¡! OCEANSIDE AERO ~ 🌐

>_ Sys Name : Oceanside Aero

>_ Collective Name : Aero

>_ Collective Pronouns : They/Them

>_ Relationship Status : Taken

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>_ Main Fronters :

—— Kasper/Charlotte [She/Her]

—— Malachite [He/Him]

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>_ DNI : T.R.A.S.H., Endogenic systems + supporters (includes neutral stances and polyminds), support harmful paraphilias, pro-israel/zionist, pro-trump + ICE supporters

>_ Notes : Our DNI is a strict boundary, and not a suggestion. The only lenience we will give is for likes, but reblogs, follows, and other forms of interactions from people who fall under our DNI is prohibited and we will block you.

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>_ Tags :

🌐 || general

🌱 || rant

🌊 || vent

🐠 || reblogs

I know it hurts me. I know it hurts the planet. but what else will you give me. what fucking options do I have anymore. that's right, nothing. because this fandom despises me. this fandom will rip me to shreds. this fandom will delight in watching me die.

we can lead him to the light. pushing him down does no good for us. we know that helping a harmful alter is always a good thing. it can be a good thing. it will be a good thing, it has to be.

I will deny that he exists until I can't anymore, until he won't let me deny that he's there. he doesn't exist. he can't exist. he won't exist.

why would a fragment think it's a good idea to latch onto the idea of him. why would you ever think that. why would it ever do that.

it's not there. he's not there. hide him, bury him in the far reaches of our mind, keep him out. just get rid of him. I don't want him to be here. we don't want him to be here.

I don't even know if my fears are real, if I have reason to worry. but the idea that it could happen is making everything worse.

why am I the way that I am. why do I want people to bend over backwards for my comfort. I know they never will, I don't want to be a selfish person. being seen as such is a death sentence. if I'm ever seen as selfish, by anyone at all, that will be the end of me. just execute me right then and there.

I don't like seeing selfship doubles, and then what does the universe do? throw one at me when I finally feel safe. when I finally feel like I'm among people who don't mind or care. but now there's someone who does mind, who does care, and I have to shut my trap for once. and it hurts, it really hurts. it feels like seeing your significant other cheat on you in real time, right in front of you, and you just have to bite back your emotions and awkwardly smile, gritting your teeth so hard your dentist will scold you for it later.

there's a voice in the back of my mind, from someone who I thought ceased this behavior, telling me that there's a solution to my pain. but I can't let him hurt me like that. it's not worth it, even if it feels like it could be. I don't want to hurt myself, no matter how tempting his words are, how much I'd really like to right now.

don't take this as a win, we're still heavily anti-endo/willo/ntg as a whole, but it's finally hitting me that this whole thing is getting to be really toxic.

obviously, we're not gonna be deleting the blogs. our inner digital archivist would kill us for deleting anything. they'll remain up, but mostly inactive, unless the alter running them wants to rebrand it into purely a personal and changes the URL.

and again, to the endos and pro endos that are definitely reading this, don't take this as a win. you did not win. we're still around, we're still against you, we're just splitting off from that community.