Metaphor

Hindi ko pa masyadong ma-appreciate yung Daughter From Hell kasi until now hook pa din ako sa OR3. Although inabangan ko talaga yung album at midnight tapos ni-run ko din buong album and binasa ko din buong lyrics kahit antok na antok na ko. Hindi ko pa nai-internalize yung lyrics ng sobra kaya hindi ko pa ma-appreciate unlike nung Secret Of Us. Still love ko pa din si Gracie Abrams, masyado lang akong nagandahan sa You Seem Pretty Sad For A Girl So In Love — my AOTY btw. Well, this weekend syempre on repeat sakin yung buong album ni Gracie. :)))

No matter how it seems so petty, ayokong pinapakielamanan yung decision ko lalo na alam ko yung ginagawa ko. Please stfu! Tapos pag nakakuha kayo ng reaction sakin or pag nag-snap ako from pangingielam nyo, ako pa ngayon yung mali? Tang inang yan! Anong kabobohan naman yan? Iga-gaslight pa ko na maliit na bagay lang yun tapos grabe ako magalit? Lol. Insensitive piece of shit!! Parang kayo pa yung kawawa na nagalit ako kasi pinakielaman nyo yung decision ko na at the first place sure na sure ako, kabisado ko ginagawa ko. Gagaling!!!

I’ve been holding it together these past few days because I think I’ll breakdown bc of the shits happening in my life right now. Tell me how come I received such terrible news in just one day and keeps adding up hour by hour with higher intensity than the one came before it? Tang ina naman! I feel like I’m in a domino and everything is crashing down. Where and when this will end?? Is there really a rainbow after these storms?!

There are people who keeps on looking for you even if you don’t want to be found. I am hiding, though I appreciate your effort seeking for me, know that I am disappearing for a purpose. Please don’t come looking for me. And if ever you found me, accidentally or intentionally, let me be. I promise I’ll come back, just let me be alone for a little while.