Not Put So Simply

a “baby did you eat today?” kind of love.

a “you’re the first person I told” kind of love.

an “I gotta kiss you before you leave” kind of love

an “I love you” before we say bye kind of love.

an “I noticed that you need this so I got it for you” kind of love.

a “we’re not going to bed til we’ve made up” kind of love.

a wipe my tears away kind of love.

a nonstop joke fest until I smile again kind of love.

a goofy smile when I walk in the room kind of love.

a hold me until my panic attack passes kind of love.

a rub my back after work kind of love.

Red panda, little ginger heart, manda panda, panda, ginger freckles, Amanda the red, whatever you go by now…

(and I do hope you actually see this)

I know you will always have a different story. You will always spread your story one way while I spread mine the other. There will be times that you hurt and wish me dead while other times you miss what we had. Most of your story is made up in your own head by the hate you made for me out of thin air. Your relationship was abusive, controlling, and down right predatory. You bragged to everyone that I was younger or that you date them barely legal. Yeah, cause that’s not creepy. That’s not predatory. But it was the truth and you continue to creepily seek out younger.

What has happened in the last 3 years for you? Here’s what has happened to me: My grandmother died, but you were there for that. Instead of holding me and reminding me that though my world was falling apart, I would be okay. Instead of telling me I would be okay, you alienated me from my closest friends. My best friends. You rid me of my support system and to this day I still miss being a true friend to Taylor Jade Cardinal. I met a girl. She’s DAMN amazing. We have gone on just about every adventure your mind could even imagine. She makes my heart skip a beat and is always patient with me. I came out to my family. The day before Thanksgiving. It was wonderful, they are so supportive, and they ADORE my girlfriend. I’m glad I didn’t waste this special moment on you. My grandfather met her, too, he loved her so stinking much. My grandfather died in my father’s arms. My family hurt so damn bad and right there at my side through my ugly crying was my lovely girlfriend. Holding me tight and telling me that I would be okay. Reminding me of his love for me. Reminding me that I can carry on his legacy. On Saturday I will be discussing my future with my girlfriend’s parents and in 9 days I will be proposing to her with the most gorgeous ring in the world with the support of not only my family and friends, but her family and friends.

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