring prospect. I’ve never learned to love myself fully but I’ve made a lot of strides. Sometimes tho it’s just like fuck man. I’m exhausted as shit.
I’ve dropped off with a lot of people. That’s part of growing up so I can’t be too upset about it but what have I done honestly? Not much. Some days I feel pride in my growth and others I wonder if I’ve grown at all.
Not much to do but keep moving forward and trying I guess. The feeling will pass.















