Nugae

August 2017

As you might have seen,  I reposted a lot of motivational quotes. What do I need to get motivated for, you might ask? Well, I took it upon me to try and get into a research master philosophy. For this program you have to have good grades, be a good student and perform well altogether. To show this you have to submit a cv, motivational letter, recommendation letters from other teachers and stuff like that.

Now, I know I’m not stupid, but this, to me, seems to be taking it to a whole new level. People are telling me that I am capable of getting into this program, that I’m smart enough and have the work attitude to do it. Personally, I think this program is perfect for me and I’d love all the courses. My current grades tell me I should be able to do it, but there’s always that little voice telling me I’m not good enough. Well, this is me telling the little voice to shut up, because I’m not leading my life based on what if’s.

The coming year I’m going to work my ass off trying to get there. It probably won’t be easy, but it needn’t be easy, it just needs to be possible.

When you stand on top of the mountain you just climbed, all things down there seem relatively small. However, if you’re standing right next to them, as I am right now, they look anything but small. Because I want to be able to remind myself of everything I ran into on the way to the top, I’m writing this little blog post kinda thing.

I hope that I can look back on it later, see how much I’ve grown, see how much I’ve accomplished and hopefully show myself that I’m capable of things I don’t consider possible right now.

So where am I currently? Well, yesterday I saw the ‘you have to have an 8 average on relevant courses’ part of the application. I instantly thought: what’s my plan B? Because I’m not an 8 average student, right? (Well, turns out, on paper, I am.) I tried to start my curriculum vitae, looked into the English test I apparently had to take and thought to myself: ‘€150,- for an English test. That’s quite a lot of money wasted if you don’t get into the programme.’ Yeah, I have an incredibly shitty attitude when it comes to things like this. Luckily, people don’t seem to notice, because I try really hard to just ignore my personal opinion and stick to my rational opinion, the one that can be backed up by reality and facts and other people’s educated opinions.

So, currently I’m stressing. And I’m setting up my thesis, which will be about Plato on sophists, probably.