nugasm

Hello. I'm a 27 year old game dev bloke from the UK. I wont share my real name here, but my friends call me Smokey (after smokey nagata) and my username for comedy shit and streaming is DiddyHop (not named after him).

I'm into a lot of music, movies and most of all, video games. I started this blog as a way to release a lot of emotion during a particularly horrible time in my life, however now I feel less of a need to do so. I'm not better, but i'm stable :)

I just kinda post random shit here that i like and (sometimes) vent. I'll try to put a TW on those from now on. I'm also starting to try learn more hobbies so want to start using this as a place to share.

got a couple little things to do but:

I don't feel the need to be anonymous here anymore.

This isn't really that impulsive, I grew up absolutely loving skateboard but could never get one, and when I did have one I just didn't stick with it. I learnt how to tick tack and ollie but that was about it lol

i've: - gone to the doctors crying and shaking and been turned away - gone to therapy (which is on break due to easter) - gone to weekly disabled student support meetings - called the crisis team (they weren't available)

I went to the doctors last week for help. I was literally sat in there shaking and crying and barely able to talk. still sent on my way...