obscuresétoiles

Can’t believe the stress still hasn’t killed me yet.

The fact that John Gaius apparently is prone to saying "What would I know, I'm only god?" (as per this scene, which I've been thinking about a lot lately due to having found this video) is just. Yeah, of course he'd say that. But also shut upppppppp oh my god I'm killing you with hammers "what would you know"? NOTHING‼️ I don't care if you were a brilliant scientist and the first necromancer and whatever the fuck else you've done in over a myriad of life, you are a genocidal freak with an ego the size of the solar system who surrounds himself with yes-men that you lie to and are surprised when they eventually hate you after being lied to for 10,000 years! I hope Alecto kills you slowly and painfully and you die with a shocked pikachu expression because you also don't understand how she could ever want you dead

anyone else ever wish they could lie down harder? Like, I'm already horizontal, but I need more horizontal. I need to be absorbed by the floor. I think that would fix me

the desire to sort everyone into "the good team" and "the bad team" is fascinating. i saw a post that was like "if you believe in transfeminist theory THIS is who you're aligned with! [screenshots of a trans woman being sexist]" and im like. yeah that sucks but who is that. do i know her. does she represent all of us now. is she the ceo of transgender. i didn't think we had one of those. why didn't anybody tell me.

thinking about how ursula k leguin said "what goes too long unchanged destroys itself. The forest is forever because it dies and dies and so lives" and how everyday i wake up slightly different and i can feel myself shed the skin of who i used to be slowly, slowly, until i look back and can scarcely recognise who i was... but also she is still a part of me, part of the leaf litter and the humus, supporting me as i send new roots down and new leaves stretching up to the sunlight

the problem with parents is that they are undiagnosed