OCD - or how to deal with those awful thoughts

I'm so glad my posts are helpful. I do try to present things in a more inspirational and passionate way, so I'm really happy you've noticed it!

Hopelessness is a part of life. It's there and it's normal. We fall, we rise and then we fall again. I doubt there's one single person on this Earth who hasn't felt that a certain situation has no end. Except from children and that's why we all want to be children, careless and free. 

I suggest you read the following replies:

http://ocdsupport.tumblr.com/post/33840225620/confession-the-start-of-my-ocd

http://ocdsupport.tumblr.com/post/29133330839/please-please-be-online-i-need-your-help-i-just-want

http://ocdsupport.tumblr.com/post/31689887523/so-i-feel-extremely-miserable-i-just-want-to-die-why

I don't really know, to be honest.

I know the birth control pills contain estrogen and progestogen. They both have important functions, including controlling our sexual behaviour. I personally don't think they can trigger OCD, but still, the reasons for developing the disorder have not been yet clarified, so I can't tell for sure.

Anyway, your mind will constantly search for the reason/trigger/source of your disorder. There will be what-ifs and 'why didn't I'. You need to realize that these things don't really matter, because they're in the past. Whatever happened and triggered your disorder, that's it, you can't change it, you can only deal with the consequences. 

I personally think it's normal, although most sufferers tend to have 1 or 2 main themes.

My themes also vary. Some days I might have both HOCD and Schizo-O thoughts, some days it's just HOCD. I don't really pay attention to the theme anymore because I know the nature of all intrusives is the same. It doesn't matter what they're saying. 

Don't think of the obsessive thoughts as meaningful because they're not. They are all symptoms of the same disorder.

Aw, you're welcome! :)

It's the same with me. I mean, I don't feel completely fine when I'm surrounded by people but I do feel better! I guess it's the effect of distraction. But I also think you should not be afraid of the moments when you're alone, you should embrace them and think of them as time for yourself. If you start fearing yourself, then overcoming the disorder will become even harder. When you're on your own, try not to push the obsessive thoughts away, but at the same time don't overanalyze them because that would lead to a puzzled mind. However, there's nothing to be afraid of!

'I really don't want to' - that's the key to the answer. Why would you start cutting and harming yourself if you don't actually want to?

Self-harming is never the way and I've said this before, although I've talked primary about suicide. Escaping your problems and cutting your wrists doesn't solve your situation.

And I want to say something that I personally think. I know I might get hate for saying this, but accept it as my personal opinion, not as OCD advice.

I think that people who cut themselves and try to kill themselves are weak. Don't get me wrong, I know we are all weak at certain times and I've also thought of suicide and escaping. I'm also aware that sometimes your mental disorder can be stronger than you. But, in my opinion, we should all try to be stronger, happier, better human beings. You can even take this as a motivational thought: 'People who cut themselves are weak'. Every time you think of suicide/self-harming say this to yourself and remind yourself that you want to be a stronger and a happier person and that's not the way.

I know this is not supposed to be funny but I laughed because sometimes I do the exact same things, especially the personality quizes.

It's just another type of reassurance, I think. You need some proof that you're not insane and that you're obsessions are just obsessions and don't have an actual meaning. But deep inside, you know this and don't need to read these things.

How to prevent it. I just started avoiding the computer when I get spikes. At some point, I even blocked googling certain words, such as schizophrenia, OCD, panic attack, etc. Also, when I'm using the computer, I try to find something beneficial to do. Find some forums or anything that's interesting to you and try to focus on it.

Hello :)

THAT'S WEIRD, HAHA.

But seriously, I actually stopped searching for the actual reason for my OCD. It was just a trigger and nothing more than that. Actually, when I look back, I remember obsessive moments from my childhood. Probably it's always been there, but not in this severe form.

Anyway, if you want to talk about it, leave me some contact details and I'll definitely get in touch!

I am really sorry for not answering your questions for so long but I have my reasons! I got an offer from my top university on the 19th, it was my 18th birthday on the 21st and I celebrated it on the 24th (this Saturday). So, I am a bit drunk right now, but wanted to tell you all that I'm here and I do care about you! Ask box will probably be open tomorrow! I know I don't have to explain, but I do feel like I want to, because you're my fellow sufferers and I appreciate you and love you!