I'd tie you up and draw on you.

“My daughter turned out fine”

Depraved stuff has always amused me, I remember when I was in 7th or 8th grade, when I rediscovered something I saw as a child on the internet, it didn't give me discomfort but it gave me the utter satisfaction nothing else could give. I wasn't shocked when I saw a video of a woman being slapped and treated like a rag doll, when her clothes were torn off and when she was tied up it aroused me to the core, it ignited a flame in me nothing else could, it's then I understood that I'm different from others, I started to debate with my own self in my own head as to why do I love depraved dark things that a healthy minded person would not, but still at the core of my heart I'm a lover, a romantic who craves lil cuddles, kisses, hand holding etc.. that debate went on for years till I finally met someone who understood and accepted me for who I was, even though that person is not on my life anymore, I thank God for it, I am grateful for everything that has happed to me, I am grateful for every experience that has sculpted my mind and my spirit into the man I am now, still sucking in all the good and bad experiences like a sponge and letting go of them with gratefulness, today I'm writing this to share it with you because if you are struggling with that debate in your mind, just know, you are not a bad person, these things you love are different from you.