Nuclearxpotato

Who is she

I've had passing suicidal thoughts for years and sometimes even episode. They keep getting worse, and I'm starting to think maybe I should just give in.

I haven't healed, I haven't grown, I haven't done anything of any value in my entire life. All I've done is take and take. I'm a burden and no one wants to admit, likely because it makes them feel worse for admitting the truth.

Should I be upset that no one cares? I don't blame them, if you had to deal with a pathetic piece of shit like myself, you'd want any conversation to end quickly. All I do is be a nuisance and bring other people down with me.

I know no one will read this and my life will go unchanged, I'm too much of a pussy to end my life apparently. I'll probably scrape along (if at all) until I'm 32 and I'm either murdered or I decide to just overdose on what little sleeping medication I can afford at the time.

If I disappeared, no one would notice. I have no friendships or connections in the real world, I have no place in this world, I have no reason to keep existing.