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i speak for myself when i say that there is a deep comfort that i gain from being alone. something primal in me has alawys insisted that i am a beuty that is better appreciated from afar. leave me a lone and fuck off forever and let me do what im going to do becasue im gonna do it and you can convince me otherwise unless i actually want to do it enough.

i really do hate when i have a really good idea or oppinion and i fucking forget what it is, like fuck that was a good idea,

i really truly want an honest kind of love. one where weve built a sort of understanding with one another and we know what lines not to cross and which to overstep. like i want someone to take care of me but i also want to repay them in some way whether that be consolatory or physically just to show that i care and that i see them. i want to be able to respect them as a friend and as a human being with a life and a spirit. its so hard to do that know especially with the sensationalizing of love and intamacy. like most people dont even like themselves and are getting into relationships with people for the winter thinking theyll survive the spring withought falling out because they met ecahother at the worst time of there life.