‘   i’m   not fucking thrilled either   !   fuck   you,   you only ever think about yourself and you fucking   k n o w   it   !   ‘   she’s fully revolved in his direction now,   and if looks could kill,   he would   u n d o u b t e d l y   be deceased.   ‘   bullshit.   you’re just like everybody else.   ‘   her timbre is released in a mumble,   chuckling to herself before she rolls her shoulders back into a shrug.   ‘   i don’t know,   alright   ?   i’m not doing this alone,   so if you’re gonna keep being a bitter piece of   SHIT,   i’ll just go take care of it now.   ‘

           ‘   you have   some   nerve making me feel like shit about the things i’ve done before we even fucking   LIKED   each other   !   back then we fucking   d e s p i s e d   each other,   remember   ?   i’m so   sorry   that   y o u   weren’t the first thing that crossed my damn mind when it was happening   !   ‘   ascending from the bed,   jojo begins to pace around the room,   a tactic she grasped a hold of in order to remain composed in anxiety-prone situations.   ‘   what do i want   ?   WHAT do i   w a n t   ?   ‘   she repeated herself,   a defeated smile etching along her features as she turned on her heel to face the male.   ‘   i   W A N T   you to be my rock through all of this.   i wanted   you   to be the   ONE   person that wouldn’t fucking look down on me as a person because of a past   mistake.   ‘

          it struck a nerve within her upon realizing that he wasn’t   acknowledging   how distraught she was over the complication,   her mouth falling agape at the   o n l y   thing he could bring himself to mumble.   ‘   i thought he   DID.   ‘   she spat,   incredulity lacing her baby blues as a scoff bubbles past parted brims.   ‘   either way,   why does it matter   ?   it’s not like i   c h e a t e d   on you   !   i came here in search for some sort of comfort,   and somehow i couldn’t even get that from   Y O U.   ‘   nimble digits comb throughout her golden tresses,   flicking the stray strands over her shoulder.   ‘   i didn’t   want   this,   alright   ?   it just   happened.   ‘

           maybe she should’ve gone into more detail in the first place,   instead of allowing him to   wonder   and give his temper a chance to rise immediately.   ‘   it’s not what you think,   ‘   she begins,   shutting his bedroom door behind her as she cautiously plops herself down on the mattress a couple inches away from his figure.   ‘   before we started dating,   i had a   —   p a s t   with other guys   ;   i don’t really think that was a   SECRET.   ‘   a deep exhale follows her prose as she averts her glassy hues down towards her lap.   ‘   i slept with this guy before we were even together,   and now i don’t know what to do.   ‘   the saline water droplets begin to cascade down her cheeks,   however she instantly swipes them away.   ‘   i didn’t mean for you to have to deal with something like this.   you don’t deserve it,   i don’t expect you to...   —   ‘   jojo trails off,   closing her eyes as she shakes her head in utter disbelief towards herself.   ‘   i don’t expect you to   s t a y   with me.   ‘

          it’s now or   never,   and she’s aware that this information could either make them or break them.   the flaxen haired femme has been pacing about the porch for the past   FIFTEEN   minutes,   unsteady hands linking themselves together in an attempt to settle her nerves down to the core.   a frustrated groan emits from cultivated brims as she mentally scolds herself for stalling for so   d a m n   long.   there’s no turning back now,   so with one last elongated exhale,   her clenched fist is pounding against the entrance of his home,   placing her free hand against her abdomen as she already holds back the lump in her throat.   it takes about thirty seconds,   at   l e a s t,   after the individual is revealed in the doorway for jojo to ultimately speak.   ‘   we need to talk,   N O W.   ‘   pearly whites descend roughly into her lesser lip,   diverting her attention to the right of her,   only to avoid the reaction   —   to avoid the   backlash   of her careless behavior.   ‘   i’m   p r e g n a n t.   ‘

          by this point it feels as if her entire body is trembling,   baby blues shutting tightly momentarily as she anticipates his response   —   praying to   god   that he doesn’t let her walk away from that door and have that be the end of   them.   jojo has never been this vulnerable   ;   it’s a whole new ballgame for her,   and she   d e s p i s e s   the entire concept,   but she’d be vulnerable for the remainder of her life if it meant she got to keep him with her.   ‘   you really mean that   ?   ‘   she inquires,   her prose softer than it’s ever been,   and there’s a hint of a smile etched along prominent features.   it takes her no longer than ten seconds to realize what she   w a n t s,   and with that,   she throws herself into his arms,   sobbing into his chest.   ‘   i’m s-so sorry...   —   you’re not   —   you’re not dead to me.   i love you so much,   i’m   SO   S O R R Y.   ‘

