Thoughts I've been thinking:
This was kind of inspired by train dreams and also the adult swim short the elephant.
Reality is a fabric we construct. Our desires are strong and can reshape our world. Can reshape our realities.
What’s stopping us from living our lives?
Our real true lives. The ones we dream of. The ones we secretly wish will happen. Could it be we could be pulled into those lives.
Could we be pulled into lives for a reason. This could just be one of many. I can relax. I can relax. There’s more. There will always be more. I must have faith. I must enjoy where I am now. Enjoy who I am right now.
This will disappear. I won't ever get this back again. Time is a construct. Even if I die and get reborn. I could be reborn into another time. Time is not linear. It is a jearimy bearimy. I could be born in the 1890s in my next life. I could be born as a bug in my next life. Or even just a particle of air that will enter someone’s breath.
Life isn’t scary. Death isn't scary. Pain. isn’t scary. It’s okay. I should be so grateful to have so many experiences. To continuously feel. To be able to feel. If nothing is real then everything is so real. Everything is real. I am real at this moment. I was real yesterday probably. My memories are just me remembering.
So many I am just remembering. Something that isn’t real? So how can I recall them? How are me and three others able to pull out the same experiences? The same thing we shared.
I can scarcely feel those things anymore. But I can remember that I felt them once. I can’t even remember the feeling, only remember the remembering. Sometimes some small things poke through. I can feel the feeling. Sometimes. Very sometimes.
So many feelings we used to feel we can no longer feel. Can’t even imagine what that feeling was anymore because I don't possess the capabilities to feel them anymore. And right now I'm feeling things that I may be unable to feel in the future. So I must treasure them. And document them. Feel them to their fullest while I still can.
We feel things that other people have felt before and will feel again. Maybe not in the same way, maybe in the same way. We’ll never truly know. We think things others have already thought through before. Hopefully it means we are not alone.