          it hurts so fucking bad,   and right then and there she feels as if she’s going to   v o m i t,   her heart pounding against her chest as he inches closer towards her frail physique.   jojo swallows harshly,   a rather   blank   expression overtaking her every emotion.   ‘   i won’t.   ‘   she mutters,   voice cracking as cerulean orbs linger up to meet his.   ‘   and just so you know,   i would’ve stopped them   —   i would’ve beat the shit out of them myself had i known their motive.   somehow you automatically assume i   l e t   it happen,   like i enjoy seeing you in pain.   ‘   her temper has bubbled down to being merely   nonexistent,   although it remains in the pit of her stomach,   waiting for a chance to unveil.   ‘   if you don’t want this,   then i’ll leave,   for   GOOD   —   but that means it’s the last of us.   no apologies,   no   mending   what we had   ;   it means i’m   done.   ‘

          ‘   oh,   you were fine before i came along yet you sat there and ogled over me for months,   getting angry at   m e   when i would talk to other guys   ?   r i g h t.   ‘   and now she’s just protruding pure cockiness,   which just so happened to be her number one defense mechanism.   ‘   fuck you   !   go fuck yourself   !   ‘   the desolation is blatant in her tone of voice,   and in a spur of the moment her hands are against his chest,   shoving him with the diminutive amount of energy she held within her.   ‘   i   hate   you.   ‘   she spits through gritted teeth,   tremulous hands now lifting up to rid of the droplets underneath her eyes.   ‘   you’re   dead   to me.   go to   h e l l.   ‘

          it   h a s   to be an illusion,   the words that she   thought   she heard spilling from his lips.   her knees begin to feel weak and suddenly she’s unable to gather up the water droplets that are now cascading down her crimson tinted cheeks.   ‘   you’re not   DONE.   ‘   and her prose is rather   casual,   a defeated scoff practically knocking her off her feet.   jojo clenches her fists,   although she has no intention to cause any physical harm to the boy whom she   l o v e d.   ‘   if i would’ve known you would’ve given up that easily,   i would’ve stayed the fuck away from you.   ‘   the female understands the pain he’s feeling,   however at this point in the argument,   her blood is   boiling.   ‘   i don’t   D E S E R V E   this,   i don’t deserve to be ridiculed because of some   jackasses.   if you cared enough about me,   —   about   us   ;   you would fight for me...   now i know where you stand.   ‘

           ‘   but that’s the point,   bellamy.   all we did was insult eachother back when i dated him,   we didn’t even   like   each other.   —   why is it so important to you   ?   as if,   back then i was supposed to care what you thought   ?   ‘

          ‘   i know,   but when it has to do with them,   it always leads back to me and you know it.   you   b l a m e   me for it,   bellamy.   ‘   her prose is immediately simmered down to a hushed mumble,   a despondent exhale bubbling past her brims.   ‘   i pick   you,   obviously,   but i have a feeling you wouldn’t believe that no matter how many times i promise it.   it’s a no brainer,   you know.   i can’t believe you even had to   a s k   me that,   as if i’d put you   second.   ‘

          ‘   just because they found out i was dating you doesn’t mean it’s my fucking fault,   you   dick.   it wasn’t supposed to be a   s e c r e t   unless there’s something you’re not telling me.   ‘   a petulant expression coats her demeanor,   harsh words spewing left and right because she was so   hurt   that he was casually blaming her for the whole altercation.   ‘   i’m not going home.   i’m not leaving until you talk to me without the unnecessary attitude.   ‘   the golden haired vixen is holding back the salty tears that are threatening to emerge,   polished brims pursed into a thin line.   ‘   fuck you.   fuck you for making me feel like   s h i t   for something that i wasn’t involved in.   ‘

          ‘   why is it suddenly   relevant   ?   it’s not like it fuckin’ matters now,   it ended for a reason.   ‘

          her jaw instinctively falls agape a couple centimeters,   the other’s prose feeling like a stab in the heart.   physical   p a i n   engulfed her petite figure and it feels as if her shoes are   GLUED   to the pavement,   because if she could run away,   she   would.   ‘   but bellamy...   —   what they did had nothing to do with me.   i swear to   G O D   i had no idea that they were planning that.   ‘   the femme shakes her head in utter disbelief,   cobalt optics lingering upon the black and blue   contusion   that resided about his eye.   ‘   i’m   s o r r y.   please let me inside.   ‘